predictable

2007-08-07T22:50:00.000+08:00

omg im such a stalker. but heck.

HOHOHOHOHO :D

i found it!

i found motorbike's friendster!

wahahahhahahahahhahahahahhahaha

and i realised, i do have very bad taste.

but heck.

off to drool.

woohoo.

2007-08-06T22:41:00.000+08:00

Your Love Alone Is Not Enough.

manic street preachers. nice song :)

i apologise, i dont really have anything to blog about. just random ramblings...

late night phone convo with yj on sat. hahah. the silly nut went to drink a double espresso at like eightpm at night. and CAFFEINE makes us HIGH. so when she called me at eleven plus she was still shrieking away into the phone. hahah.
and i was trying hard not to laugh too loudly in case i woke the whole world up.
and we talked for like... three hours? hmm wow i just realised..

anyway,
we came up with this late night mugging session idea.
which she suggested to the class today. and as usual.. everyone was like... blahhh. haiz. the class is super unenthu nowadays :/
it's weird... because... whatever happened? we've all broken up into our cliques and the people whom you used to think were nice are not that nice anymore. and people are being ostracized.. people mind their own business. people dont like each other. people are becoming poserish... and everything's just...
blahh.

i remember wanting so badly to get sixpoints so i could stay in my school and in my class and now i dont exactly remember why anymore.

oddnumbers.
im not the only one who dislikes odd numbers.

anyway, the phone convo ended up emoish so.. ahh :/

like conclusion: life's screwed. woohoo.

well anyway, bad day today. blah.
dont wanna talk about it anymore. just angry frustrated and felt like swearing nonstop.
whined abit to grace then i realised i was spreading too much of my negative karma around...
blahh ):
why am i so ap-ed?
):

i say all the right things, at exactly the right times
but i mean nothing to you and i dont know why.

it's the day to play cara's theme song!

am i not pretty enough,
is my heart too broken?
do i cry too much,
am i too outspoken?
dont i make you laugh,
should i try it harder?
why do you see right through me.

ohoh. i found some new person to worship. hahah. during fac nights. we saw this random guy sitting next to the spotlight at the LT, emoing throughout the whole night. like he was wearing black and there was a icemountain! water bottle next to him. and he just sat there on the ledge and emoed... woohoo. damn cool. haha. yay new idol.
except i dont really remember how he looks like anymore. so i wont even recognise him.

yeah.

on a thoroughly random note, im listening to like chinese songs now! wahah. sunyanzi's ying xin. which is a very nice song. and the chorus loosely translates to, i want to transform into an invisible person to cover up my hurt.

and im like listening to hiphop?/r&b? nowadays too! >< style="font-style: italic;">youre way too beautiful girl, that's why it will never work. you had me suicidal, suicidal when you say it's over.
and icebox by omarion! ive got this icebox where my heart used to be.

ohoh which reminds me.
was watching the felchin show that day. and the guy said something like
yao fang qi, yao xian fang de xia.
[to give up, you must let go first]
which makes perfect sense if you think about it :)
nice quote. haha.

yeah.

and hello xuewen! WHEE thank you for accompanying me on sat! :D :D
hahah.
i wanna go pp again.
i dont know why. haha.
and i went shopping again yesterday! woohoo.
and promptly didnt study for maths test today. how smart.

in the words of the new chem teacher, i need to focus.
BAH. i felt like strangling her today.
actually i feel like strangling her everyday.
like the other day during chem lab when they were playing with washbottles. like why are you being so anal? arrggh.
ok sorry.

2007-08-04T22:40:00.000+08:00

don't scream - there are so many roads left

i feel like crying suddenly ):
it's weird how. everyone chooses to say something at this particular moment. so you get like... bamwhamslam.. which is overwhelming. and it doesnt necessarily have to be something bad.
and i end up feeling like crying.

ohno.
im so weird.

anyway,

had facs night yest. we crashed. it was.. okay.
after that, yj and i sat at the area near the flagpole, overlooking the field. it was really nice. like.. it was dark and the lights from the inner plaza cast shadows on the field. and yj and i started doing weird stuff. like floating heads and cara shrinking.. hahah :) then we sat there in the nice breeze and emoed.
and yj blasted MIKA! on her phone.
his songs. rock.

my interpretation!
i don't need an alibi, or for you to realise
the things we left unsaid,
are only taking space up in our head.
if we forget the things we know,
would we have somewhere to go?
the only way is down, i can see that now.
this is my interpretation, and it dont have to make sense to you at all.

on another note, i heard some rotten news yesterday.
i love my grandmother. i dont want anything to happen to her again ):
and i remember when you said, everything is gonna be allright.

on yet another note, i was listening to dashboard confessional on the way home today.
i wished i didnt. im glad i did.
what a weird.. contradiction.

"Stolen" by Dashboard Confessional
We watch the season pull up its own stakes
And catch the last weekend of the last week
Before the gold and the glimmer have been replaced,
Another sun soaked season fades away

You have stolen my heart

Invitation only, grand farewells
Crash the best one, of the best ones
Clear liquor and cloudy eyed, too early to say goodnight

You have stolen my heart

And from the ballroom floor we are in celebration
One good stretch before our hibernation
Our dreams assured and we all, will sleep well

You have stolen
You have stolen my heart

I watch you spin around in your highest heels
You are the best one, of the best ones
We all look like we feel

You have stolen my
You have stolen my heart

breathe in for luck, breathe in so deep
hands down, this is the best day i can ever remember
i'll always remember the sound of the stereo;
these hearts they race from self control,
we're doing fine, we're doing nothing at all.

2007-08-01T23:09:00.000+08:00

Can I be your memory?

this is so strangely random but i was just blogsurfing when i visited someone's blog and weird memories just came pouring in..

i remember my birthday in secone. and xw and i were taking our umm morning stroll as usual when you walked up to me and handed me a grey box. with hershey's kisses and foreverfriends bear.
i remember the donut bandage.
i remember the first poc dinner and you drank this glass of water with all sorts of weird stuff in it including tomato sauce.
i remember how you used to be at the top of my msn list.
i remember our long late nights/ early mornings convos. like how i'd come online at fiveam and you'd be there. and we'd talked about stuff.. like you graduating, and how difficult it was to.. move on?
i remember your bus-stop email.
i remember alot more.

i dont know why im remembering all these...

holding on to feel the same

sugarcult's memory. awesome song :)

friends dont last forever, do they?
):

2007-07-30T18:34:00.000+08:00

i need caffeine in my bloodstream.

tea's gone cold
i'm wondering why,
got out of bed at all
the morning rain clouds up my window
and i can't see at all
even if i could, it'll all be grey
but your picture on my wall,
it reminds me that it's not so bad, not so bad.
thank you.

According to wikipedia, "In humans, caffeine is a central nervous system (CNS) stimulant, having the effect of temporarily warding off drowsiness and restoring alertness. "

today, i found another way to drive away the blues. hahah. other than retail therapy which i think im addicted to now but uses up alot of time and money...
it's coffee!

let me try to put this across coherrently... and as fast as i can before my desire to blog dies out.

i went to sch today with a horrid irritated mood. there was chem test. then there was pe. and we initially wanted to pon pe. but we ended up going and dancing some horribly boring line dancing . yes, goodness. and i was sinking into my moody ap thing again. like... how peiwen describes it hahah
"Moody, was how i would describe the look, making all apprehensive to approach.Her fringe would fall over her eyes, her face with a “i-could-care-less” look on her face, her arms folded"

then it was break. and i decided on a whim not to eat the canteen food, we ended up raiding the welfare room and eating unhealthy stuff like cup noodles. hahah. pao bu dao niu, chi pao mian.
anyway, break was very yummy. felt like eating alot. so was randomly buying like muffins from the fishtank. and i drank ICE COFFEE :) ok it was too sweet and too diluted. but it was coffee nevertheless and there was CAFFEINE. so by the time maths lecture started i got extremely high. and it was fun.. to be high. and happy and laugh over stupid things. and you dont really care that they're stupid, you just want to laugh anyway.

which made me miss the whole part about integration, but heck that.

and then i got home and when i woke up just now the caffeine was like wearing off... and i was feeling like shit im going to get moody again then i got an sms. which... made my day :)

it's... interesting because today i was feeling like...
like im sick of friends because im not even sure if they're friendships in actual fact. friends who are there because they want to be friends with you or friendships that are merely... obligatory.
like.. i thought you were my close friend but it turns out you are not or it turns out everything was just... talk without any heart in it.

like what grace sometimes ends up doing. like she'll spam you with ILOVEYOUs but then soon you'll realise that maybe she doesnt mean it. like really mean it.

like... i thought you were my close friend and i dunno... i guess i thought more of the friendship but i feel like you think of me as some friend to be ashamed of or something.. so it was abit.. sad. yeah.

i dont know if im pot calling the kettle black-ing but if i am. sorry. just let me go on meanwhile will you?

anyway,
distance is a... way of escaping i guess. like, im irritated with you but i dont really want to show it so i'll just distance myself. or... im hurt by you and i dont want to invest myself emotionally anymore so i'll just distance myself.
i think i learnt that from... someone. hahah. that someone. the one whose name rhymes with pram.

i dunno i guess each of us have our own way of dealing with things.
like someone once told me that you came up with this zen-like theory. that if you dont get too close to people, you wont feel hurt by them so it'll be fine.
but i was thinking then, isnt that a bit selfish? true, you wont feel hurt by them. but what about the people whom you've distanced yourself from? wont they feel hurt that you're drifting away? like youre protecting yourself but are you hurting others in the process?

but i guess.. it's interesting to see how people deal with things.
take for example, the subject of religion and how differences in religion can cause some conflicts and stuff.
i told my mom what grace said they were taught. something about God being angry with his people for marrying non-believers. and my mom started singing this song,
jesus loves the little children, all the children of the world.
hahah.
and jh has his analogy. like... we are all referring to the same/ similar.. higher being? it's just we're looking at it with different perspectives. who is to say who is correct? who is wrong?

yup.

anyway, back to today. a friend taught me a couple of things today, which helped.
like she said... it's difficult for us to share with others who dont really know or understand what we're going through... but yeahh i am thankful that... i was able to tell her some stuff. and she understands. and she shared some stuff with me which was... enlightening? yeah in a way.

she said the road to recovery hurts. but we'll grow up after that. and learn to face greater things in life. and i guess that's something good to look forward to. to not think about what you've lost but rather, what you have learnt/gained, or you can come out of this saying yay i've grown up.

we'll delete one sms at a time.
and when we delete the last sms, we'd finally have moved on or something.

and that's nice to look forward too, isnt it?

it's interesting.. that my windows media player is currently playing Relient K's Let It All Out. hahah
when the burden seems too much to bear,
remember the end will justify the pain it took to get us there.
let it all out, dont be alarmed when the wound begins to bleed.

anyway, we decided to give up on pao-ing guys and concentrate on pao-ing girls or eating pao mian in the end. hahah and we were like attempting to seduce each other outside the staffroom which ended up being very retarded. hahah.

the first cut is the deepest.

theres this weird feeling in me that refuses to trust.. people. i dunno. like...
it's very very scary to trust someone.

but i'll just... take her words of advice. and be thankful for today. and we'll see what the future brings? like... no expectations.

yeah.

just felt like sharing this today.

and i was positive that unless i got myself together, i would watch me fall apart
and i can't let that happen again,
cos then you'll see my heart and the saddest state it's ever been.

grace was writing a poem about love for a competition or something... and there's this line that i liked.

i let you lead me through love’s maze;

i taste a black question mark on my lips as i say your name;

2007-07-27T23:01:00.000+08:00

shit.

im in an extremely high mood now.

abit dangerous.

like molecules vibrating so fast that im going to vapourise or something...

aaahhh

-lets out a string of random words

i think im turning bimbotic.
how.
argh.
eeks.
shit.

but i just went to random junior's blog
and i realised that hurrahh there's still hope for me!
HAHAHAHA
:D

2007-07-26T21:30:00.000+08:00

jealousy turning saints into the sea,
swimming through sick lullabies.

This is the hardest story that I’ve ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I feel as if I’m wastin’
And I’m wastin’ everyday

This is the way you left me,
I’m not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it’s forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

me face down, down across the floor.
you got your gun to my head.

i'm coming out of my cage
and i've been doing just fine.

class, you need to focus.

blahhhh.

2007-07-23T23:00:00.001+08:00

hahah
i think im beginning to understand the meaning of retail therapy.
or it could be that im turning bimbotic.
-scandalous gasp

but whatever.

shopping with yj and df was FUN :D

and im very tired now.
and broke too.

and i didnt do any work.

ah heck.

wheeeeeee :D

2007-07-23T12:27:00.000+08:00

i wanna wake up kicking and screaming.

说你爱我
变成一种问候
不如趁早放手
把爱坠落
让满地鲜红
说你爱我
变成一种折磨
不用陪我走到最后
我承担不起你的承诺

zomg. im listening to chinese songs.
df's influence. hahah.

im talking more to her recently. telling her stuff. i dont know if it's a good idea. but heck. wouldnt it be nice to trust someone just without qualms?
that's a stupid thing to do i know.
but im stupid anyway.

i envy df.
well at least... it kind of... gives you hope that things will turn out fine?
that everybody gets through it?
i dont know.

we came up with an analogy today. yj df and i. hahah other than the wanton mee one. this one's about fishermen. fishermen who fish for fish, then once they've gotten a catch they realise, oh this fish is actually not nice, or ohno im actually allergic to this type of fish im not allowed to eat this type of fish or i'll be a sinner, and then they dump the fish back into the river. and they dont really care that theres some hook dangling at the fish's mouth. that the fish is dying. or scarred for life or whatever.
stupid shits.

hahah i can think of a lot of alliterations for stupidshits.

nf returned me twelfth night today. :) i like twelfth night. the themes and all..? yeahh and cos im such a nerdy mugger, random things will remind me of quotes from twelfth night. like..
if music be the food of love, play on.

and we'll strive to please you everday.

for the rain it raineth everyday.

i wished sometimes i could stop living in the past. like living in my memories.
i wished i had the courage to just pick my phone up and delete everything. like tada! everything's gone. fresh clean slate. be happy again. yay.
blah.
i'd decided to embrace them last time. like... yeah memories so what? just think of them and move along.. but now im scared of them. blah.

sigh half day today.
im going shopping.
bye.

i'm bleeding;
here we are now with the desperate youth and pain,
we're awakening

2007-07-21T22:40:00.000+08:00

df introduced this to me :) hahah love the lyrics

好眼泪坏眼泪
我曾认真深爱著一个人他给我幸福的可能
我等我问未来何时发生他只是给我一个吻

快乐我哭是因为你的手曾答应带我向前走
难过我哭是因为我的手找不到你说的以后

好眼泪坏眼泪我都曾为你流感动和悲伤都是理由
只不过在你不再爱我了以后剩坏的眼泪慢慢流

快乐我哭是因为我付出得到你温柔的答覆
难过我哭是因为我任性你的心永远留不住

好眼泪坏眼泪我都曾为你流感动和悲伤都是理由
只希望在我不再想你了之后有好的眼泪慢慢流

好眼泪坏眼泪我都曾为你流感动和悲伤都是理由
只希望在我不再想你了之后有好的眼泪慢慢流

有好的笑容陪著我

finished with harrypotter.
not sure i liked it...

abit like.. watching lotr return of the king..

too many people died.
):

2007-07-20T22:34:00.000+08:00

"Grace Kelly" by MIKA!

"I have to talk to you."
"The last time we talked, Mr. Smith, you reduced me to tears. I promise you it want happened again."

Do I attract you?
Do I repulse you with my queasy smile?
Am I too dirty?
Am I too flirty?
Do I like what you like?

I could be wholesome
I could be loathsome
I guess I'm a little bit shy
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me without making me try?

I tried to be like Grace Kelly
But all her looks were too sad
So I try a little Freddie
Ive gone identity mad!

I could be brown
I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful
I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green
Gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you walk out the door!

How can I help it
How can I help it
How can I help what you think?
Hello my baby
Hello my baby
Putting my life on the brink
Why don't you like me
Why don't you like me
Why don't you like yourself?
Should I bend over?
Should I look older just to be put on your shelf?

I tried to be like Grace Kelly
But all her looks were too sad
So I try a little Freddie
Ive gone identity mad!

I could be brown
I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful
I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green
Gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you walk out the door!

Say what you want to satisfy yourself
But you only want what everybody else says you should want

I could be brown
I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful
I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green
Gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you walk out the door!

hello!

i cant help blogging. haha.

and im irritated with the electron cloud!!! ><

aah this sucks. i dont get it. why must it be our phones?!

):

lala i feel like puking.
blah.

heard about some sad news about the senior class.. ahwells.. haiz. nothing really lasts forever, does it. how... depressingly annoying.

but the senior class is cool. they're alot more... together than us i think. our class is like...
i dunno. weirdly cliquish. it's changed alot from the start of the year.
not sure i like it anymore...

people change.
blah.

2007-07-20T00:29:00.000+08:00

turn and face the strain, ch-ch-changes
but i can't trace time

davidbowie!

i need to sleep early.
but it's abit too late to be sleeping early.

i changed my layout.
i used this really long ago. but i like the feeling. of using something... old. familarity. i think im a sucker for familarity. i detest changes. but anyways, yeahh, i like this feeling of using... something i've used before. feels safer that way? maybe.

and besides, switchfoot is nice.

gone, like frank sinatra
nothing lasts in this life.

i need to go. like really soon.

im closing the other blog down. which is a good thing i guess. it was never meant to be... open. like, originally started blogging back at the jaywalk blog cos i wanted to keep in touch. like, share experiences. so we wouldnt talk about stupid things like the weather when we met. but... it's okay now i guess. not a prob. i think there's over-sharing. i think if people have to hear me whine one more time they might just fucking kill me. i wished they did.
ok i should stop talking like that.
anyways, yup. i dunno somehow... some stupid ego and self-centred thing make me keep that blog alive, and then it became the blogdrive one. then it became the dirtyhands one. like... blahh.
and i wasnt even supposed to have a tagboard.
aiyah whatever. im closing that down.
everything's lost its meaning anyway.

im not ready.
not anymore.
not ready for tomorrow.
but tomorrow's coming anyway.

2007-07-19T18:45:00.001+08:00

"Valentine's Day" by Linkin Park

My insides all turned to ash, so slow
And blew away as I collapsed, so cold
A black wind took them away, from sight
And held the darkness over day, that night

And the clouds above move closer
Looking so dissatisfied
But the heartless wind kept blowing, blowing
I used to be my own protection, but not now
Cause my path had lost direction, somehow
A black wind took you away, from sight
And held the darkness over day, that night

And the clouds above move closer
Looking so dissatisfied
And the ground below grew colder
As they put you down inside
But the heartless wind kept blowing, blowing

So now you're gone, and I was wrong
I never knew what it was like, to be alone

On a Valentine's Day, on a Valentine's Day
On a Valentine's Day, on a Valentine's Day
On a Valentine's Day, on a Valentine's Day
(I used to be my own protection, but not now)
On a Valentine's Day, on a Valentine's Day
(Cause my mind has lost direction, somehow)
On a Valentine's Day, on a Valentine's Day
(I used to be my own protection, but not now)
On a Valentine's Day, on a Valentine's Day
(Cause my mind has lost direction, somehow)

2007-07-19T18:23:00.000+08:00

tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart.

thank you xw :) for smsing me the other day. ahah.. and i miss you so damn much :/ i cant wait for end of july to come..

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told

hello there

bsb rocks. because there's a song that goes:
i just want you to know,
that i've been fighting to let you go.
some days i make it through,
then there's nights that never end.

yesterday night sucked. my insomnia came back again :/ i dont want anymore of yesterday nights. i want happy nights. where i sleep early. and i look forward to the next day.

theres something bad about lying to yourself. cos theres always the chance that your lies just... collapse on you. and reality crashes. and it hits you right in the face or whatever and it hurts like mad.

i dont know. what to think actually.
i wished i didnt think actually.

argh. im irritated with myself :/

was talking to yj today.. about... self-reliance? yeah sort of. like how everything... you have to handle it yourself. you handle your own problems. you take your own shit. you make yourself happy.
it's good i guess. cos then you're not dependent on others for being happy.
but what happens when you get tired? of this stupid burden. of taking your own shit. what happens when you feel so so sick and tired of making yourself happy?
you have to be strong. but what happens when you feel weak?
what happens?
i dunno.

i bleed it out just to throw it away.

sometimes i lose my patience.
i wish i didnt.
sometimes i get tired of MHL and i just wanna sulk in a corner and fade away.
sometimes i hate being so thickskinned and butting in.
i wish i didnt. have to butt in. have to be the odd number.
sometimes i just want to hide somewhere and not come out, even though the toilet stinks like mad :/
sometimes i feel very bad. like.. they're trying. they're making an effort. why cant you? why cant you? why cant you snap out of... whatever world youre stoning in?
sometimes i dont feel like stoning.
sometimes i feel like jumping around and hugging everyone and going high.

im talking nonsense now..

on another note,

i told my mum my blocktests results yesterday...

sometimes i feel resentful. like it's her fault that i cant meet up to standards because her expectatons are wayy too freaking high.
sometimes i feel guilty for being resentful. because.. come to think of it... what's wrong with high expectations? why settle for a B when you could have gotten an A? you need that A.

i wish we all could win
i wish we all could make our mothers proud

im tired.
i want to sleep.

2007-07-14T22:26:00.000+08:00

one, is the loneliest number.

i wonder what it's like...

home alone alot recently.
it's supposed to be nice, and in a way, i guess it is. because i've always liked to be alone, like me myself and i time. it's nice not to have expectations or whatsnot. it's less stressful that way i guess?

but in a way, it gives you alot alot alot of space to think.
and sometimes thinking is not good. especially when you have a freaking stubborn head like cara. you shoudnt think so much.

haiz.

it just occured to me, how freaking alone i am.

like... just one. person.

my dad's never home. my mom's working now so shes barely home. i have no siblings. my cousin is preoccupied with her bf. like...
sometimes i wonder what's it like. to come home from school. and tell someone, hey i've had a really rotten day today. let's have some fun.
or something like that.
wonder what it is like to tell someone, hey im stuck with this problem. can you help me?

but then again, ive been alone for so long. like... seventeen years.? probably less than that.

and i wonder, why is it i could make it then and im finding it so hard now?

why does everything i used to have seem so far away now?

like somehow.. everything changed. and im trying hard to fit back into my old life but i cant. like...
some weird organ transplant thingy. like you want your old kidney back but your body keeps rejecting it or something?
ok lousy analogy but yeah.

it's so so damn hard to stay positive. i've been trying to. really, i have.
i've been trying so hard not to wallow, not to think, to... just be contented.
but im fast losing the short-lived epiphany i'd experienced.

live through this and you won't look back.

i dont know what to do with me anymore ):

2007-07-13T17:21:00.000+08:00

ahh didnt like the last post...

ahwhatever.

just wanted to say...

you're a sweetkid.
but you're also an asshole.

and right now, you seem more of an asshole so..

fuck off.

yay.

i will be happy and enlightened :)

2007-07-12T23:02:00.000+08:00

HELLO XUEWEN :D
im updating!

hahah

well anyway

Today i was told that im a sinner because i dont believe in your God.
i can't help but think that it's a wrong decision to go but.. ahwells. cant cry over spilt milk, even though i would very much like to.
but the whole session thing just made me... think alot. and i got really confused. and scared.
and it was like.. during the sharing session everyone was talking, and when it came to my turn it was just... stuck there. like what am i supposed to say? like "uhmm hey guys the sin you were talking about? i am a sinner." then i'll probably sit there for the rest of the time with people shooting me weird looks or something.
am i ashamed?
no i'm not. and dont think you can make me either.

i told this lady before i left. that i had thought about it before. i've had the opportunity to make the choice and i've chosen it. and like they were discussing about today, we do have the freedom. so i guess you guys have the freedom to believe in your god. and so do i. my buddha.
and i had this sudden urge to.. get closer to my religion.
i'll get happier definitely :) but i'll have to give up some things.. which i dont think im ready to yet.

yeahh ahwells.
but the whole thing was beneficial lah. as in.. i learnt some stuff. and it was definitely meaningful. and less pressing as... other experiences i've had. so yeah.

and i realised that different churches/ groups have different opinions and ways of handling things so i guess yeah...

ah wells.

dont really like to talk about these things cos i dont really want to offend people so umm i'll shut up about it now. haha

yeah,
on another note.

i feel this... horrible sense of dread which i cant make out if it's just plain paranoia or some weird instinct or just.. deduction or... just... the truth.
but yeah this prickly feeling... like theres a knife thats going to stab right at you. really soon. but.
you are my friend.
you are supposed to be my friend.
but i dont trust you.
because i feel as though you are going to backstab me real soon. like... stab right in the heart.

how painful will that be.
ouch.

i wished you werent such a hypocrite.
in fact, i wished both of you would mean what you said for once, so i dont have to keep second guessing or whatever.
i wished when you people say "i love you" or "i miss you" you really mean it and you dont say it because it sounds nice or it makes you sound good or it's just a bimbotic/ in thing to do.

you make me so..
disgusted and scared of you that i feel like running away

run away with my heart
run away with my love

note: disclaimer. im not talking about you xw! ahah

and i think it sucks when you cant trust anyone.
but yeah i dont think i do.
i cant. get myself to trust someone completely.
which is a good thing i suppose.
like i was thinking and thinking and the only friend whom i can say i somehow trust... to say what i feel/ not to do anything horrible to me/ backstab me.. is like. one person.

wouldnt it be nice..
if someone could tell me "everything will be allright" and i'll believe her/him
because i know he/she is someone i can count on
and i trust that person?

2007-07-08T18:12:00.000+08:00

i disconnect my heart, my head

i'm ready to fall
i'm ready so don't call
i'm ready.

:)

2007-07-03T00:05:00.001+08:00

hahah

thank you xuewen :D

<3

and while im at it,

thank you to my idol and ralph :)

although youall dont read this.
hahah.

hahah this is so weird
but i suddenly feel very :) and loved.
and i realise that i have alot alot of nice friends who care alot for me.
yeahh so there is absolutely no reason why i should be so... hung up over just...
two people who dont care.?
yeah.

yup seriously.

aahh im really touched :D hahah and im getting all soppy and mushy but yeahh...
:D :D :D

yj just msged me to ask if i was awake, then when i replied i was, she smsed this:
"Hor! I knew it! U! Go sleep u stubborn ass. U'l fall aslp durin lessns tmr n u'l haf lotsa pimples due to your weird sleepin time!"

LOL.

hahah okay!
cara will sleep early! and she wont pon sch! and she'll be a strong girl and settle everything!

HUFFAHH :D

2007-07-02T20:32:00.000+08:00

ten weeks you shaped it,
one night you murdered it.

damn im blogging all over the place.

i like writing.
random words and stuff.
i think it's an ego thing.

whatever.

She cut herself on a piece of paper
It didn't hurt, but she saw the blood
She could need that embrace, you weren't there

You weren't there, distant, far away
It's like this every day, they see you in their heads
Wonder if you'll come
Afraid to close their eyes, and miss you once again

that was such a pointless phone call.

it was.. interesting. coincidences.

like.

phone call. puts down the phone. hmv starts playing Against All Odds.
wah.
like some korean drama serial.

but yeah,
sometimes i wonder why you do the things you do.
do you do it on purpose?
can you tell?

i should learn to be more two-faced.
like wahah im pissed mann. but i'll still smile right into your face.

i dont know.
what i should do actually.

if you dont have the answer,
why you still standing here?
just walk away.

what do i do?
hmm

here i go, dirtyhands i dont give a damn
i flick a finger to the world below

aiyah. sch tmr.
fuck man.
i want to PON.
can i?

one day. i'll . hahah. wouldnt it be nice? like no sch.
for three fucking months.
and you get to enjoy the world of me myselfand i, take super long busrides to nowhere in particular.
nice.

2007-07-01T22:50:00.000+08:00

oh look what you've done,
you've made a fool of everyone.

argh.

why can't people say what they mean,
or at least mean what they say.
if you're not going to mean it, why say it?
why lie?

liar, if we're keeping score
we're all choir boys at best
intrusive and arrogant.

and you're supposed to be my friend.

for so many months, i struggled to remember why i didnt used to like you.
why i didnt used to trust you.
why i used to scream f words at you all the time.

now i remember.

and i cant keep myself from getting annoyed. which sucks.
because you're supposed to be my friend.

i just wished i hadn't let my guard down.

and i cant stop thinking about how.. damnnit i used to know. i used to be careful.
then somewhere along the lines i started believing you.

fuck.
look what i've done.

what if i fell to the floor
couldnt take this anymore?
what would you do?

now i'm just going to keep smiling while you stab at my heart.

go on, maybe then i wont feel anything anymore.

if i go crazy then will you still call me superman?

i wished i wasnt so annoyed.

i wished nothing had happened.

why am i so stupid.

"A Place For My Head" by Linkin Park

I watch how the
Moon sits in the sky / in the dark night
Shining with the light from the sun
The sun doesn't give / light to the moon assuming
The moon’s going to owe it one
It makes me think of how you act to me / You do
Favors and then rapidly / You just
Turn around and start asking me / about
Things that you want back from me
I’m sick of the tension / sick of the hunger
Sick of you acting like I owe you this
Find another place / to feed your greed -
While I find a place to rest
I want to be in another place
I hate when you say you don’t understand
(You’ll see it's not meant to be)
I want to be in the energy, not with the enemy
A place for my head
Maybe someday I’ll be just like you / and
Step on people like you do and / Run
Away the people I thought I knew
I remember back then who you were
You used to be calm / used to be strong
Used to be generous / but you should’ve known / That you’d
Wear out your welcome / now you see
How quiet it is / all alone / I’m so
Sick of the tension / sick of the hunger
Sick of you acting like I owe you this
Find another place / to feed your greed -
While / I find a place to rest / I’m so
Sick of the tension / sick of the hunger
Sick of you acting like I owe you this
Find another place / to feed your greed -
While / I find a place to rest
You try to take the best of me
go away.

i watch the walls around me crumble,
but it's not like i won't build them up again.

cara is childish ):

cos i'm a loser
and sooner or later you'll know
i'll be dead.

2007-07-01T11:14:00.001+08:00

"The Kill" by 30 Seconds To Mars

What if I wanted to break
Laugh it all off in your face
What would you do? (Oh, oh)
What if I fell to the floor
Couldn't take all this anymore
What would you do, do, do?

Come break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you

What if I wanted to fight
Beg for the rest of my life
What would you do?
You say you wanted more
What are you waiting for?
I'm not running from you (from you)

Come break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you

I tried to be someone else
But nothing seemed to change
I know now, this is who I really am inside.
Finally found myself
Fighting for a chance.
I know now, this is who I really am.

Ah, ah
Oh, oh
Ah, ah

Come break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you, you, you.
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you

Come break me down (bury me, bury me)
Break me down (bury me, bury me)
Break me down (bury me, bury me)

(You say you wanted more)
What if I wanted to break...?
(What are you waiting for?)
Bury me, bury me
(I'm not running from you)
What if I
What if I
What if I
What if I
Bury me, bury me

jiayou?

everything's gonna be alright.
be strong believe.

2007-06-29T23:10:00.000+08:00

My heart is broke
But I have some glue
Help me inhale
And mend it with you
We'll float around
And hang out on clouds
Then we'll come down
And have a hangover

dumb by nirvana.

haha.

i need nirvana.

2007-06-29T09:50:00.001+08:00

“The Good Kind” by The Wreckers

Do you want to run away together
I would say it was your best line ever
Too bad I fell for it
And I walked alone
Waiting for you to come along
Take my tortured heart by the hand
And write me off

[Chorus]
Do you know I cry
Do you know I die
Do you know I cry
And it’s not the good kind

You forced me to become strong
When I just craved being weak

And you think you know
And I would like to think so
But do you know that when you go
I fall apart

[Chorus]

I’m tired of hiding
Behind these lying eyes
I’m tired of this smile
That even I don’t recognize

[Chorus 3x]

Do you know I cry

2007-06-29T01:14:00.003+08:00

stop stealing my goodcharlotte.

):

ok
that's selfish.

):

but holdon is ruined

and it's all i had ):

2007-06-28T22:21:00.000+08:00

Today I screwed up again,
I wasn't paying attention, I walked into the wall again,
So I'm feeling like I'm not fitting in,
I know that I'm not fitting in with you,
I get the point.

today was fucked up.

i'd wanted to blog some happy entry in my other blog about how wonderful it is that blocks are over that we dont have to study more and that we can slack.
then i realised that i have been slacking anyways. even with the blocks so whats the point.
nothing to feel liberated about.
nothing to feel happy about.
and i dont even give a fuck that i screwed up all my papers.
just doing.. and it's like fuck i give up.

4.7 is gone.

lost somewhere.

and windows live is too lazy to get her back.

i think i shall just live in my make-believe world.

and heck the real world.

blocks are over. we dont have to go to sch till monday.
yay me myself and i.

i lied today.

such a big lie and i dont know why i lied too.

jealousy is a ugly thing.

so is hate.

how fucked up are you.

yay. i like blogging here.
cos i can swear all i like.

fuckfuckfuck.

quit swearing bitch.

god im so stupid.

2007-06-28T01:44:00.000+08:00

eeyer

why am i back again to blog?

haiz.

it's been a while,
since i've gone and fuck things up like i always do

hahaha like real.

ARGGH
i cant stop swearing.

2007-06-27T19:54:00.000+08:00

im back. again.

your days, you say they're way too cold
and the nights, you can't sleep at all

four weeks of holidays. and i almost forgot how much school sucks.

which probably explains why it's sucking more than usual lately.

i hate school.
i want to PONN.

after blocks.

):

2007-06-27T00:37:00.000+08:00

very weirdly enough i'm blogging here again.

this shall be my SECRET blog, where i can spill all my juicy secrets and NOBODY will read it. yayy

ok whatever.

im being abit high now because i just read our FUNKIFIED blog and aahh all the nice memories :D :D

ahwells.

sweet beginnings, and bitter endings.
in coffee city, we borrowed heaven

dont tell me you have to go....

the heat of summer sunshine
i miss you like nobody else
the heat of summer sunshine
i'll kiss you, and nobody needs to know

unbreak my heart,
say you'll love me again.

sighh what do you do what you are depressed? and you dont want to be some emofreak?
):

im falling down,
try and stop me,
feels so good,
to hit the ground.

SPLAT.

ouch.

):

grab it, rabbit, run.

2006-11-06T18:56:00.000+08:00

what the hell

trying to look for blogskins and blog while my crackhead computer keeps going on and offline. damn. why do all my computers screw up? first some shitty restarty one. and now this horrible one that goes offline whenever it feels like it.

i think it's the work of some higher power [hallelujah music plays] whose trying to get me to study instead of blog. but what the hell. i want to blog so stop making me waste my time and hurry load you asshead!

aargggh.

but no, i didnt wait so friggin long to sign in to blog about how friggin long i have to wait for my computer to load stuff. came here to blog about.. um..

how i have no idea why im blogging. when nobody knows about this blog. or at least dont know that im blogging in it again. ah whatever lah.
but it's nice to read old blogs because you kinda relive whatever it was that you felt at that time? and feel stupid too. yeah.

but anyway, it's like, SS IS OVER! yay.
it was quite sad. after spending so much time looking for examples and trying to memorise and freaking out for Sustaining Economic Development, it DIDNT COME OUT.
damn. all that came out was merger, northern ireland and education. abish.
ah wells. at least merger came out. everyone was hoping that merger would come out..
see the whole combined prayer thing works!
haha

i think everyone's just waiting for the olevels to be over. like waiting and waiting. and taking each day of mugging as it comes. it kinda feels less painful now actually. like, youre getting numb to it and all..

i've become so numb, i can't feel you there

oh and i finished playing one case of my csi game! haha i told xuewen i wouldnt start till after the olevels but it was just too good to resist. but anyway, yay! feel quite accomplished cos i nearly died playing it. spent so long looking for all the evidence before i realised that i could just drag the damn thing to greg to compare. abish.

it's sevenpm now! goong. which is this weird princess hours show that everybody seems to obsess over. but the episode i watched on friday totally turned me off. it was so bloody sloww.

and suddenly, everyone signs off on msn. haha. really. it's like, whoa this whole chunk of people went missing. either theres a whole bunch of people who hates me and is blocking me. or they've all gone to watch goong. or maybe they're just eating dinner lah.

honestly. doesnt anyone make nice blogskins nowadays?

argh. im officially irritated.

captain funkycurls!

2006-11-03T00:13:00.001+08:00

well hello!

it's abit weird, you might think, that i'm updating and reviving this old old blog. which i havent used in, only about a year's time actually.
but a year's long enough time for some things to change, and boy have they changed.

haha but anyway, i decided that i got sick of myself and i shall go back to what i used to be!

like exclamation marks!! all over!!

and horrible spelling!

it's abit weird to revive my old blog halfway during the exams also actually.

im weird lah.

but anyway, i finally found out the title of the song that i like, it's called Captain funkycurls! i think. it's by THE GREAT SPY EXPERIMENT which i instantly like after listening to their song and visiting their myspace thing because they are influenced by THE KILLERS.

[go watch the killers' bones vid btw. directed by timburton]

yay the wonders of myspace.
and i like rivermaya too! :)
haha and evelyn says that peterpan's songs are nice but i probably dont understand them cos they're in indonesian language. but they're from bandung! haha. i think.

2005-02-05T23:29:00.000+08:00

[[music playing: soldier by destiny's child]]

there she goes
there she goes again
racing through my brain
and i just can't contain
this feeling that remains
there she blows
there she blows again
pulsing through my vein
and i just can't contain
this feeling that remains

there she goes
there she goes again
racing through my brain
and i just can't contain
this feeling that remains

there she goes
there she goes again
she calls my name
she pulls my train
no one else could heal my pain
and i just can't contain
this feeling that remains

there she goes
there she goes again
chasing down my lane
and i just can't contain
this feeling that remains
there she goes by sixpence none the richer

I CUT MY HAIR!!! haha, yes i know. i keep cutting my hair. like i just cut it during the dec hols and you prob didnt realised cuz it wasnt much of a diff. but anyway, yes. i cut it and it's gross now. my ponytail looks like a stick sticking out. seriously. the hairdresser made my hair so flat and gross. it looks rebonded. flat and straight. like the hair's stuck on my head or im balding or something.
I HATE MY HAIR !!!
don't laugh at me when you see my hair on monday.
i think i shant go to school. i shall be living with my head in a huge paperbag for the next couple of months until my hair grows longer and thicker before i appear in public.
and chinese new year is around the corner. -faints-

i met gloria after my haircut yesterday. ): my mom was dragging me to say hi. so malu. like me and my gross hair and gloriacheng had to be there to see it before i could hide myself in a paperbag. urgh ):

I LURVE MY BABY COUSIN!! i think hes super cute (: he was singing the spiderman song,which went: "spiderman spiderman, i can see your underwear" . it's to the tune of that spiderman song that the underground basking [?] woman was singing in spiderman II.

I LURVE MY COUSIN'S BABY TOO!! as in her dog. named baby. i think the name's too common. she should have been called Donut :D i think Baby's super cute too (:

this is very random.

we're starting to think about talentime now. haha. like, eleven months earlier. i came up with a drama idea which grace, like always, dismissed it as sucky. she always does that to my ideas. that's why i told xuewen to tell grace that it was gloria's idea. but xuewen forgot. ): and grace has an idea. but she refuses to tell us.
xuewen came up with an idea for song. and she kept insisting on using Summer Nights which sucks because it's one of my fav 2sy memory and i wasnt going to let anyone ruin it. not saying that we will ruin it but still.. i dont think it will work. but then again, i'm only one person out of eight people in my level. so i cant help it if xuewen and gloria and graceteh keeps insisting on wanting the idea and me thinking that it's totally VERY BAD and they end up using summer nights because who gives a hoot about what i think right.
but anyway, xuewen came up with this song. i thought the song's nice. well, i havent actually heard it. the cd's with gloria.
and xuewen's obsessed with everything retro. shes like, lets do a retro song. lets do a retro song for dance. lets do a retro drama. well, she didnt exactly say that. like, retro drama? like we have gloria as john travolta and grace teh as olivia newton-john and they'll be singing and dancing.
ewww.

we're supposed to be watching Ghost right now. but i don't feel like it. i borrowed Code Name Cassandra. (: not very nice. actually, i dont really like the MISSING series. i prefer.. i dunno? i dont like princess diaries. haunted is okay lar.. yeah. wanted to find the great gatsby but i couldnt find. and i borrowed Hannibal (: it's not very nice. but i have a crush on hannibal lector. haha. okay im mad.

can't wait for alias. michael just found out that lauren was evil.

charmed ended. CHRIS DIED. yep. pity. no more drew fuller to oogle at. hope hes going to appear often in the next season.

theres so many tests coming up. chem. bio. ting xie. blah blah.
and for the lit trip, like no one in my class is going. great huh. im the only one. ): shonda's going back to canada. lucky her.

i dont really know why i'm updating when theres really nothing worth writing about.

2005-02-02T22:36:00.000+08:00

we MOVED!!

2005-01-31T22:55:00.000+08:00

doodleboard is down ):

Un-break my heart
Say you'll love me again
Undo this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked outta my life
Un-cry these tears
I cried so many nights
un-break my heart

i miss you, miss you so bad..
some don't even care, do they? i hate them.

2005-01-26T23:13:00.000+08:00

i can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
I'm just out to find
The better part of me

I'm more than a bird...i'm more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
It's not easy to be me

Wish that i could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home i'll never see

It may sound absurd...but don't be naive
Even heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed...but won't you concede
Even heroes have the right to dream
It's not easy to be me

Up, up and away...away from me
It's all right...you can all sleep sound tonight
I'm not crazy...or anything...

I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
Men weren't meant to ride
With clouds between their knees

I'm only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me
Inside of me
Inside me
Yeah, inside me
Inside of me

I'm only a man
In a funny red sheet
I'm only a man
Looking for a dream

I'm only a man
In a funny red sheet
And its not easy, hmmm, hmmm, hmmm...

Its not easy to be me
superman (it's not easy) by five for fighting

man, this song brings back memories...
realised i havent updated for a long time. haha.. i mean, really update. like a nice long entry. the nice long entry i had was like, last last saturday, after flag day. haha..

BRAND NEW SEASON OF CSI RETURNING ON AXN, 16 FEB!

(:
i hope i've got the date right.

anyway, read Every Boy's Got ONe by meg cabot. graceteh lend it to me. i dont like it. it increases my erm, anti-american sentiments. yup. and the story is so cliche. like boy meets girl. girl doesnt like boy, boy doesnt like girl. suddenly, they fall in love and have sex [actually they dont really fall in love. they probably just feel sexually attracted to each other or something]. yuck. and the characters are losers.
read wuthering heights. (: i dont like the characters. only person i like is mrs deans. hate healthcliff. cath is a +toot+ linton jr is a wimp. read silence of the lambs. yes, i've been reading a lot and neglecting my homework!! like, i keep studying for tests last minute cuz i'll spend the whole time reading. anyway, silence of the lambs is nice!! (: i think hannibal lector is sexy. haha. in a way. but i probably wont find him sexy if i end up in his cooking pot.. and i think it'll be really cool to be him. like hes super smart. minus the cannibal part [gross] and the fact that hes locked up in an asylum. well, not anymore, since he escaped thanks to the stupidity of CHILTON, the losery director of the asylum. hah! TAKE THAT YOU SUCKER! i hate him. well anyway, lector is nicer to clarice than to will. like, in red dragon, he was super mean. he asked francis dolarhyde aka red dragon aka the psycho to attack will. but hes nicer to clarice starling in this story. like, he help her and is like.. i dunno.. hes nicer to her lar. i want to watch silence of the lambs! does anyone have the vcd??!!!
and xuewen's never heard of silence of the lambs. or seventh heaven. SHE DOESNT HAVE A LIFE. (;

oh, and thankew to sin wen ma'am!! -beams- haha.. she gave me a doggie!! (: i took the female one. the one with the weird-looking red ribbon on its head. haha. gloria's got the male one. she wanted the blue. [i know what you're thinking, you dirty fellows out there. haha. the pot calling the kettle black. nevermind. you dont know the joke.] anyway, thanks to xuewen, our doggies have stupid names. mine's called PARSLEY and gloria's called PASTA. it was during chinese period, before recess, so understandably, we were all thinking of food. but parsley?? hmm...

you make me wanna lala.. i dont know why, but this song is stuck in my head.

oh, and christie is forever having those mags... you know those "gossip rags" like the paparazzi thingy? yeahs. and it's always brad pitt and jennifer anniston on the cover. haha.. was reading her mags during the free periods today. there were good charlottte!!!! WHEEEEEEEEEEEE. dont understand why no one else thinks joel is hott. minus the hilary duff part. and IF YOU EVER DARE MARRY HILARY DUFF, JOEL. I AM GOING TO.. err... THROW ALL YOUR CDS DOWN THE DRAIN!! hrrrmph. maybe i shouldnt. urgh. forget it. -looks pissed-
oh anyway, what christie said was so totally true. BRAD PITT DOESNT SUIT ANGELINA JOLIE!!
like..
brad and angelina.
so weird.
brad and jen. isnt that much nicer?

did you watch charmed today? leo had porcupine head. HAHAHAHAH. and chris' hairstyle was gross. dont understand why in tv, its like, if you're bad means you have bad hair. cornny.
and i think baby wyatt is so cute.

and in alias, lauren killed her father!!! $%%#%@$@^@$%!!! [i will not swear, i will not swear.] it's like... URGH. okay she wasnt the one who pulled the trigger. it was her mom. yes weird. but she brought the gun and all so...!! urghh. and michael went back to her!! and sydney was so sad... and i realised that it's not dickson. it's DIXON. ah wells...

watched elecktra!! not very nice. but i love jennifer garner's body. haha, i sound biantai.

2005-01-24T20:26:00.000+08:00

check THIS out. created by grace teh. haha

2005-01-22T14:30:00.000+08:00

hrrmph. so much for SUPPORTIVE and ENCOURAGING friends. ): everyone's questioning my ermm intention of quitting swearing. -looks extremely offended-

i shall PROVE IT TO YOU THEN, you evil poks!
this shall be a swear-free, absolutely clean entry (:

my tagboard diary is gone!! it's not regenerated or whatever. hrmmph. irritating...

gloria messed up her diary. sighh.

and gloria, if you happen to read this: WE ARE NOT CHILDISH K. i wasnt the one who said that you and shonda were tian mi mi. [yvonne and graceteh must be jumping in their seats now]laoshi did. and have fun sitting behind yuyang. maybe for once you'll stop looking down on short people. MWAHAHAHAH.
i'm evil (:

2005-01-15T21:39:00.000+08:00

pics! for fun...

becky and shermin. taken long long donkey years ago...

xuewen. taken on the day she came with braces. i think.

it's a bug! it's an insect! it's spiderman!!

actually, it's my baby cousin, junxiang aka spiderboy

2005-01-15T21:15:00.000+08:00

[[music playing: over and over by nelly feat. tim mcgraw]]

gracetan: whoops. sorry. and hitler's moustache aint weird! it looks like a toothbrush.. haha..
melody: hey! ermm haha im a very gossipy person.. -hides face-
rachel: hrrmpph! i care k?!! -knocks rachel's head- ewww you are soo violent.. :S and i hope that you are not calling me cara cow. if not i. will. murder. you. -waves knife in the air-

went for flag day today. wished there was a nicer way to get cip hours other than to keep asking people to donate. i wanna go library to do cip hours.. sighh ): i am absolutely sick of being snubbed and dao-ed by people.

the world is black and hearts are cold

not exactly though. there were a few extremely nice people today (:
was saying to xuewen that the only time i'm ever in orchard is when im flag-selling... haiz.

well anyway, i went to somerset mrt today and met a couple of losers. not that im sexist, but they were guys... and anyway, i met yuankheng and binbin. den they said they wanted to go shop around before the thing started and i had to go meet xuewen... so we said bye. and as i was walking thru this crowd of stupid jerks, they started like, saying "bye" i mean the guys. so they went "bye" "bye" "bye". moronic right? yes. anyway, i was like, whatever, and started walking away. so met xuewen and stuffs.. and i was like saying how irritating that bunch of people were and yuankheng and binbin were so amused. and xuewen started telling them about that stupid fella who knocked into me the other time when i was selling bendy pens and i started to curse at him [and he totally deserved it okay. he purposely knocked into me one. stupid pervertic sicko.]... and they got even more amused ): poo.
well, so i collected my can: 3231. if you're ever interested in buying 4D. must give me half of your prize money if you win.
and xuewen and i spent the whole time walking up and down from far east to ps and then back again, asking people to donate and singing. haha.. we kept intruding on people's territory. bumped into evelyn and her friend from another school, Gladys. outside far east. den erms, yuankheng's partner was walking up and down too. and amanda's partner was standing outside.. err.. cant remember. sorry but i cant remember all the scholars names.. hee.. i only remember the two evelyns,the one whos sitting at my right from indonesia, and the one whos sitting on my left, from india. and ermmm theres a girl called gan fengping right? is she a scholar?? i keep seeing the name, but i dunno who the person is. ah wells...
oh and xuewen and i were like singing stupid songs. like she kept singing the "honey, i got a lot of money" [which reminds me of the dance we choreographed during orientation. for next year's talentime. it's danced to the "honey i got a lot of money" song and it comprises of various spasticated movements] and the "i think about it overand over again" you know the nelly song. yeah. and so it got stuck in my head too. so we just kept singing it over and over again. get the joke? nevermind. so we were like.. walking walking den singing "honey i got a lot of-" den stopping in front of someone and asking "good morning, would you like to donate?" den continue singing again. and we did the britney spears thingy. so we just kept singing britney spears songs. and xuewen havent heard of From the bottom of my broken heart!! weird. my mom loves that song. and we met veni!! haha.. outside ps. she was flag-selling too. i didnt see her at first. was busy singing britney's my prerogative, then xuewen was like veni. den i saw her. haha...
ate lunch at taka. cos we were outside there. and i was hungry. so we just went in to eat. hee i think we're the only one who keep going inside shopping centres to rest (; ate this potato thingy and xuewen tried the new chicken fillet thingy. den we went out and started walking. stopped outside this bus-stop outside heeren. haha.. cuz it's like, everyone coming out is so nice and generous (: i keep getting a lot of dollar notes (: this guy donated ten bucks!! he was like, asking me, what im collecting money for. so then i told him it was for the disabled elderly. and he took out ten bucks and was like stuffing it in. den i just said that he could donate to the tsunami too because there were a bunch of guys standing around holding the tsunami cans and i felt bad like, erms, snatching their business? ya know what i mean... den he was like, i donate a lot already. haha.. and I MET CRYSTAL!.
the evil girl, never donate to me. donate to other people! hrrrmph.
i was like, thrusting the can at her and chanting "donate donate" den she showed me her sticker ): i think she was with her mother who was looking very ermm amusedly at me.. ah wells..
and xuewen couldnt recognise her. sighh.

so then xuewen and i stood outside heeren watching mtv. haha. there was a tv outside and it was playing mtv. so xuewen and i stood outside watching, and asking those people who were coming out. haha.. they showed I DONT WANNA BE! (: and xuewen took so long to realise what song it was. oh wells.. they showed SINCE YOU'VE BEEN GONE too. and they showed SHE WILL BE LOVED!! i lurrve that video. it's superr nice lar. xuewen kept saying that the younger girl, the daughter was very pretty. but kelly preston is sooo much prettier!!! shes sexyy k. haha.. but we both agree that adam levine looked very good. haha.. the way he stared at kelly preston in the video was so... i dunno how to describe.

and i heard on power98 that theres supposed to be this concert at cini i think. today i think. haha.. but i didnt go there. theres electrico!! (: and xuewen havent heard of electrico before. and she taught it was electrical. SIGHH.

my can was almost full! yayy (: it's like, you can see the dollarnotes sticking out le.. wheeeeeee (:

apparently there was firedrill yesterday. i didnt go cuz i was unwell. and xuewen said that her casualty and her died. haha..

2005-01-14T18:54:00.000+08:00

` the world is black and hearts are cold `

2005-01-11T23:05:00.000+08:00

[[music playing: what happened to us? by hoobastank]]

BRAD PITT AND JENNIFER ANNISTON SPLIT!

damn.
it's such a pity. it's so unfair. why do the terrible celebrity couples last [besides bennifer] and why do all those golden couples start breaking up?? urrrghh.

couples that should [have] NEVER break up
brad pitt and jennifer anniston
ryan phillipe and reese witherspoon
adam brody and rachel bilson
sarah michelle gellar and freddie prinze jr.
jessica simpson and nick lachey [i seriously admire him for putting up with her]
hilary duff and aaron carter [bitch + someonewhothinkshecansingbutactuallycant = the most perfect couple ever]
j.lo and marc anthony [hate them both. she shld stop causing misery to other men.]

couples that sooo should break up
joel madden and hilary duff [get your claws off my beloved joel, you bitch!]
andy roddick and mandy moore [yayy they broke up already]
lindsay lohan and aaron carter [duh. she deserves more than him. i mean, heck, he cheated on her with some stupid bitch called hilary duff..what bad taste.]
jennifer garner and ben affleck [eeeK!!! why on earth would someone choose ben affleck over michael vartan??!!]

talentime results. the ma'ams told us today [tuesday]. sad. very very very extremely sad. but i can't lose faith. MUST. NOT. LOSE. FAITH.
you evil poks can be biased towards us. i dont care. whatever you do, the challenge shield BELONGS TO US. AND NOBODY CAN TAKE IT AWAY!!! so fuck off __!
THE CHALLENGE SHIELD IS MINE. MINE!!! MY PRECIOUSSS...
and no, i do not mean anything that you think i mean. in case, a lisama'amguestbook happens again and pple start tagging me and scolding me because i said the challenge shield was mine. ermm.. i mean, my school? okay?

oh yes, alias was very nice today!! (: haha... the guy. ermm. he appeared in this mtv thingy. hes got this british accent and is very corny. anyway, he acts as this bomb guy today. and the CIA tricked him into thinking that they were the erms, covenent?? well anyway, michael had to pretend to be sark!!! it was terribly amusing. hahahaha. and there wasnt lauren (: anyway, i dont think they should let melissa george play lauren. i mean, now lauren become some.. sexpot or something. and melissa george doesnt look the slutty kind. ah wells.

i FINALLY READ TEEN IDOL!!! hahahah... jodie arh, you.. take so long to read! tsk tsk. well anyway, i like teen idoL!! theres this girl called, Cara blah blah in it. and shes like ewwww... WHY DID MEG CABOT HAVE TO USE MY NAME FOR SUCH A LOSERY CHARACTER??!! you know what? this cara in teen idol is like.. no opinion of her own, a popular-wannabe, a bit weird.. not that im being superficial and all [maybe i am. HAH] but this cara was like.. not nice. shes like, not very polite and the only thing she talks about is like buffy and charmed ): okay, shes nicer than all the evil pple in the book but still.. and guess what her nickname was?? CARA COW. like nice huh. so when pple see her they will go moo which is super mean but. uRGGH. cara cow.
YUCKS!
and megcabot is super evil to Cara. at least let something nice happens to her right? urgh. but the most pleasant thing that happened was that she got a makeover. ): and a boyfriend. by the name of Kwang. and they kissed and there was marshmellow and all.. ewww

oh yep, shonda recommended this book, one child by torey hayden. it's nice (: very touching... and theres this part where the girl, six year old sheila had this drunkard father. okay and the drunkard father had this bro called Jerry. and 'uncle jerry' was a stupid fucking sex maniac. guess what he did?? he tried to molest sheila and when she got uncomfortable he got pissed off and STUCK A KNIFE UP HER VAGINA. that cunt!!! and it was super gross and all.. but urrgh. apparently it's a true story. so whoever you are, uncle jerry, if you havent died in prison, YOU SUCK. AND I THINK YOU SHOULD DO SOMETHING TO APOLOGISE, IF YOU HAVENT DONE SO, FOR BEING SUCH A BIG MEANIE.

pardon the language. but dirty people deserve dirty words to describe them.

2005-01-07T23:29:00.000+08:00

yesterday is a wrinkle on your forehead
yesterday is a promise that you've broken
don't close your eyes, don't close your eyes
this is your life and today is all you've got now
yeah, and today is all you'll ever have
don't close your eyes
don't close your eyes

this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be
when the world was younger and you had everything to lose

yesterday is a kid in the corner
yesterday is dead and over

this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be
when the world was younger and you had everything to lose

don't close your eyes
don't close your eyes
don't close your eyes
don't close your eyes

this is your life are you who you want to be
this is your life are you who you want to be

this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, is it everything you dreamed it would be
when the world was younger and you had everything to lose

and you had everything to lose
this is your life by switchfoot

yes yes i know. switchfoot is supposed to be a christian band. but their music is good and as i told grace, music has no discrimination!! haha.. corny.

graceteh: hello the not so loyal tagger of my blog. NO, rui en DOES NOT have the baste taste in music. I HAVE. -smirks- HAH. and im sick of the reason.
xuewen: yea but you were like bubbling with enthusiasm. HOR. you evil pok. you wanted grace to maluate herself while you watch on and laugh right?? tsk tsk.
nat: haha. i have absolutely no idea what to put liao mah. and nvm lar. christmas is over liao anyway. haha..
peace: are you being sacarstic?? hrmphh. haha.. sighh.. physics looks so... terrible. -sobs-
shermin: hey... haha.. erm, okayy.actually all sc girls are all-rounded right??? haha. see ya in class! (:
may may ma'am: heyy very scared!! i think im gonna screw up -sobbs- lurve ya.. mwah!
grace: errr which grace is this??? and yes i know it's stupid. stop reminding me of it!!! see, im so dedicated to our drama that im thinking of the lines every second.. ah whatever, im lame.

i'll never leave you behind.. or treat you unkind...

yayyy!!! :D i finally got beautiful letdown and songs about jane!! -beams- LORRAINE ROCKS. haha.. okay, crystal rocks too. haha.. because apparently crystal bought lorraine the beautiful letdown and lorraine lent me the beautiful letdown so... they both rock!! okay whatever. anyway.. the cd is very nice!! ((: and me, being such a nice friend, burned for graceteh. see! haha... and she lent me songs about jane. (: it's nice too... i like sweetest goodbye (: and harder to breath is nice okayy.

is there anyone out there cuz it's getting harder and harder to breath

i love the She Will Be Loved video. i like the whole story line.. i think the girl who acted as kelly preston's daughter is really good. and kelly preston rocks lar. shes hott. and so is adam levine. haha..

come and rest your bones with me. driving slow on sunday morning..

well, anyway, did you catch ocean's eleven??? it was bloody good k! i think it's better than ocean's twelve. MUCH NICER. brad pitt, as usual, was yummylicious (; george clooney was corny. matt damon was very funny too. and the guy.. ermmm what is his name?? the chinese acrobat. i think hes really cornny. and he damn poor thing. forever stuck in containers and bags, etc. and the two bros who keep quarrelling are very corny too. haha... i think the whole movie was really nice. and cornny. haha... i think julia roberts looks very ugly. ah wells.

school. sigh. school's been okay. but then again, we havent been doing much lessons. except maths. dunno why, but i suddenly lurve maths. it's the only interesting subject. well... we had our first lesson of physics. mr jeow. I AM CURRENTLY VERY PISSED. I HAD THIS ONE GREAT CHANCE TO ESCAPE PHYSICS AND IT WAS SPOILT. AND NOW IM STARING AT MY PHYSICS TEXTBOOK AND GOING "DENGG??? WHAT SHIT HAVE I GOT MYSELF INTO??!!" i have absolutely no idea what the whole thing is about. I HATE PHYSICS!!! and our first lesson we did worksheet on vernier callipers. like what the heck. cant remember. oh yes, good bye my ex-kitchen-cum-lab partner, yuankheng!! and hello, my new lab partner, hanling haha.. is this how you spell her name?? well anyway, yuankheng is with larissa i think. haha. poor larissa. probably gonna get bullied by yuankheng. heex. and we had chem. mrs tsoi. urrggh. just like what jodie said, mrs choo is a much better teacher. i think she teaches very well. and mrs tsoi is... boringgg. -yawns- and mrs tsoi told us about that story of that blurdo girl frm sc who caused an exploding glass bottle and disfigured her friends. evil. and i was suddenly reminded of that story where this girl from _ahem school_ was like ahem. masturbating with a testtube and the testtube broke inside. ewww. gross.
bio. our co-op teacher. mrs low. i was falling asleep. sorry.. oh yes, my partner, evelyn told me this story about disecting a fish in her old school back in indonesia and the fish was jumping up even though it had been, erms, sliced!! ouch. poor fish. anyway, mrs low was talking about using sheep's heart and eye and evelyn and i were seriously grossed out. like, chopping an eyeball up?? ewww.
english. we got ms chua. siggh that bias pok. hrmph. am eternally pissed off with her.
chinese. our teacher is really weird. really weird really really really weird. she is extremely drama. and her chinese is super good. like, first lesson. she went, does anybody know this author called... err i forgot his name.. ? then we were like.. denng. then some pple actually know! well, the scholars from china. then this girl stood up and was like talking and im like... ohdear. and our teacher was like, chinese super cheem. then she was asking questions. and she asked me this question like what is ba mian ling long. den i was denng.. anyhow mutter some stuff..
lit. ms neoh?? gave us this lecture about prose and all that stuff.
history. mrs wang. i like history (: i think it's kinda interesting. the whole revolution thingy. we're finally doing some interesting stuff not like some stupid ancient civilisation of india and china. not saying that the ancient civilisations of inda and china are not interesting but im more interested in like, modern history.. for example, STALIN! KARL MARX! THE TSAR! MAO! [no, not mrs mao. HAHAHA. lame.] and not to mention, the guy with the cutest moustache and the person you dun want to be your uncle, HITLER!! i think in the film that they showed us, the hitler looked corny in the moustache. and the whole niece thing was gross. according to rachel who was informed by erms, this teacher.. forgot her name.. well anyway, hitler supposedly has only one testicle. but seriously, who cares. im more interested in his moustache. nevermind.
a maths and e maths. i like the combined a maths lectures with se. no, not because im forced to see graceteh [hee -sticks tongue out-] but because.. dunno leh. at least the ava room got aircon. and i think mrs lim siew joo rocks. she was like, calling kimberly "kimby" and me and xuewen heard as "kiwi" okay nevermind. out of point. but i think she rocks. i think she teaches very well (: mrs lim rocks!!! and i miss kimberly. kind of... mrs lim teaches se a maths and sy e maths.. so ms beh teaches us a maths.. ms beh is quite cute. haha. but i prefer mrs lim. hee (;
pe. erms. we have mrs bowness.. and we had to like, run for fifteen minutes today. cuz mrs bowness said that we havent been exercising during the hols and all.. as usual, clare and dawn were in front. and me? sigh. well at least i managed about eight rounds. dunno how im gonna pass napfa ):

and i think that 2sy '04 is seriously the luckiest class ever. i dunno why i hated going to sy so much last time. well anyway, you know why. cuz everybody in the class rocks. even the teachers say so. i mean, mrs choo told our form teachers that we are very guai one. apparently. and she misses us.. awww. and ms leong said so too!! haha.. ms leong said it was a pity that she's not teaching us. awww.. i mean, heck, we've got all the nice teachers. mrs canham, the funkiest teacher ever! and jiang laoshi is super corny :D shes so cute. mrs bowness, our history teacher, is so smiley! (: mrs linda lee, our pe teacher, rocks! shes super nice.. etc etc.
i really pity 2sy'05. they got weird teachers. like guess whos their maths teacher? khong bee!!!

yeah. that's about it...
talentime auditions tmr
sigh.

oh yep, cheryl came back to visit during orientation! (:

2005-01-05T22:11:00.000+08:00

hello! was searching about the february revolution, 1917 [TAKE HISTORY PPLE!!] and i couldnt resist the urge of blogging.

new class. 3sy. weird. most of 2sy people there but i still prefer 2sy. sighhx.
teachers. i dont like our teachers. we got mrs tsoi instead of mrs choo. -moans- all new teachers, except mrs bowness (: and ms chua ): havent seen them before. havent remembered the names of my form teachers. only know it's low and chua.
classmates. okay lar. alot of scholars. sitting next to a girl called evelyn poetry yoga something.. from indonesia. shes quite chio, wears braces, and is very friendly.
haha. guess what am i? ava rep. haha. xuewen wanted cleaniness commitee but i hate cleaning!! ah wells.. we wanted cme one. but trang beat us to it. hrmph.

shonda doesnt need to do projectwork. lucky her.

staying back for rc everyday. SIGHH.
made a fool of myself during orientation.was doing cpr. den you're supposed to ask "hello hello are you okay?" i told them "hello hello how do you do?". in front of angie ma'am. -faints-

gtg. reply tags some other time.
chao~

2005-01-01T22:04:00.000+08:00

shall blog all i like today. since it's possible that i wont have time to blog liaos... triple science!! -groans-

anyway, heres my :

list of everything and anything in 2004

top five hottest guys in books
michael moscovitz created by mag cabot
josh something, from the one last wish books, katie's bf created by lurlene mcdaniel
sirius black [NOT THE FILM ONE!!!] created by jk rowling
jonathan heitman [or sth like that] frm head games, created by mariah frederick
hercule poirot created by agatha christie

[according to ranking]

top three tv shows
1. CSI: crime scene investigation
2. Alias
3. Singapore Idol

Top 3 vcds i dont regret buying
1. LOTR: return of the king
2. school of rock
3. the day after tomorrow

vcd i most regret buying
ella enchanted

dvd i most dont regret buying
CSI

best albums i've bought
1. spiderman II soundtrack
2. yellowcard - ocean avenue
3. blink 182

Scariest movie i've watched
shutter

most wasteofmoney movie i've watched
Catwoman

most disappointing movie
harry potter and the prisoner of azkaban

movie with the cutest couple and nicest romance
The Village

nicest animation movie
1. the incredibles
2. shrek2

worst animation movie
shark tale

funniest chinese movie
kungfu hustle

best movie adapted from comic books
spiderman2

cutest couple in books
1. Judith and Jonathan from Head Games
2. Mia and Michael from the princess diaries
3. sam and david from all american girl

the most unfortunate people in books
1. fugui and his family, from huo zhe
2. the baudelaires from the series of unfortunate events

most irritating people on mediacorp tv
1. fiona xie
2. joanne peh
3. jacelyn tay

most irritating djs
1. sheikel??? from perfect10
2. grace chua from perfect10
3. glenn ong from class95

last thing i did in 2004
watch this show called One Fine Day starring george clooney

first thing i did in 2005
watch taufik's i dream

cant think of anymore..

I BOUGHT UNCUT!! EVERYBODY GO BUY IT!!!

and my mother was like, how come your stuff is not inside? then i was like, staring at her.. ermm.. because the stuff i write cannot make it.. then she was like, sighh.
ah wells..

but hey, maybe they should publish the song and the ballad i wrote about xuewen. HAHA. i mean, heck, my song even received a SOng of The Year award from Shonda.. hahaha

2005-01-01T21:58:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 2005!!!

[[music playing: disappear by hoobastank]]

sighx. just one more day and it'll be school. ocean's eleven tmr! can't wait.

was watching tv yesterday. boring day. watched entrapment. catherine zeta jones is hott. haha. okay i'm biantai. and read this book called Gingerbread. by rachel cohn. it's quite nice. it's about this teenage girl who is the love child of a very rich guy and a teenage mother. so then the very rich guy went back to his family. and the mother, Nancy, married the very rich guy's good friend, Sid. so anyway, the girl called cyd didnt like her mother. and she and her mother are like forever quarelling and all. but she liked her stepdad. but shes like, she wants to meet her real dad, frank. so anyway shes one of those pai kia kind. so she went to boarding school and hooked up with this sex,drugs, rock n roll kinda guy called Justin. anyway, justin was a real jerk. hes one of those rich father's son and hes popular in school. some quarterback guy. so anyway, cuz cyd slept with justin, she got pregnant and she kept sleeping with him until the headmaster found them using drugs and expelled them. and she went home. and the justin coward didnt come up with the money for abortion and left her alone. so she called frank, ask for some money and went to the clinic alone. but she didnt tell her mom. so anyway, she was on probation or something. den she had to go to this home to help out and she met this hip old laydee called Sugar Pie. yes, weird name. Sugar Pie had a sister called Honey Pie who eloped with Sugar Pie's groom on their wedding day and ended up in a car accident and died. so anyway, the day Honey Pie fled with her sister's fiance, Sugar Pie realised she was pregant. and she had an abortion. so anyway, while with Sugar Pie one day, cyd met this guy called Shrimp [weirder name] and they hooked up. but shrimp is a good guy. so anyway, cyd had a crush on Shrimp's bro with a hot bod called Java who owns a cafe. oh btw, cyd has got like, raging hormones and loves coffee. erms, yahs... okay anyway, one day cyd and shrimp had a fight over a girl called Autumn. so den they kinda broke up. den cyd's mother, Nancy and Sid, the stepdad decided to send her to newyork to meet Frank. so shes like very happy. and went. btw, shes got a doll called Gingerbread. the doll frank gave her the last time he saw her when she was six years old. anyway, she went to newyork and met frank. got really disappointed. den she met frank's son, Daniel, more commonly known as Danny. and hes a fag. hes got a boyfriend called Aaron and together they open this cafe. and cyd got along very well with danny and she went to his cafe to help out. but she didnt really like her half-sister called erms, LIsbeth. but they soon got along lar. anyway, she was shopping with Lisbeth one day when she met... who else... Justin. so she got very uncomfortable. so she went back and started crying. den Nancy, back in san fransisco missed her daughter a lot, so she went to new york too. well den cyd told nancy all about it den they bonded together blah blah.. and all that stuff... and she realised that her family was actually the best. as in the family in san fransisco.

yeah. oh yep. read road to perdition too. it's really really sad.. i lurve micheal junior and micheal senior. and i hate the fricking mr rooney. he sucks. and i hate that photographer, i forgot his name. anyway, if you think road to perdition sounds familar, it's actually a original graphic novel by max allan collins aka the author of csibooks. den they made it into a film and so max allan collins adapted it and made it into a novel. apparently, graphic novel means the story is told in like comic book way. and novel means.. well, you know. anyway, the film stared tom hanks has micheal senior, paul newman as, i suppose, mr rooney. and i think jude law is that irritating photographer aka hitman. which is a pity because i think jude law looks quite cute. but nevermind. anyway, the story is about mr rooney who owns this town is actually like, the godfather kind. and micheal senior is his hitman but he never told his two children, micheal jr. and peter. but his wife, annie knows lar. so anyway, one day, micheal jr. witness his father killing pple. and crazy rooney, who was (1) afraid that micheal jr. will tell other people (2) jealous that mr rooney treated micheal senior better than him, set out and to kill Micheal Sullivan's family. but micheal senior survived. and micheal jr, who was supposed to die, but in a weird mistake by the crazy son, survived. but peter died instead. and annie died trying to protect peter. so anyway, the two micheals set off and ran away. and went to chicago. so this photographer aka hitman was hired to kill them. anyway the storys about the two micheals running away and getting back at mr rooney. because micheal senior wants them to hand crazy rooney over and take revenge for his family. so anyway, thruout the road to perdition [where micheal jr's aunt lives], father and son got to bond. i mean, cuz micheal senior always favoured the younger kid, Peter. and hes like, distant frm his sons.. but anyway, the sad thing is that micheal senior died. crazy rooney got killed by micheal senior. old mr rooney got killed by micheal senior too. micheal senior got killed by the shitty photographer, who den got killed by micheal senior when he was dying. confusing huh. so the only survivor was Micheal jr.

and i finally read HUO ZHE!!! ((: yayy -applause- haha.. i started yesterday night.and finished today afternoon. heehee.. i hate the book. it's so damn sad. it's like the whole book is all about misery. heck, i dont like miserable stuff. i'd rather have nice books which talk about happy things. but anyway, it's all about this author who went to the village and met this old man. and the whole book is about the old man's life story. anyway, its really sad. the old man used to be this shao ye. you know, rich man's kid. but he was a bai jia zi. which means, he squandered away the family's fortune. he is a wife-abusing, extremely unfilial, gambling, prostitute fking, cunt. but he got his retribution in the end. well first, after he became good because he became poor and his father died. well anyway, he had to work extremely hard. den one day, when his mother was ill, he went to the city to get doctor but ended up being pulled away to war. so he spent a couple of years in the war, lost a friend, went back to his home. his mother had died. his daughter, because of this high fever, became a dumb and a mute. well anyway blah blah blah. den his son, who is like primary five, died!!!! i hate that part. damn sad. okay. so the son's principal was giving birth. den lost a lot of blood. needed blood donors. son was the only suitable one. then the fking person who was drawing blood frm the son kept drawing and drawing until the son got no blood and died. FK THE HOSPITALGUY!! okay. sorry. anyway, den his wife very upset. den they finally found a husband for their daughter. husband was a good one. den daughter pregnant. but died during child birth! she died at the same place where his son died. sad right. so had this little son. den his wife, grief too much, and died too. den left with the him, his son in law, and his grandson. one day, his son in law, who was walking as this labourer in the city, had an accident and died. left with grandpa and grandson. one day, grandson had an illness. grandpa went to cook beans for him, and grandson choked while eating beans. died too. so it's left with the grandpa. and a cow. yeah. so..... miserable right.

okay enough of books..

2004-12-31T14:26:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR'S EVE!!

graceteh: yep it does (: hope you like your cd.
melody-o: heyy... erms, i dont think i can liaos. school's starting!! sighhx.
may may ma'am: really? haha.. practically the whole of singapore smokes. smokers are weird. like, they know smoking is bad for health den why are they still smoking??
aud ma'am: okay! haha.. erms, okay shall attempt to act properly...
gracetan: hellO! happy new year to you too! (:

the school hols are almost over!

and so is 2004. bought eightdays. taufik, sly along with other people are on the cover. oh, and did you see taufik's baby pic in lime? so cute! hahas.. and sly looked funny. in eightdays. you know the one where they showed him with the miss singapore tourism '84 or something like that. sighhx. sec three next year!! -groans- i bet im gonna be soooo busy. i wont have time to blog. i wont have time to read. i wont have time to go to the library. i wont have time to listen to cds. i wont have time to sleep!! arrghhh. shall sleep all i can today. HAHA. no lar. have to go buy my stuff ):

so... i'm in sy. should i be happy? according larissa, who nicely went to school yesterday to help me check ((:, most of the pple in 2sy are in 3sy. except for camille and becky and a few other people. -gasps- haha.. so sad. den our class will be quite quiet. since we wont have camille and becky's laughter. and becky's sneezes. wallow wallow wallow ormph! tell me more tell me more, did you get very far? and some people will be like, gone frm sc. pple like... cheryl... mira... etcetc.
graceteh and huizyi are in se. which is weird. cuz they are in the same combi as me. and lorraine is in sy. and shes diff combi frm me.. hmm... thankfully, zara is in se!! ((: okay im mean. suelin and jodie is in pr. and i dont knw what class huangzi is in... and erms, xuewen, shonda and gloria cheng will be in sy too. yahs...

went to grace's birthday outing. was late. but jodie was later. haha. so found graceteh and xuewen sitting at pastamania. so sat down and started talking about crap. talking about schools and bradpitts and ahlians and etcetc. and i gave graceteh her birthday present: the reason by hoobastank. haha.. but not before i burned it first. teehee (; and grace has to burn me the maroon5 cd!!! she has two of them! haha.. well anyway, jodie came and gave graceteh her flower. den both of them started talking and xuewen and i were staring at each other like we were super extra. haha. den we were like, dunno where to go. and graceteh kept insisting that we go to the arcade. so in the end we went. so started playing stupid games. and xuewen the blurdo [hee] didnt know how to play the motorcycle thingy. you know those games where you sit on the motorcycle and race? she was like.. dunno how to start !! -gasps- den she was like screaming cuz everyone else started and she was still there and like, why cannot move???!! haha.. i am terribly amused. well den we went to play this weird game. den graceand xuewen wanted to play the parapara thingy and jodie and i were like.. eek! so anyway, we played the erm, is it called ice hockey?? anyway, xuewen and i lost ): poo. xuewen kept hitting my hand and the thing kept flying out of my hand. so i spent the whole time picking up the thing. i bet it's the first time the thing flew out of somebody's hands while playing. -malu malu- so anyway, jodie and i raced. and i got 36th the nicest number in the universe :D haha jodie got 40th. well anyway, so xuewen wanted to go to the toilet. so we went there. and graceteh did something mean. tsk tsk. well anyway, so grace, xuewen and i were standing outside the toilet waiting for jodie. den i was saying that the girl on the wall had sexy lips. i mean, the drawing of a girl. den i was talking about angelina jolie and graceteh started saying that angelina jolie was ugly. which is totally untrue. she has sexy lips okay. den when i was saying that this guy came out of the toilet and was like staring at us. so when he turned his back and started walking i was like, sexy butt!! haha.. okay sorry that sounds biantai. and they were like daring me to go shout at someone sexy butt. but ahem. i very guai one k. dont wanna be charged for sexual harrassment. den we were planning to take neo prints. met eunice ma'am there!!! haha.. and den jodie realised that she LOST HER HANDPHONE.

IF YOU HAPPEN TO BE THE THIEF OF JODIE'S SLIVER FRONT, BLUE BLACK NOKIA HANDPHONE. PLEASE OWN UP!!!

stupid cad must have stolen it at the arcade. den xuewen and i were like seeing who was suspicious and erm, trailing him/her. watch too much tv. haha.. so anyway, jodie was really upset. so we sat on the foodcourt. den grace had to go home. den jodie, xuewen and i went to the information counter to report the loss. so den xuewen went home. and jodie waited at starhub for her father to come and collect the sims card replacement. den i went home.

and did you read eightdays??!! i LURVE RUI EN!!!! :D
because:
numberone. she was frm SC!!!!
numbertwo. she has good taste in music!!! you know, eightdays interviewed her with her car. the stars and cars thingy. den they were like, what music is good to listen on the road. den she went, anything by good charlotte - it numbs the brain. and went on about maroon5. den there was a pic of her cds. and if you look very very carefully. theres ashlee simpson's autobiography right at the bottom. and on top. right on top, is this red cd. and if you look extremely carefully, it says "CHRONICLES OF _________ DEATH" which is so obviously gc's LIFE version of CHRONICLES OF LIFE AND DEATH!!!!! wheeeeeeeeeeeee (((:

she or felicia chin [for the sake of xuewen, felicia chin's biggest luster.. haha] shld have won the newcomer award. JOANNE PEH! YOU SUCK!! and apparently my cousin's bf's fren is her bf.. sighh.

2004-12-28T13:19:00.000+08:00

[[music playing: rhythms by sum41]]

Summer air reminds me of all the feelings of your love,
And what it was like when we were together,
Walking all along the beach, you were never far from my reach,
And you held me through the stormy weather,

(Chorus)-
And I want to fall in love tonight,
And I remember when you said "everything's gonna be alright"
(Chorus Ends)
Laying in the summer grass, you told me not to talk so fast,
As I told you how I feel,
You made me feel right at home,
You told me I was not alone and you knew just how I feel,

(Chorus)(Chorus Ends)

I know we talked about it, I just can't get around it,
I just want one more night with you,

(Chorus)(Chorus Ends)

October air reminds me of all the seasons of your love,
And what it was like when we were together
The smell of fall is everywhere and though it seems,
I just don't care, 'cause now you've gone away,

(Chorus)(Chorus Ends)
seasons by good charlotte

maymay ma'am: i received your card le! thanks! lurve ya too ((: haha...and i must have been visiting rachel's blog too many times.. and i didnt get to see his add in my dream ): i was too busy waving the autograph about. sighh. oh and i dreamt about getting my psle results back b4. but before i could like look at the result thingy, i woke up. ): dumb right...
angel: MERRY CHRISTMAS!! i tried tagging your board. but like cannot tag..
gracetan: hello!! haha... do you think taufik smokes too??
crystal: yep she died. haha.. i think that episode is in my dvd. and she didnt appear alot in that episode. just this part in the videotape and another part where shes stuffed in the boot of a car.okay.. i shall keep typing it because CRYSTAL ROCKS. see im so nice (:
rachel: fret not! carawee is here to save you with her nice crappy entry!! :D

yes, my templates are going from weird to weirder. and i hope you had a fun time squinting your eyes to read the above part of the entry. you must be crying now. awww.. but dont worry, being a nice girl like i am (: i shall be nice and spare you the torture of reading the whole entry. every single paragraph, i will make the topic sentence like THIS. so that you just read THIS in every paragraph and you know what that whole entry is about... :D im ingenious, aint i??

went to do my passport yesterday. spent the whole time queueing.. because my photo got rejected cuz my hair was covering my eyebrows, i had to go take the photo again. not as though this one is much better. I always look weird anyway. so was waiting and waiting.. and do you realise, that everyone who works in that building are non-chinese?? it's true. it's like every single counter, there'll be this malay person there. not that im racist or what.. but it's just an observation... well, i did that card too. you know that weird card thats supposed to make it easier and all... whatever lar. and they put the rejected photo onto the card. the one that i was very tired and my hair was in a mess. and i looked absolutely qianbian. ): yes, that one. sighh.

started digging out all my old cds to listen to. haha.. first was hybrid theory [one step closer! runaway! points of authority!] den now i AM listening to all killer no filler [rhythms! motivation! in too deep!] haha... spent the whole of sunday doing the SANA thing !! was jamming to all killer no filler on my com while doing it. haha. you know, the other time i saved the songs in the com when lorraine lent me the cd. and joshua, grace's friend, burned it for me. [thanks!] but anyway, i spent my whole christmas and sunday doing the sana thing lor. poor me right ): oh poo. and den i had to go and lose my file. so i had to borrow xuewen's and all ): thankfully i was smart enought to put the transfer agents form into my bag. den my father threw the whole file away because it was tattered and torn because i got caught in the rain with it. den thankfully, the transfer agent forms were saved.. ah whatever.

well anyway, shall tell you what happened on sunday. was doing the sana thing... until like eightplus. when my father was like grumbling that he was hungry and wanted to go out to eat dinner. so we went to eat dinner.. den after that he drove me to my cousin's house. no, not my baby cousin who is no longer a baby and should be refered to as his name which is Junxiang because toddler cousin sounds weird. okay. anyway, so went to my cousin's house. and we had no games to play. like, where do you find all those nice online games??!! somebody tell me!!! anyway, so we signed up to neopets and started playing the neopets games which were quite nice anyway. and as usual, we had difficulty looking for a username. we tried burgerking. somebody had it already. we tried fingerlickingood. somebody had it already. [nope, i wasnt feeling hungry. just that there was a burgerking pamphlet thingy in front of me] den in the end, we settled on ` charlesandkeith ` and we had difficulty finding a pet name too. we tried bacon. somebody had it. cookiecrumble. taken. sundaepie. taken. so in the end, we used ` fruittreefreshjuice ` yeah. stupid name huh. anyway, we kept getting stuck at level five. ): and were screaming like CRAZY... actually, i was the one screaming lar. cuz it was super infuriating. like everytime when we were very close to completing the level, that thing had to go hit the evil bird. or drown. or get crushed by a rock. ): sighh. still stuck at levelfive. no time to go play.. having tuition later ):

ANYONE WHO IS AS NICE AS CRYSTAL, WHO ROCKS, WANT TO HELP ME BURN THESE FEW SONGS???

that thing you do by the wonders
somebody told me by the killers
i dont wanna be by gavin degraw

pleasee???

2004-12-25T14:10:00.000+08:00

im dreaming of a white christmas....

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!

oh btw, did you read Life? theres two articles by sc girls. haha... heather chi and samantha toh. is heather chi the person who was acting as william hung during drama fest??

shermin: yeps.. the play was... erms. weird. haha. i had this teeny weeny role...
nat: hello.. welcome (: haha... yea. maybe shes obsessed with you. and erms, i dont think the props are real tea eggs cuz i have to drop them and erms... unless you dont mind smashed tea eggs.
may may ma'am: haha.. okok. merry christmas!! :D
rachel: you're welcome, darling rachel. haha. EEK. then they not have to marry like a tailor or something? HAR HAR. lame joke. but really gross leh. i mean, what if the guy has shaky hands? den accidentally... eeww... and sly smokes? ah wells.. why do pple smoke anyway. dont they understand that it's a TERRIBLE HABIT??!! poo ):
sin wen ma'am: erm.. fabulous actress??? -chokes- haha.. merry christmas!! :D take care too!!

you, try to take the best of me.. GO AWAY

haha... dug Hybrid Theory out to listen.

anyway, had this really weird dream. about sylvester sim. haha. okay. so i dreamt i was in this concert. this wubai concert. which is really weird. because (1)he sings chinese songs which i obviously dont listen to, (2) i hate his singing. he cant sing properly.. well anyway, so erms, sly was his closing act [dont ask me why] so den he was singing this mayday song. ohman. weird right. erms, is it mayday? you know the wu yue tian?? yahs.. so after the concert ended. i went up to him and started screaming hysterically like one of those crazy fans which is super weird. and i got his autograph and he stared at me like i was mad before asking me stupid questions like, does he have to write his address down too. den i was like, duh, if not i cannot stalk you. [nah im kidding.. i didnt say that.] but i said duh. and he gave me this notebook. and i was waving it around happily saying that i can showoff to rachel.
-faints-
im mad. like, really mad. must be reading too much of rachel's diary.. really really weird dream huh
and i dreamt of an even weirder thing. i dreamt that we had redcross meetings and all the ex-ex-ncos came back. you know, michelle chan ma'am's batch. and i was playing badminton with cheryl leong ma'am and shifan ma'am. damn weird. and den zara [yes, that zara] came over and spoiled the whole game by whining that she wanted that space and told us to get lost. and den suddenly my dream changed and i dreamt of dick lee singing.

yep. carawee has officially lost her mind. somebody!!! cart her off to the mental institution!!!

read __'s blog yesterday. because i was thinking that maybe that anon in nat's blog was _. but maybe not.. anyway, i think that __ is really weird and the people associated with __ are also very weird. __ is really super ahlian.
and i was wondering why this world must be filled with people like __. sighh. wished they didnt exist...
okay. maybe thats abit too mean.. but... sighh.

anyway,
went bugis with my mom yesterday. for christmas shopping. haha. abit late right. but anyway, the whole place was super crowded. and i got jabbed in the (1)shoulder (2)back (3)arms alot of times... and there were so many people like rubbing their noses and sniffing so much that it seems as though their snort were about to come out.. okay gross. and there were those pple who were clearing their throat in such a gross way that you cant help imagining the virus floating towards you.. okay, maybe im just paranoid. well anyway, it was super crowded. and i hated it. almost couldnt find a seat in the food court. den the food was gross. the egg was uncooked. eww. and i bought my auntie's birthday prezzie after like hours, of shopping. cuz we were looking for a bag. den it's like, every single bag that i pointed out, my mom will be like "not nice." "so auntie." blah blah. den everysingle bag that she points out i'll be like "so ugly." haha. den we were like arguing over our tastes. she said i was 'tasteless' hrmmmph. my taste is so good k. ): and den she was like exclaiming that we had nothing in common. den the saleslady was like, staring at us, laughing away. ah wells... den i was like, maybe you're not my mother. den she went on saying that maybe she was some lunatic who escaped from the asylum and kidnapped me. haha. den i went, im going to grow up and realise that you're not my real mother and im going to kill you. and find my real mother and kill her too. den my mother was like, drama drama. haha.
you know, like the csi episode. about erms, tammy. is this how you spell it? you know, that tammy girl. who was kidnapped when she was young and she grew up thinking that guy was her father. den she realised he was not and killed him. den her real parents found her and posted bail for her. but she skipped bail and eloped with her 'foster' father's ex-jailmate or something. in the end, she died. but thats another episode.
well anyway, we finally found a wallet. and bought it. and bought this levis teeshirt for my baby cousin...

and the mrt was horrible too.

i am in love with last christmas!! :D haha.. i mean the song lar...
last christmas i gave you my heart. the very next day, you gave it away. this year, to save me frm tears.. im giving it to someone special...
awww...

im bananas!!!

this shit is bananas. b-a-n-a-n-a-s. this shit is bananas. b-a-n-a-n-a-s. a few times ive been around that track so it's not just gonna happen like that. cuz i aint no hollaback girl. i aint no hollaback girl...

in case you didnt know, thats hollaback girl by gwen stefani.

oh and i saw an accident yesterday. no one died. wheww. but there was this taxi which dashed thru even though it was redlight and hit this car in the front. and there was this guy, who was crossing the road happily. den he saw the taxi zooming towards him, he got a shock and started running. okay i know it sounds mean, but the whole scene was really funny. i was just staring at that guy, and the way he looked was super funny. like you could see his legs go jelly-ish for a few seconds before he ran away. the expression on his face was really funny too.
okay im sadistic.

2004-12-23T13:51:00.000+08:00

okay. to humour my darling junior, rachel... i am typing an entry. in notepad. owing to my computer's annoying habit of restarting. which explains why im always poofing off halfway thru msn conversations.. but anyway... dont know when im going to actually post this entry so...
blah.

i have absolutely nothing to update about actually.
rachel: EEK!! gross. why would pple want to do that??? i mean, it doesnt really help does it. like if they wanna have sex they can just unpick the stiches or something? maybe not. but OUCH. and seriously, which one would you prefer? having a needle stuck up in your vagina or someone else's body parts? wait a minute, dont answer my question... anyway, i do tag you a lot k. go check your tagboard. i tagged!!!

im rambling...

well anyway, watched kungfu hustle with my parents yesterday. according to my dad, i was laughing extremely loudly in the cinema. -hides face- and apparently, i have this annoying habit of slapping the shoulder of the person beside me when i laugh. and my legs go into spasm or something. ): apparently it's some kinda heriditary thingy since my father used to do that to his friends too. so...
which reminds me of the time when i was watching this totally gruesome chinese horror movie and i was the only one laughing thruout the whole movie. im weird.

anyway

i read this book. Head Games by mariah frederick. or something like that. the front cover looks really bimbotic. it's this closeup view of a girl with sexy lips and pearly white teeth. but the story's not that bimbotic. it's about this girl, judith, who thinks reality sucks [totally true] and she likes to play this online game. den shes like invisible in school because her formerly best fren, Leia, is currently ignoring her because Leia thinks that shes les or something because she kept bugging her during the hols. and leia thought so because judith was acting really weird because one night she was walking on the street when she got physically assaulted by this guy. well anyway, so den she realises that the boy next door, jonathan, was actually that person in the online game who almost 'killed' her. and jonathan is one of those.. bad guys who come from dysfunctional families and smoke pot. well anyway, so she made frens with the jonathan guy and her mother was really worried and all... and blah blah blah and her mother was like talking to jonathan's parents and warning him to stay away frm her. and all that stuff and she befriended this girl called Katie who had a weight prob and also got dumped by her former bestfriends and had an obsession with creating stick thin girls with loads of boyfriends on SIMS. yeah. it's quite nice actually. to me.
and i still cant find old magic. oh blearghh.

im bored. extremely bored. really very very bored.

oh yep. CRYSTAL ROCKS. you know why?? because she help me burn True!!! YAYYYYY!!!!! :D

and everybody's going on holiday. envy those pple who can go on hol for the whole month and all...
gloria cheng is on hol. not really. i think shes coming back today.
graceteh is in gold coast.
gracetang is on hol.
huimin ma'am is on hol.
and many thousand other pple in the world are going on holidayyy.while im at home rotting and fretting over that chinese book. i have absolutely no idea which book we're supposed to read and whether it's a test or a book review and all that. and also, SANA!!! i havent started on my assignments yet!!!
and you wonder.. why the heck am i so bored??
because im a lazy fella who refuses to get started on her homework!!

im crazy.

and frappy keeps getting 7th in his races!!

2004-12-20T13:12:00.000+08:00

i hate my layout. sighh. dont you hate it too?

Honey
It's been a long time coming
And I can't stop now
Such a long time running
And I can't stop now
Do you hear my heart beating?
Can you hear the sound?
Cos I can't help thinking
And I don't look down...

And then I looked up at the sun and I could see
Oh the way that gravity turns for you and me
And then I looked up at the sky and saw the sun
And the way that gravity pulls on everyone
On everyone...

Baby its been a long time waiting
Such a long long time
And I can't stop smiling
No I can't stop now
Do you hear my heart beating?
Oh can you hear that sound?
Cos I can't help crying
And I won't look down...

And then I looked up at the sun and I could see
Oh the way that gravity turns on you and me
And then I looked up at the sun and saw the sky
And the way that gravity pulls on you and I
On you and I
gravity by embrace

2004-12-20T13:02:00.000+08:00

this entry was written on 191204, sunday

roxanne: hello.. MERRY CHRISTMAS!! although im not really looking forward to christmas cuz it means that the hols are ending...
rachel: the malay dance is very good!! unless you can dance very well... dont say it sucks!! and hey, you're so mean k... -boohoo- and duh. i am very obviously single. and theres no ahem. please do not listen to whatever rubbish certain pple may say...
lihua: why you say i naughty??? )): hahas.. and sorry didnt go your hse yesterday. you come back so late one!!
xuewen: whooops. i think it's gel. haha. my spelling sucks. and it's true that you dont tag enough. and you know that your watch is with me what. sighh. i forgot that you're very blur. and you meano! i hate yoU!!! HRMPH. when is the class partee anyway...
crystal: hah.. i prefer true.
lorraine: i think you know what the magic words are... oh well. and is this better? or is it still as bad?? and er, thank you for the constructive feedback? i sound like a survey form.. oh well..
karen ma'am: hello!! haha.. errm.. shall go ask munching and huangzi and tell you tmr.. ((: and thanks for the cheesy hotdogs! haha

another week of the holiday has just poofed by... sighh.

I WATCHED THE OC FINALE!!
it was extremely sad...

oh yes, gracetan: the hallelujah song appeared in Shrek too right??.. haha just watched shrek. den was like.. isnt this that hallelujah song frm oc??
oh maybe i got mixed up.. -shrug- dunno...

well anyway, seth rocked harder in this episode than the others.. because (1) he was such a good friend. i mean, he wanted to sell his boat to help theresa. (2)he was so sweet. he named his boat, Summer Breeze, after summer... (3) he helped me scold marissa!! YaYYY!! hahah.. he was saying that its all marissa's fault. because if she hadnt drag oliver [even though i liked oliver] into her messed up life, she wouldnt have broken up with ryan and ryan wouldnt have sex with theresa. but it's not exactly marissa's fault. but seth was just feeling very upset lar.. but he scolded marissa aka mischa barton so.. who cares. (4) he looked really cute when hes sad. okay it sounds weird but.. it's like.. a sad puppy? i dunno.. (5) as usual, despite the miserable circumstances, he still had his sense of humour. the front part he was like, maybe shes just kidding around or something like that. den he went "kidding. bad choice of words." hahas.. cuz you know the whole kid thing.

but anyway, it was really sad. i really pity theresa. but its really sad that ryan's gone. i mean, look at how kirsten cried. that part was really really sad.
i hate caleb [is this how you spell his name?] and julie cooper. urgh.

but anyway kids, the lesson to be learnt from this episode is. DO NOT HAVE SEX. or if you do, at least wear a CONDOM. or take the pill. or put spermicide. or put the cap and diaphragm thingy. *if you dunno what it's all about, refer to your sec2 science textbook... actually wouldnt it be best if you use all the methods? i mean, okay, so you put the spermicide, then the sperms will die. but since the spermicide isnt that good, most of them will survive. but they cant come out cuz of the condom. but what if there are like holes in the condom or what, and a few come out.. okay and they swim up. den they cant get into the uterus because theres the cap. but if a teeny weeny sperm manages to pass thru the cap it wont fertilise anything because the pill prevents ovulation so there wont be any egg. see? tada! kinda like an obstacle course for the sperms.wonder if it'll work... yahs.. but the bestest thing is DO NOT HAVE SEX. unless you're able to support your baby. i mean, it's a really really terrible thing to abort your baby.. so.. yah... plus apparently sex is very painful.. whoops. okay i shall shuddup now.

*WARNING. THIS PART OF THE ENTRY MAY NOT BE SUITABLE FOR THOSE WHO ARE UNCOMFORTABLE ABOUT CERTAIN STUFF BUT IT'S JUST SOME GENERAL INFORMATION YOU MIGHT WANNA KNOW.

oh yes, i read an article. okay im not being gross. just informing you about some real stuff thats happening in the world. anyway, read an article. about in india, alot of young girls are sent to brothels by their own mothers. so anyway, they were like.. saying that virgins cost the most. den those 'old' ones whose like erms.. seasoned? do not fetch that much money. and by the time the girls hit twelve, they have to like sleep with men. so because erms, they're ahem. newly developed.. den the mothers have to like, stuff this plith?? the plant thingy into their vagina!! yes. apparently.. the moisture absorbed by the plant thing will cause it to expand. so the vagina will expand so that it'll be easier for the penis to enter. apparently, the men insist on it. and the process is damn painful, according to the article. i mean, duh right. but... yahs.. and it's really really sad. because they interviewed this girl. and she didnt want to be a prostitute but her mother was like.. threatening to starve her... and beat her and all that stuff.. it's not really her mothers fault. because it's like.. the women there. i mean they are uneducated. so they dont really know about all these stuff and to them, like the only occupation they can do is to sell themselves. and to them, it's like quite natural. i mean the poor pple only lar. den the girl whom they interviewed [she escaped frm the brothel by the way.. shes learning how to be a seamstress now.] said that there was this customer. this cab driver who was shocked at how young she was. he said that she was as young as his daughter.. yahs.. there are some shelters for girls like her you know. but they got not enough money. anyway, there was this girl whose seven. but she looks like three years old cuz shes got not enough food to eat. she lives on the streets. yahs.. very poor thing right.

*OKAY YOU CAN READ NOW

anyway, I EARNED TWENTY BUCKS TODAY. haha. just by standing around and waiting for a couple of hours. haha.. the christmas dinner thingy. was really boring. cuz we were supposed to usher pple into their seats. but those pple just went to their seats themselves so was like.. we were standing around. den they provided us with dinner also. hah. but we had to stand eating. ah wells.. so anyway, was really bored. the ex-ncos went. angie, karen and minqi ma'ams went. huangzi and i went. munching and sinlin went. yah. so.. it was supposed to end at eightthirty. but as soon as the people got seated, we could leave. oh! and there was this weird old lady. she went on about refusing to register [but she was supposed to register to know where shes seating and all that] saying that she was forced to come. and she would rather not come. and saying some weird stuff. den angie ma'am was like, if you dont register you wont get a seat. den she was like, den i go home lor.. so we were all like.. "ermmms..." well anyway, so we made our way off at about erms, going to seven?? haha.. and munching and i stuffed the tags on this erms, ledge at the wall.. shhh haha.. so anyway, we followed the ex-ncos. hahas.. cuz we didnt know how to get to the mrt station. it's quite a walk. well anyway, so we followed them..
den munching suggested going to shop at the erms, izzit tiong bahru plaza?? well anyway, yahs.. so karen ma'am, munching, huangzi and i went shopping. haha.. so we went to this weird place which seemed to sell everything from softtoys to children's clothing to underwear to adult's clothing. oh this funny thing happened. haha.. okay so from afar we saw this bunch of boxes stacked on a shelf. there were holes in them. den karen ma'am was like, so cute. so munching and i walked towards the shelf. and we burst out laughing. and karen ma'am was like denng. until we were like, "it's guys underwear." hahaha. okay it was really really corny. and munching was trying on all the hats.
hahah. oh and we went to courts. haha. and you know those places where they sell video cam??? den outside the display. there'll be alot of video cams. den there'll be this screen and you'll see yourself there cuz one of the video cam is connected to the screen. yah, you know those kind?? den karen ma'am was like, twisting the vid cam until it filmed inside of the shop, at the salesman... hahaha. really corny. den the salespeople were like staring at us... hahaha... and munching asked for the nikon 3200 digi cam to see and she and karen ma'am [she had her own digi cam] were like taking pics. haha. oh den we walked around meddling with the cd players and stuff and munching almost knocked down this gigantic fan. haha. ohh and you know those huge screens where they show parts of movies?? den there was this chair and table in front of the screen. den it happened that the shanghai knights dvd was inside the vcd player. so we just sat infront of the screen and watched shanghai knights. hahaha. and karen ma'am was like, they will chase us away after ten minutes. so we were like betting.. if we can stay till ten minutes and they dont chase us away, karen ma'am will hafta give us like ten dollars worth of stuff. hahah. well, originally, she was supposed to treat us go watch movie one.. hahah.. but imagine, like four people. times eightfifty. quite ex right. anyway, the pple really didnt chase us away! so nice!! haha.. so den huangzi had to go home.. so karen ma'am bought cheesy hotdogs for us before we went home. haha. but it's only three dollars. haha.

yeah. and im twenty bucks richer. hahaha.
i reckon i shall have to go and buy the pug jelly cd with the money to erms.. compensate. really really sorry!!!

ANYBODY SAW A PUGJELLY CD ON GRACETEH'S HOT PINK BIMBOTIC BAG ON SATURDAY DURING REDCROSS MEETING??

2004-12-18T23:04:00.000+08:00

figured that since im so bored, i shld do my christmas wishlist ((:

CARA'S CHRISTMAS CRAVINGS

one.the beautiful letdown by switchfoot
two.power traxxx or something. click here for pic.
three.hot fuss by the killers
four.just burn me the song True by ryan cabrera
five.mean girls vcd
six.csi dvd!!
seven.a scrapbook filled with pics of guys i like. haha.
eight.skeleton key by anthony horowitz
nine.old magic by marianne curley
ten.a nice picture/sketch/drawing. of anything. for me to use as a layout!!
eleven.christmas cards!! it's the most basic thing!!
twelve.a watch? mine's spoilt and im currently holding xuewen's hostage
thirteen.electrico's cd
fourteen.a library filled with books that i wanna read.

2004-12-18T23:03:00.000+08:00

[[music playing: higher by creed]]

Last time I talked to you,
you were lonely and out of place.

You were looking down on me,
lost out in space.

Laid underneath the stars,
strung out and feeling brave.

Watch the riddles glow,
watch them float away.

Down here in the atmosphere,
garbage and city lights,
you gotta save your tired soul,
you gotta save our lives.

Turn on the radio,
to find you on sattellite,
I'm waiting for the sky to fall,
I'm waiting for a sign.

All we are is all so far.

You're falling back to me,
the star that I can't see.
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.

You're falling out of reach,
defying gravity,
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.

Hope you remember me,
when you're homesick and need a change.
I miss your purple hair,
I miss the way you taste.

I know you'll come back someday,
on a bed of nails awake.
I'm praying that you don't burn out,
or fade away.

All we are is all so far

You're falling back to me,
the star that I can't see.
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.

You're falling out of reach,
defying gravity,
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.

You're falling back to me,
the star that I can't see.
I know you're out there, oh.
You're falling out of reach,
defying gravity....

I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.

You're falling back to me,
the star that I can't see.
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.

You're falling out of reach,
defying gravity,
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.

You're falling back to me.

Well I know,
I know.

You're falling out of reach.

I know...
somewhere out there by my lady peace

nat: no im not saying that... erms, just saying that i cant imagine you with extensions?? and i havent seen you yet. come for meeting!!!
may may ma'am: hello... saw you today. hahas.. our drama was quite rubbish right?? and you left early!! it's like i turn around den suddenly you poof off liao. ohh hahas yahs.. johnny is such a weird name. haha. it sounds so... lecherous. like gloria. haha.
rachel: no. seth is hotter and hes definitely NOT a wimp!!
munching: hellO!!!!
graceteh: YOURE MY ENEMY. i cant be your friend and foe at the same time you know.. and it's thanks to you that yvonne's heart is broken you evil pok.

i have something to confess.
i havent watched the oc finale yet.
everybody gasp!!!
haha.
will watch it later. i taped it down. cuz i was watching oceans twelve in the cinema. haha..

oceans twelve was... weird. weird in a funny way. it's quite funny at times. but at other times i dont really understand it. it's abit weird.
george clooney was highly amusing. i dunno why. but hes expression is very amusing.
brad pitt was.... yummylicious.
matt damon was... funny and cute.
and the rest of them were very cute too. i thought it was really amusing how they got all thrown into jail. den they were sitting there, looking really pathetic. haha. oh and matt damon's mother!! that part was funny.
catherine zeta jones was... gorgeous.
julia roberts was... funny. especially that part. haha. okay the part im refering to is the part where... ok. so erms, george clooney and bradpitt and a whole lotta others got sent to jail. cuz of catherine zeta jones. well anyway, left with matt damon, and two other guys. so they were like... all the methods [of stealing this coronation egg] cannot.. den they were like listing out the different methods. den they'll be like "not enough people." blah blah "not enough pple." haha. its really corny. den so matt damon came up with this idea. so they showed this hotel guy answering the phone. then when he put down. he went. "Julia roberts is here!!!" hahas.. so it turned out that julia roberts' character in the movie was 'pretending' to be julia roberts in the movie. geddit? yah. so cuz julia roberts' is pregnant. so they were like stuffing this pillow into her dress den make her wear sunglasses. and the best thing is... they met bruce willis!!! hahas.. so bruce willis, playing himself, was like "Julia!!" den all that stuff. den the julia roberts in the movie insisted on seeing the coronation egg. den halfway thru she fainted. so then in the whole hussle, mattdamon and his folks stole the egg. they had this hologram thingy. so pple would think that the egg is still there. well anyway. so catherine zeta jones saw thru the whole thing. and went to ask for 'julia roberts's signature. den she was like.. dunno how to sign. anyhow sign. den bruce willis was like. erms... not her signature.. so they got busted. and ended up in jail.
haha. so they were all sitting in one row. looking pathetic. well except for bernie mac. who wasnt with them. he got caught long time ago.

we had meeting today. was told to come at seven. ended up there at like, seven thirty. whoops. well anyways, was practising. but wangtaitai and i were far too sleepy to act. we were like.. falling asleep. well anyway, so blah blah. den pple came. den we changed into our costumes. RIBENA SHIRT!!!

HAPPINESS IS A WORLD FILLED WITH RIBENABERRIES!!!!

well anyway... we had to jell [however you spell it] up our hair i didnt need to.. heehee.. cuz i didnt bring my cheongsam and i was in my "illbred rogue" costume. so anyway, poor pple had to put sticky jell. den gloria!! hahas.. grace was trying to like, pull all her fringe to the back. so she looked more erms... guyish. haha. it was amusing. well anyway, so done with the jell. den practised a little bit. it was really really boring. and you know the last scene.. we shld change it you know. because i cant cry!!!!
despite the fact that xuewen said the magic words. twice. and i didnt cry!! oh man. wo hao dui bu qi ni.
so we didnt really have unit song. i think its quite weird you know. they cancelled always look on the bright side of life ):
so we had rehearsals. the ncos came. i mean the ex ncos. and an exexex nco or whatever. oh!! and elaine came!! haha.. she came with eunice ma'am. den it's like. oh great. now i have to malu myself in an ex-schoolmate. I KEEP MALUATING MYSELF!!!! well anyway, the rehearsals. went quite badly. no one helped us shifted props. and xuewen!!! bleargh. but at least i didnt burst out laughing. even though the "my dear xiaochun" part was damn funny. gloria looked.. like she was going to eat me up. :S
so yahh and blah blah.
oh yes.
everytime i look at the malay dance, i'll feel like.. so proud. i mean, this is our juniors, dude. :D but den i'll feel sad too. cuz it's like.. we're the seniors, dude. and we're so screwed. while they're like... whooa.
oh yeps.. eunice ma'am passed me this whole stack of notes before she left. thank you very much!!! haha. seriously i think we probably need it. seeing as how terrible we suck...

oh, i read the grim grotto!!! they met kit snicket!! so sad that the jacqueres guy died. cuz i like him. and count olaf is stuck with the carmelia spats. HAH. well anyway, huge thanks to melissa for lending me!!! :D

and wheres teen idol? bleargh.

oh, and a random question: guess what's my fav alphabet?? haha...

2004-12-18T14:27:00.000+08:00

*GLORIA! IF YOU'RE READING THIS, TAG!!!

im quite bored. i want a new layout. send me a picture or something somebody!!!

FIRST "TWO" THAT YOU CAN HONESTLY
THINK OF:

1. PLACES
a. home
b. school

2. FOOD
a. hot sausage
b. cheese pudding. haha.

3. SPORTS
a. tennis
b. badminton

4. PERFUMES / cologne
a. true star?? that beyonce one.
b. errms....

5. COLORS
a. blue
b. black

6. SONGS
a. motivation proclamation by good charlotte
b. that thing you do by the wonders

7. SEXY
a. brad pitt. haha
b. johnny depp. haha.

8. ENEMIES
a. grace teh -evil look-
b. hilary duff

9. CRUSHES
a. abcdefghijk...
b. lalalaa.

10. NICE FRIENDS
* with the exception of graceteh, my friends are all nice!! :D

11. CRAZY FRIENDS
dunno..

12. SINGLE PEEPS
a. cara
b. wee

13. RELATIONSHIP
huh what you mean.

14. BROKEN HEARTED PeEPs
a. yvonne. thanks to mr johnny "heartbreaker" yen. MWAHAHAHA
b. aahem.

15. FRIENDS YOU SHARE SECRETS WITH
a. xuewen? some not so important secrets only.
b. nobody else.

16 .BEST FRIENDS
a. those who read my blog
b. those who tag me. haha. see im so.. friendlY!!!

17. LOVED ONES
a. my family, including those frm mother side, father side blah.
b. abcdefghijk....

18. YOU WANT TO HUG...
a. lalalala
b. lalalalalla

19. YOU THINK OF BEFORE YOU GO TO
BED
a. another day of the holiday is going to poof away
b. where the hell are you?

20. GOING TO DO LATER
a. slack
b. slack

lalala~

2004-12-16T15:01:00.000+08:00

[[music playing: the innocent by good charlotte]]

little things, little things
they always hang around
little things, little things
they try to break me down
little things, little things
they just won't go away
little things, little things
make me who i am today
-little things by good charlotte

aud ma'am: whoops.. hahas okay erms, how about aud ma'am, the nice girl who offered to help them?? hahas.. i dunno leh. i dont think gloria went to the concert right. cant imagine her in a jolin tsai concert... -makes face-
ying min ma'am: hellO! im fine, how are you? hahas.. i never bully my juniors k! i was just erm, trying to convince them to go buy stuff from you.. haha.. take care too!
graceteh: WHAT??!! -burst into tears- stop bullying me you people!!!!
rachel: yes yes im updating.. haha...

YAY! my frog won third in a race and he earned fifty gold!! yayy im so proud of my beloved frog (: hahas.. hes currently six years old. and his name is Frappy. such a nice name right? i thought of it one. haha. okay. i had an older frog. but i retired him cuz hes racing skills sucked. heehee. hes called Frumpy. okay dumb me thought that the username meant the frog name. so my username became Frumpy. den in the end the username was the trainer's name which is me so it became Frumpy the frog trained by Frumpy the trainer. so it was really weird and since i kept screwing up his meals cuz i kept pressing the wrong things and caused him to have nothing to eat.. i retired him and created Frappy! [frog + crappy = frappy. geddit?] so it's now Frappy the frog trained by Frumpy the trainer.
okay im dumb. my password is dumber. but i shant say in case some evil meanie hack into my account and kill off my beloved Frappy.

okay i am absolutely idiotic.

well anyway, theres really nothing much to update actually. oh yes, TV!! the wonderful invention called the TV!!!
as always, the shows that i watch were superb simply because i have exceptionally good taste :D

alias.
sydney finally found out what happened to her in the past two years! okay, so she found that cube thingy in the hotel safe right [refer to previous entries]. den suddenly this bunch of people came in and started analysing the cube and took it away. den sydney was protesting den her father advised her to go through whatever stuff she'd found. like evaluate all the clues. she was doing so when someone came into her apartment and shot her with a dart. she woke up in an airplane with this balding guy. i couldnt catch his name. so anyway, this guy told her that 'Julia thorne' had came to visit him and told him everything. turned out this doc had captured sydney, extracted pulp from her tooth to put into the pulp of this burnt corpse. so that people will think that the person who died in sydney's apartment is sydney. and he was trying to break her. and he thought he had broken her. he made her julia thorne. but turned out that when she was young, her father sent her to this training thingy so she learnt how to like resist mind control. so she pretended that she had changed. den after that, a few months later, she went to find that bald guy told him everything. turned out dickson knew too!! ok. den she was supposed to kill okay i dunno how to spell his name.. erms, larzeray???? well, sark's father. the russian guy. anyway, but she conspired with him. faked his death. so together, they got together and went on the search to find this guy's dna inside the cube. about some prophecy thingy. seriously, i know nothing about the prophecy. can somebody explain to me??!! anyway, sydney was the girl in the prophecy. den so the bald guy was saying that the baddies believed that there will be a son of okay this guy who made the prophecy. and this son is going to continue his father's work and unleash this great power. so they wanted the father's dna plus sydney [the woman in the prophecy]'s egg to fertilise together and create a baby. they already got sydney's dna. so they were trying to get the cube. den in the end they got the cube. cuz they embushed the bunch of pple that the bald man sent to analyse the cube. yeahs. something like that. then sydney destroyed the lab that did the fertilisation thingy. and rescued okay.. erms, larzeray??? okay i shall call him sark's father. anyway, yay. but when they exited the ambulance and got into the hospital. sark's father got hit by a sniper [or whatever you call it]! and guess who it is?? lauren reed. [micheal vartan's wife] and the show ended there.

csi.
watched this episode before. didnt watch finish the whole thing.

charmed.
i didnt watch the whole thing too. just saw the front part where phoebe turned into this teenage phoebe. and the part where chris met his grandpa. wheee. turns out piper is going to die young ): so sad. well anyway, blah blah they solved the problem. and the ending part was piper looking at chris play with wyatt. isnt it weird? like your grown up younger brother playing with a baby you? if you know what i mean... but it was so sweet. the part where chris was playing with the baby and quite harmless wyatt.

oc tonight. season finale. will miss seth ):

2004-12-14T13:14:00.000+08:00

this entry was written yesterday, 131204may may ma'am: heys.. where have you been??!! hahas.. yay you're tagging (:
graceteh: yay. thank you for passing the cds :D [see, im so polite] and yeah, be nice grace.
rachel: hahahas... i lurve weenie cuz it's so easy to say.. it sounds very whiney.. and erms, it sounds like my surname?? okay thats stupid. haha. EM ROCKS. and yay, see i've got such good taste (: and you naughty girl, you never come the meeting today!! i shld have thrown your cd away and kidnap it or something.. hahas.. oh im addicted to this: THIS SHIT IS BANANAS. B-A-N-A-N-A-S. hahaha..
crystal: whoops.. sorree. hee..who went?
nicole: haha yah. poor ken. hahahas.. oh dash is cooler! hahas...

read life. that part about sly. haha.. i thought it was so sweet. the part where he dedicated "anjing" to "my friend", taufik :D yay. okay fine. i like him. but taufik's much better.. i think sly is just.. erms, nice. yeah. so dont get to happy, rachel. haha.
oh gloria said that the spotlight was only on him. den the two friends frm his band playing in the background were in the dark. haha.. so funny...

meeting today. AND I WENT, GRACE TEH. stupid fella. anyway, i got the cds!!! YAYYYY!!!! -beams- finally. after like, dunno how many weeks. haha.
it was okay lar. i stayed till one. the erms, oh dear, i duno how to spell her name.. madeline???? anyway, the girl who helped in the ncos drama last year came to help us. yep. oh, and i exchanged roles with graceteh. whoops. i think i laughed too much at her. because now johnny yen has to say "my darling xiaochun, your face is like a flower.." that ultra gross line to me. :S i dunno seriously dunno...
i bought a cheongsam!! and graceteh had to go and announce to the whole world its price. fine. okay it's very ex. but the cheapo ones look like those mamasan wear kind. but dont worry, erms, in case any ma'ams are like jumping up and down cuz it's going to take a huge chunk off the budget. im not going to claim it. yeah. see im so kind :D haha.. so now it's going to take a huge chunk off my pocket. and im prob going to have to wear the cheongsam for every single wedding dinner till it wears down or something.
anyway, i went to school. just as they finished the talk. urgh. well anyway, yeah. so we slacked around a bit. listened to grace's ipod. i am absolutely obsessed with karma!! anyway, so we started acting. den i suggested me and grace change roles cuz we were getting absolutely bored. well, i was getting very bored with my role. so we exchanged. den they decided that the xiaochun role fitted me more. so den we went to ask the ma'ams and they agreed so.. yahs.. i've turned from a tai tai to this "ill bred rogue". oh poo ): den we had unit song. and we did. den jodie said that we looked sad instead of hungry. haha. okay. so i imagined myself eating jodie.. hahas.. okay this sounds biantai. i imagined myself eating the lemon chicken.. hahahas... well anyways, we were trying to get the note right for thank you for the music. was deciding whether to sing with front or back voice.. yahs.. so while the ma'ams were discussing.. some of us were.. ahem. distracted. hahas... so we started throwing fruits around. as in the fake fruits that mrs goh lent us. seriously, i dont think the ma'ams shld keep saying like "angela goh" sounds really rude. i mean, cant you like address her properly? like mrs goh. imagine if we went up to you and say "oie, -your name-" without saying the word ma'am. like really rude right. well anyway, so we started throwing fruits around. oh and sweegeok ma'am pulled a grape out of it's erms, stalk. hahas.. tsk tsk. oh yes, we got a new version of thank you for the music. it's called THANK YOU FOR THE FISHBALLS. hahahas.. den at that part where it goes "what would life be? without a song or a dance what are we?" it's supposed to be "what would life be? without a fish or a ball what are we?" hahahas.. okay fine. dey said that i was obsessed with fishballs.
uncle, hows your balls?
hahaha.. okay im mean.
den we had break.
aud ma'am, grace ma'am and yingmin ma'am came. hahas.. so me being lame went. -addresses current ncos- "ma'ams!" -points to ex-ncos- "ma'ams!"
hahas.. but we didnt diam. cuz they werent exactly here to visit us and all so... yeahs.. and during break. they came. hahas.. and they were like asking us to buy stuff. oh and there were this pair of really cute magnets. it's one boy and one girl. theres the cat one but it was bought by a pri sch girl. anyway, it was really really cute. so i erms, asked around if anybody wanted to buy a christmas prezzie for me. hahah. yay and gloria the NICEST GIRL IN THE WORLD bought it!! yayyy.. hahas.. i got the girl. she got the boy. hahas.. so we were like, two weeks later, exchange. i take the boy and you take the girl. haha. so funny..
oh and erms, for my efforts in bullying pple to go and buy stuff, i got cookies free!! :D yay.. hahas.. thanks so much to grace ma'am, ying min ma'am and erms.. aud ma'am the free labourer. haha ((:
yeah. den break was over... and blah blah. and i went home and went chinatown with my mum, grandma and funky grandad.
hahas..

when is the series of unfortunate events coming out? oh yes, theres a count olaf website you know. haha. something like www.countolaf.com?? i dunno..

i need a holiday.
a holiday ________________________ !!

2004-12-11T22:49:00.000+08:00

[[music playing: karma by alicia keys]]

Here's the thing
We started out friends
It was cool, but it was all pretend
Yeah, yeah, since you been gone
You dedicated, you took the time
Wasn't long, till I called you mine
Yeah, yeah, since you been gone
And all you'd ever hear me say
Is how I pictured me with you
That's all you'd ever hear me say

But since you been gone
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so movin' on, yeah yeah
Thanks to you now I get what I want
Since you been gone

How can I put it, you put me on
I even fell for that stupid love song
Yeah, yeah, since you been gone
How come I'd never hear you say
I just wanna be with you
Guess you never felt that way

But since you been gone
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so movin' on, yeah yeah
Thanks to you now I get what I want
Since you been gone

You had your chance, you blew it
Out of sight, out of mind
Shut your mouth, I just can't take it
Again and again and again and again

Since you been gone (since you been gone)
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so movin' on, yeah yeah
Thanks to you (thanks to you)
Now I get, I get what I want
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so movin' on, yeah yeah
Thanks to you (thanks to you)
Now I get (I get)
You should know, that I get
I get what I want

Since you been gone
Since you been gone
Since you been gone
since you been gone by kelly clarkson

GET WELL SOON!!!
this is for my dearest junior, jacq, the poor girl who's stuck at home because she broke her leg at the playground and has throat infection.
rest well and take care!

i watched the encore telecast of singapore idol again. wanted to watch that part where someone threw that stick at ken lim. haha. i thought it was really funny. i missed it the first time round cuz i was busy reading 8days. and i missed it again because i was reading a book. oh poof.
taufik rocks!!! ((: and okay fine, sylvester is not bad lar. i dunno but i find him highly amusing...]

TAGS!

sonia: heys, really really VERY sorry that i didnt go for the class gathering!! anyway, i only caught a few episodes of one tree hill. cuz it's at such a weird timeslot and i keep forgetting to watch it. the last time i watch was chad michael murray ending up in hospital.. but... ah wells... hahas.. hes not that hot lar.i hated him in freaky friday. the horrible hair and the horrible singing...
gracetan: hahas.. ryan is not bad lar. but hes abit too sulky and.. not funny. SETH ROCKS!!! ((: yups.. that's greg sanders from the dna lab :D and i still havent gotten teen idol yet!! apparently it's with jodie or something...
graceteh aka gloria's wife: HAHAHAHA. grace teh is obsessed with gloria :D im saying this because you're going on hol and i wont be seeing you for a long long time!!! hahahaha.. so by the time you come back you'd probably forget so i'ma say somemore: grace teh is obessed with gloria!!! oh wait, gloria is coming to school right. whooops. anywayyyy, yes, you are a gross pok. dont try to deny it. YES I KNOW WHAT A WEENIE IS. but im not gonna stop calling you a weenie. GRACE THE MEANIE WEENIE.
yengyie: hello!! see ya when school reopens!!!
trang: hello.. happy hols to you too!
my dearie rachel [haha]: haiyo you soo mean. stop making fun of taufik's name lar!! first you had to call him tauf*k den now buttisah. sighhhs. and i dunno why but i lurve ryan cabrera's true!! and im not biantai k hrmmph. but nevermind, I LOVE MY DARLING RACHEL!!! hahahs... thank you soo much for lending me the cd (: tick tock tick tock...
*note: love doesnt mean in love, in case anybody *hints* is getting any strange ideas
nicole: heys.. hahas.. yups. gloria? mr incredible? hahahah. and yvonne's heart must be breaking.. i mean, how could elastigirl not be her??!! heehee...
aud ma'am: hello.. erms, ive already seen you.. and it was horrible today -cries- not saying that you're horrible just... oh wells.. you know what i mean right?
nat: i also got tag you k... my pic take very long to load meh?
roxanne: heys... long time no see.. erms, hope your computer recovers so you can KEEP TAGGING ME!! haha :D

i finally borrowed stormbreaker!!! ((: wheeee im in love with alex rider... hahas... i think he rocks lar.

drama was screwed. i shant say more.

the hols are poofing away...

this is so random.

oh yes, the oc!!! rachel was going on about wanting strippers. and ahem excuse me, i am not a stripper okay? HRRRMPH. but it was very funny.. the whole catfight at the pool. i cant stand julie. shes a bitch. and teresa is pregnant. i seriously think she damn poor thing lar. first she had to get hit by eddie. den now shes pregnant. and she doesnt know who the father is. oh, and seth was super sweet lar. hahas.. he and summer. and that part about him wanting to marry the hotel was damn funny.

jodie came back today. shes like black. hahas... and my hair got bullied by graceteh ): oh yes _blah blah blah blah_ and i wanted to pretend i was a teacher and _blah blah blah_ hahahs.. im censoring out some parts.

nothing to blog about.

2004-12-08T23:08:00.000+08:00

*whatever happened to my pic??!!!!
urgh. im gonna change my layout soon.

and no one tagged. boohooo. you MEANIE WEENIES. hrmmph.

[[music playing: true by ryan cabrera]]

Chorus:

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I want to chase
You're the one I want to hold
I won't let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

I know that you are something special
To you I'd be always faithful
I want to be what you always needed
Then I hope you'll see the heart in me

Chorus

Your beautiful soul, yeah

You might need time to think it over
But I'm just fine moving forward
I'll ease your mind
If you give me the chance
I will never make you cry, c'mon let's try

Chorus

Am I crazy for wanting you
Baby do you think you could want me too
I don't waste your time
Do you see things the way I do
I just want to know that you feel it too
There is nothing left to hide

Chorus 2X

Your beautiful soul, yeah
beautiful soul by jesse mcCartney

ya know, when i first saw the name like jesse mcCartney, i was thinking this erms, middle-age popstar.. erms, something like sting, but younger.. dunno.. maybe because of the whole mcCartney thing? you know, Paul mcCartney from the beatles... but i saw the vid. and he turned out to be like... aaron carter.
erms, yahs... maybe except that the jesse guy can sing better...
was planning on putting his pic here, but den i couldnt find one nice enough so...

oh yes, alias and csi were VERY NICE yesterday.

ok. so sydney, in the whole dream thing, saw will sitting next to this erms.. cereal box?? well anyways, so she went to find him. and erms, owing to the fact that im a new aliasfan i didnt have any idea who will was. but he turned out to be this quite cute guy who is really nice. okay. so erms, yahs.. den there was a whole lotta thing. and turned out that sark's father was alive and all and sark the evil pok went to kill his father. and he stole this thing from a safety deposit box in the hotel. oh yes, and sydney was there too. den in other to get into the hotel, they dressed up as "the next big thing" hahahas... so funny. so they were in those rockstars outfit. and the will was ultra funny cuz he was faking this accent. and went "im here, shes here. we're all here." hahaha. okay, heres his pic:

den the hotel guy was like "whats your name?" den sydney said "the next big thing". yahs.. so they went to the hotel and hacked into the system and went to the safety deposit box. but sark used a magnet to steal the thing. so sydney went after him while will went after.. okay i dunno how to spell her name ellison? you know the one who took francie's face. well anyway, WILL KILLED HER!! yayyy finally man. she finally died. okay i hope she did. because this aint the first time she got 'killed'. like sydney shot her wayy back two years ago. den she survived. den sydney stabbed her again. and she escaped frm the ambulance even though she "barely had a pulse" den now... i hope shes dead for good. cuz i really cant stand her. okay and sydney kicked sark's ass. and got the thing back. and sloane got this hitman to kill off lindsey?? erms, i dunno his name. that jerk who put sydney in that place and tortured her. lauren's boss. yeahs. and micheal vartan was supposed to be mean to sydney so that he wouldnt hurt her..yups. and the poor doctor. the professor who helped her in the dream thing was killed by sark. oh yes, and that student he was sleeping with, looked a lot like that girl from too fast too furious.

ok. csi was nice too. they found this insect covered body and all. and turned out he was a person with down syndrome. yahs.. and he got killed by this cowboy. oh and the other one. it's like this porno director sent in this tape of him murdering a woman. and it was real. cuz according to cath "the arterial spray was real". so yups.. anyways, they did this analyse of the tape.. ARCHIE KAO!!! i think hes cute too.. anyways, and they found out who the laydee was. turned out she was HIV positive. and they found that asshole director who directed the porn film and he was like denying everything. and you know what nailed his ass?? he was HIV positive too. see, they took his blood. compared the dna of the virus in his body with the one in the laydee and it was the same strain or something like that.. so yups. it was confirmed that she passed it too him. you know how, cuz he slashed her throat.den all the blood was spurting out. den it went all over his face. virus got absorbed thru his eyes into the bloodstream and the rest is history.

i LURVE csi ((: the storylines are good. and it's like, they solve the case in one episode. unlike alias where, when it gets to the exciting part, you have a heart attack because the show ends. den you'll be like "damn." oh and the dialogue is good too. funny. hahas.. and the characters are great. except well, sara. but anyway, it was like cath, after telling the porno director all the HIV stuff, went "you killed her." den sara went "and she killed you back." hahahs.. funny...

charmed today was good too. not that stupid. CHRIS!!! -drools- hahaha.. ok chris is damn cute. bloody cute... he looked even hotter today. i dunno why. maybe because today was about him fading off. but he was so hot. hahahs.. okay. so piper and leo finally had sex. so chris could stay. yayyY!!!!! seriously, there are so many surprises in this season's charmed. first off, turns out wyatt is a big baddy. which is a pity because the baby wyatt is so cute den when he grows up, he looks like he just came from filming Gladiator. well anyways, CHRIS IS PIPER AND LEO'S SON AKA WYATT'S BROTHER. which is like even cooler. because at least one of their sons is cute. and good. i always thought chris was wyatt... whatever.

today was talentime meeting.

i dont understand. why are you so mean? you're a MEAN MEAN MAN.

HAHAHA. i lurve this part of the song.

well anyway, we had meetingtoday. morning. soooo few pple came. sighhx. den when i came to school, everyone was slacking. sighh. den we practised. and we did the props. seriously, no offence to anybody, but i thought that the person who did the props and costumes the other time was RUBBISH. because there were NO PROPS. and all the costumes looked like AH MA'S COSTUMES. except a few. well we added some extras and i told some pple to bring props blah blahh. and we NEEDED NICER CHEONGSaMS!!!! seriously, jodie's costume looked terrible. the only nice cheongsam is grace's outfit.
speaking of grace, grace teh is an ultra gross pok. she likes to strip naked in front of everyone in school.
maybe not naked.
half-naked. but still... which is bad enough considering that THERE ARE SO MANY MALE CLEANERS IN OUR SCHOOL NOT TO MENTION THE CONSTRUCTION WORKERS WHO, HAVING MADE TO TOIL DAY AND NIGHT, ARE PROBABLY FEELING VERY HUNGRY. and im not talking about food. i mean you never know, males think of sex most of the time. no that im sexist or that im condemning sex but.. you know what i mean...

okay anyway, i shant talk about RA stuff. this blog is rated PG. so let's keep to the PG topics. such as, what happened today.

well, anyway, so we let them off for lunch at 10.30 which i thought was wayyy to early. but anyway, liqin, nat, grace and me stayed back in school. so nat was whining about craving for cup noodles. liqin wanted to stay in school to read her lishi book. you know, that he zhong xue shen tan li shi book. well anyway, grace teh stayed back with her. so i took a bus with nat to the petrol station to buy cup noodles [aint i nice?] yups. and we walked all the way back with nat carrying her tomyum noodles [yummmiee] and spilling it every few minutes. hahas. by the time we got back to school, the noodles no longer looked nice. instead, the soup looked like red dye mixed with water. well anyway, so meeting started.
presentation.

drama. it was.. plain. empty. boring. i talked too fast. i gestured too much. i forgot my lines. and i burst out into laughter. BAD. was like nagging at pple. GET DOWN ON STAGE NOW!!!! den they'll be like... stones. stones. talk talk. stones. den i'm like HURRY. and they're still stoning. -faints- grace tang was simply fabulous as johnny yen. gloria looked too bian tai. hahaha. she really looked very pervert. the whole LUSTING AFTER GRACETEH thing was far too real. if you know what i mean.. -nods- well anyway, i was laughing away at gloria.
ncos' dance. it was neater. better. but still needed some improvements.
malay dance. they improved. A LOT. YAYYY -big round of applause- i mean, they took time out to practise and all that. see, thats what i call dedication to the work and wonderful role models. -beams- sometimes i wonder where they get all that enthusiasm and dedication....
mass dance. not bad. but i still dont get the whole gun thing. it's just plain weird...
unit song. seriously OUT OF TUNE. it's like, the harmonising pple were overpowering the melody pple. and i found myself singing the harmonising part which is not supposed to be becase im supposed to sing the melody!!! alot of pple werent here and they cancelled belle!!! sob.

yups. so thats about what happened. i guess. oh yes, taufik got like 62% and sly got only 38% [statistics may not be accurate due to failing memory] MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

oh, and we had this the incredibles family. hahaha.

mr incredible is gloria cheng.
elastigirl is non other than grace teh.
*these two can never escape being husband and wife. teehee.
violet is natalie.
dash is melissa.
jackjack is gracetan hahaha.
ednamode [??] is me, carawee hahahaha. they wanted me to be elastigirl actually. but den i decided that the edna person is wayy much funkier. hahah.
syndrome aka incrediboy is apparently rachel darling
hahahaha.

2004-12-08T23:07:00.000+08:00

top five hottest guys on teevee
[pics included]

adam brody from the oc. duh

benjamin mckenzie from the oc.

drew fuller [chris] from charmed.

eric szmanda from CSI.

chad michael murray from one three hill.

actually, there are more but if i added these pple [such as micheal vartan, etc] there'll be an odd number so... yahs...

*OH i finally realise why that erms, frizzy haired girl from one tree hill looks so familar. you know that blonde that i hate. hahas.. anyways, shes one of the hosts of trl!! whee no wonder she looked so familar.

2004-12-05T13:14:00.000+08:00

happy belated birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to XUEWEN AND SHONDA... happy birthday to you!!!

and also to rosalind the MJ fan and maricelle, whom weirdly enough, i dreamt of last night.

funny how gloria and i have the same birthdays and xuewen and shonda have the same birthdays. hahas.. dunno. just find it amusing.

shonda's on holiday now. ): i wanna go on holiday too... -whines-

2004-12-05T13:08:00.000+08:00

the heart is a bloom
shoots up through the stony ground
there's no room
no space to rent in this town

you're out of luck
and the reason that you had to care
the traffic is stuck
and you're not moving anywhere

you thought you'd found a friend
to take you out of this place
someone you could lend a hand
in return for grace

it's a beautiful day
sky falls you feel like
it's a beautiful day
don't let it get away

you're on the road
but you've got no destination
you're in the mud
in the maze of her imagination

you love this town
even if that doesn't ring true
you've been all over
and it's been all over you

it's a beautiful day
don't let it get away
it's a beautiful day

touch me
take me to that other place
teach me
i know i'm not a hopeless case

see the world in green and blue
see china right in front of you
see the canyons broken by cloud
see the tuna fleets clearing the sea out
see the bedouin fires at night
see the oil fields at first light
and see the bird with a leaf in her mouth
after the flood all the colors came out

it was a beautiful day
don't let it get away
beautiful day

touch me
take me to that other place
reach me
i know i'm not a hopeless case

what you don't have you don't need it now
what you don't know you can feel it somehow
what you don't have you don't need it now
don't need it now
was a beautiful day
beautiful day by u2

xuewen: of course :D i have good taste. hahas.. and the grouchy m&m is so cute.
gracetan: hey, whats wrong with dick lee?? hahas... and whats wrong with micheal j fox too?? hes cute okayy. okay he used to be cute. when he was younger. and he looks not bad now too what. wheeheee.. can lend me the princess diaries?? heehee.. i read sixsational liaos. thank you!! hahas.. and sorry for making you carry two hardcovers lars..
shermin: heys... you take care too (:
melody: heys.. erms, everythings okay yahs..thanks. take care!
rachel: hey, whats so pissifying about dick lee?? ah wells.. rachel the crazzee sly fan who sacrificed everything just to listen to mandopop just so that she could listen to sly ): sighh.

i've got nothing to update.

2004-12-02T21:07:00.000+08:00

[[music playing: rumours by lindsay lohan]]

now can i get an encore do you want more
what the hell are you waiting for?

i lurvve the song ((:
sorry will reply tags soon. im a lazy pok -hides face-

anywayys

yesterday night was history in the making. the first singapore idol was crowned. however, for the thousands of sly fans located all around this island, it would be remembered as the night that their beloved sylvester sim lost out to [the ever wonderful] taufik batisah. And perhaps as the night that they used up all their life savings voting for sly.

i shall be extremely nice. i shant rub it in [i think i just did].
but please allow me a little scream for joy

TAUFIK BATISAH IS THE FIRST EVER SINGAPORE IDOL!!!

okay. i shall refrain from mentioning anything about singapore idol for fear of shattering the fragile hearts of all sly fans reading this blog.

dont be too upset, in case you're feeling suicidal which is quite probable. it's not the end of the world.

well anyways. been a long week. well not exactly. sorry i didnt go for the meetings on tuesday and wed, hence missing out on all the casting and stuff. ): i was sick. and so was my poor mummy who had to be admitted into the hospital. turns out that it was not the food. she had gastric flu. and my poor mummy had to go on the drip. again. it's her like, third time and i know that it is extremely painful as ive been thru it before myself. yes. so this was the reason i did not go to school. so for those at home shaking your head thinking that carawee is such a freaking slacker, think again.
but anyways, shes better now lar. she was discharged on erms, tuesday evening.
anyways,
thank you so much for caring nicole ((: yesh, oli got her revenge :D

*a reminder to those who might have forgotten: it's xuewen's birthday on saturday!!! so remember the prezzies!!

hahas.. see im such a kind friend ((:
ok i shall put my ego aside for once and spare you from my swollen-headed rantings [which are absolutely true by the way].

anyways, sighx. i myself dunno what present to give ): ideas anybody??

and they're watching a movie on saturday. first it was after the sunset -snorts- den they wanted christmas with the kranks -double snort-

no nice movies nowadays.. sighh.

ah wells no reason to keep typing on. nothing to update anyway.
chao~

2004-12-02T20:47:00.001+08:00

after lusting for so many people from shawn ashmore to the ultra disappointing joel madden, cara has turned her attentions to +gasps+ lao ah peks???

okay. maybe not exactly laoahpeks.

top 5 hottest guys over the age of 30
[pics included]

dick lee. ok maybe he looks really retarded in this pic and hes not exactly hot but hes my fav singapore idol judge okay.

brad pitt. who could resist??

johnny depp. yummy

micheal j fox.

eminem. hahas.. this is funny.. okay a nicer pic

2004-11-29T22:18:00.000+08:00

[[music playing: come home soon by pug jelly]]

grace: hello.. i dont lurve you!! hahahahas -sticks tongue out-
xuewen: hey, im funkee too okay. i come frm a funky family so i must be very funky too right? ah whatever. hahahas.. play the funkee music...
melody: hey thanks for tagging ((: it's great talking to you too!! talk to ya soon...
crystal: heyyy so much for tagging you everytime i go online... i forgot all about that.. whoops sorry.. heex. erms, i shld be going lar. are you?

im sick. sniffs. i have a fever. and my mom is sick too. she has a fever too. hahas. doctor said it was food poisoning ): which is such a pity because i thought last night's dinner was quite nice. it was all canned food lar. haha. but it was nice okay. cuz i helped cook it (: oh no. maybe it's because i helped cook it. bleargh. but hey, im very hygenic one okay.

blah. im talking rubbish.
been sleeping and sleeping the whole day, after i came home frm school. sighx. and i was so plannning on returning my ultra overdued books ):

anyway, theres nothing really much to update about.

oh yes, a huge thanks to MAY MAY MA'AM AND SOOLING MA'AM!! hahas.. may may ma'am straightened her hair (: she looks chio-er.. hahas.. and i got my 2nd encore. and me being so nice and all, went to burn encore for grace. but she had to go piss me off by greeting me with a smack on the head. so i gave the cd to xuewen instead. hahaha. too bad grace. :p

im mean.
blah.
oh yes, realised why the album came so early. because it was leaked or something. den em had to release the album early. lala interviewed him on trl today. she was in detroit. anyway, the trl that we watch in singapore is seriously outdated lar. the episode i watched today was like the 6th nov or something one. which is like slow. sighhh. cant wait to see i just wanna live. i tried watching it online. but den it hung and i couldnt see anything except blurrs. sigh. same with the mosh vid. bleargh.

why do i have such lousy computers??!! -frustrated look-

keep falling away keep falling away

oh yay!! i can see my blog in the lousy computer!! :D it's not that lousy afterall...

2004-11-28T20:02:00.000+08:00

If I had to life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever oh so early
I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong
Our dreams are young and we both know
They'll take us where we want to go
Hold me now, touch me now
I don't want to live without you

[Chorus]
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You oughta know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You oughta know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life through
But nothing's gonna change my love for you

If the road ahead is not so easy
Our love will lead the way for us
Like a guiding star
I'll be there for you if you should need me
You don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are
So come with me and share the view
I'll help you see forever too
Hold me now, touch me now
I don't want to live without you
nothing's gonna change my love for you by george benson

this is my baby cousin's fav song. hahahs.. well, erms, apart from all those baby songs..
he keeps singing it. and the way he sings it is like super funny. hahahs.. so cute right.

im boredd.

2004-11-27T20:40:00.000+08:00

I pledge allegiance to the flag of the United States of America
And to the Republic for which it stands
One nation under God
Indivisible
[People, It feels so good to be back..]

I Scrutinize every word, memorize every line
I spit it once, refuel, reenergize, and rewind
I give sight to the blind, mind my sight through the mind
I ostracize my right to express when I feel it's time
It's just all in your mind, what you interpret it as
I say to fight you take it as I’m gonna whip someone's ass
If you don't understand don't even bother to ask
A father who has grown up with a fatherless past
Who has blown up now to rap phenomenon that has
Or at least shows no difficulty multi task
And juggling both, perhaps mastered his craft slash
Entrepreneur who has held long too few more rap acts
Who has had a few obstacles thrown his way through the last half
Of his career typical manure moving past that
Mister kiss his ass crack, he's a class act
Rubber band man, yea he just snaps back

Come along, follow me as I lead through the darkness
As I provide just enough spark, that we need to proceed
Carry on, give me hope, give me strength,
Come with me, and I won't steer you wrong
Put your faith and your trust as I guide us through the fog
Till the light, at the end, of the tunnel, we gonna fight,
We gonna charge, we gonna stomp, we gonna march through the swamp
We gonna mosh through the marsh, take us right through the doors

To the people up top, on the side and the middle,
Come together, let's all bomb and swamp just a little
Just let it gradually build, from the front to the back
All you can see is a sea of people, some white and some black
Don't matter what color, all that matters is we gathered together
To celebrate for the same cause, no matter the weather
If it rains let it rain, yea the wetter the better
They ain't gonna stop us, they can't, we're stronger now more then ever,
They tell us no we say yea, they tell us stop we say go,
Rebel with a rebel yell, raise hell we gonna let em know
Stomp, push up, mush, fuck Bush, until they bring our troops home come on just . . .

Come along, follow me as I lead through the darkness
As I provide just enough spark, that we need to proceed
Carry on, give me hope, give me strength,
Come with me, and I won't steer you wrong
Put your faith and your trust as I guide us through the fog
Till the light, at the end, of the tunnel, we gonna fight,
We gonna charge, we gonna stomp, we gonna march through the swamp
We gonna mosh through the marsh, take us right through the doors, come on

Imagine it pouring, it's raining down on us,
Mosh pits outside the oval office
Someone's trying to tell us something, maybe this is God just saying
we're responsible for this monster, this coward, that we have empowered
This is Bin Laden, look at his head nodding,
How could we allow something like this, Without pumping our fist
Now this is our, final hour
Let me be the voice, and your strength, and your choice
Let me simplify the rhyme, just to amplify the noise
Try to amplify the times it, and multiply it by six
Teen million people are equal of this high pitch
Maybe we can reach Al Quaida through my speech
Let the President answer on high anarchy
Strap him with AK-47, let him go
Fight his own war, let him impress daddy that way
No more blood for oil, we got our own battles to fight on our soil
No more psychological warfare to trick us to think that we ain't loyal
If we don't serve our own country we're patronizing a hero
Look in his eyes, it's all lies, the stars and stripes
They've been swiped, washed out and wiped,
And Replaced with his own face, mosh now or die
If I get sniped tonight you'll know why, because I told you to fight

So come along, follow me as I lead through the darkness
As I provide just enough spark, that we need to proceed
Carry on, give me hope, give me strength,
Come with me, and I won't steer you wrong
Put your faith and your trust as I guide us through the fog
Till the light, at the end, of the tunnel, we gonna fight,
We gonna charge, we gonna stomp, we gonna march through the swamp
We gonna mosh through the marsh, take us right through the doors

And as we proceed, to mosh through this desert storm, in these closing statements, if they should argue, let us beg to differ, as we set aside our differences, and assemble our own army, to disarm this weapon of mass destruction that we call our president, for the present, and mosh for the future of our next generation, to speak and be heard, Mr. President, Mr. Senator [can you hear us? giggles]
Mosh by eminem

why are you so mean? you're a mean mean man
hahahas... em sounds so whiny on Big Weenie. i was informed that weenie means a guy's [the following word has been censored for the benefit of innocent people who gets squirmy when body parts are mentioned] so now, graceteh the evil pig has a new name: meanie weenie. HAH.

blahh felt quite depressed yesterday. feeling a little less depressed today so i shall write a happier entry. actually, we shldnt get depressed you know. whats the point of spending each and every single moment of your life being depressed den die sadly? i mean shldnt you like treasure everymoment and be happy so that you'll die a happy person? i dunno...

nothing much happened yesterday. oh we celebrated my auntie and cousin's birthday. like both mother and son. hahas... and guess what my mom and i gave my auntie? heehee -cheeky grin- we gave her this red colour g-string ((: hahas.. hey it looked sexy okayy hahas.. it looks kinda nice except for the fact that i can never figure out how pple can wear g-strings. i mean, wouldnt it be so uncomfortable? okay, i shall stop being biantai and stop discussing about underwear. but seriously, the gstring was nice. it's got all the erms, dangly stuffs.. hahas.. oh and my uncle who is ultra talented went to like wrap it in this way so that it looks like a necklace. okay, i shall try to describe it to you. erms, so it's a gstring. den at the back at the top part, there's like all the erms, jewels and stuffs. so he like wrapped it in a way that when you open the box, you can only see the jewel so it looks like a necklace. and before she opened the present, we were like "do you promise to wear it and show us?" hahahs.. ah wells...

anyways, i watched Shutter with my cousins today. :S it was creepy. super creepy. i spent half the time hiding behind my fingers. hahas.. was looking thru a gap in my fingers, hence i could only see like the bottom part of the screen. so i couldnt see the ghost so it wasnt that scary. hahahs.. but the sound effects alone were scary enough. and den pple were like screaming. den there were a couple of irritating jerks who like pretending to scream den scare pple. ah wells.. and i accidentally screamed. -hides face- i mean, the ghost just suddenly stuck her head out. den i got a shocked and just screamed. whooops. but seriously, the lead actor looked a lot like pierre png. oh however you spell his name.
oh and my cousin, remembering the last time she watched a horror movie [gothika] with me [i spilt ice lemon tea on her jeans, caused a popcorn shower to happen and accidentally dipped my hand into the nachos cheese before accidentally wiping it on her and almost killed her hand], had to hide the nachos and icelemon tea before the show started. hahas.. ah wells. im so loser right. well anyways, erms, no food incidents happened and i barely squashed her fingers. so it was okay. just that we were sitting at the second row. and it was bloody hard to see.
anyways, the movie was scary lar. the whole neck thing was just plain freaky.

and my books are long overdue. but im lazy to go return them. HOW?? blah. ive alr got so many fines. ):
im such a worm. urgh. i hate myself.

i hatemyself. i havent done anything constructive during this holiday. just been slacking. and no matter how much i try to convince myself that xiu xi shi wei lar zou gen chang de lu [erms, rest is to walk a longer distance?] the fact remains that im such a disgusting slacker. urgh.

want to change my layout.

2004-11-27T19:58:00.000+08:00

this entry was written on 251104, thurs, so some of the stuff are pretty outdated
this entire entry, including the song, is specially dedicated to grace teh:

When i just a little baby boy,
My momma used to tell me these crazy things
She used to tell me my daddy was an evil man,
She used to tell me he hated me
But then i got a little bit older
And i realized, she was the crazy one
But there was nothin i could do or say to try to change it
Cause that's just the way she was

They said i can't rap about bein broke no more
They ain't say i can't rap about coke no more
(ahhh!) slut, you think i won't choke no whore
Til the vocal cords don't work in her throat no more?!
(ahhh!) these motherfuckers are thinkin i'm playin
Thinkin i'm sayin the shit cause i'm thinkin it just to be sayin it
(ahhh!) put your hands down bitch, i ain't gon' shoot you
I'ma pull +you+ to this bullet, and put it through you
(ahhh!) shut up slut, you're causin too much chaos
Just bend over and take it like a slut, okay ma?
"oh, now he's raping his own mother, abusing a whore,
Snorting coke, and we gave him the rolling stone cover?"
You god damn right bitch, and now it's too late
I'm triple platinum and tragedies happen in two states
I invented violence, you vile venomous volatile bitches
Vain vicadin, vrinnn vrinnn, vrinnn! {*chainsaw revs up*}
Texas chainsaw, left his brains all
Danglin from his neck, while his head barely hangs on
Blood, guts, guns, cuts
Knives, lives, wives, nuns, sluts

Chorus: eminem

Bitch i'ma kill you! you don't wanna fuck with me
Girls neither - you ain't nuttin but a slut to me
Bitch i'ma kill you! you ain't got the balls to beef
We ain't gon' never stop beefin i don't squash the beef
You better kill me! i'ma be another rapper dead
For poppin off at the mouth with shit i shouldn'ta said
But when they kill me - i'm bringin the world with me
Bitches too! you ain't nuttin but a girl to me
.. i said you don't, wanna fuck with shady (cause why?)
Cause shady, will fuckin kill you (ah-haha)
I said you don't, wanna fuck with shady (why?)
Cause shady, will fuckin kill you..

[eminem]
Bitch i'ma kill you! like a murder weapon, i'ma conceal you
In a closet with mildew, sheets, pillows and film you
Buck with me, i been through hell, shut the hell up!
I'm tryin to develop these pictures of the devil to sell 'em
I ain't "acid rap," but i rap on acid
Got a new blow-up doll and just had a strap-on added
Whoops! is that a subliminal hint? no!
Just criminal intent to sodomize women again
Eminem offend? no! eminem insult
And if you ever give in to him, you give him an impulse
To do it again, then, if he does it again
You'll probably end up jumpin out of somethin up on the 10th
(ahhhhhhhh!) bitch i'ma kill you, i ain't done this ain't the chorus
I ain't even drug you in the woods yet to paint the forest
A bloodstain is orange after you wash it three or four times
In a tub but that's normal ain't it norman?
Serial killer hidin murder material
In a cereal box on top of your stereo
Here we go again, we're out of our medicine
Out of our minds, and we want in yours, let us in

Chorus (first line starts "or i'ma kill you!")

[eminem]
Eh-heh, know why i say these things?
Cause lady's screams keep creepin in shady's dreams
And the way things seem, i shouldn't have to pay these shrinks
This eighty g's a week to say the same things tweece!
Twice? whatever, i hate these things
Fuck shots! i hope the weed'll outweigh these drinks
Motherfuckers want me to come on their radio shows
Just to argue with 'em cause their ratings stink?
Fuck that! i'll choke radio announcer to bouncer
From fat bitch to off seventy-thousand pounds of her
From principal to the student body and counselor
From in-school to before school to out of school
I don't even believe in breathin i'm leavin air in your lungs
Just to hear you keep screamin for me to seep it
Okay, i'm ready to go play
I got the machete from o.j.
I'm ready to make everyone's throats ache
You faggots keep eggin me on
Til i have you at knifepoint, then you beg me to stop?
Shut up! give me your hands and feet
I said shut up when i'm talkin to you
You hear me? answer me!

Chorus (first line starts "or i'ma kill you!"
Ninth line starts "bitch i'ma kill you!")

[eminem]
Hahaha, i'm just playin ladies
You know i love you
kill you by eminem

the title totally describes what i feel like doing to her.

nah, i shall be nice.
but seriously, look at her tag. does she deserve to be nice to? no. URGGH.

seriously i think grace is very weird. let's make a list
ten things weird about grace
[this list is compiled with the help of grace teh herself]

one. she has very weird friends with the exception of me, who is of course, the nicest girl in the world :D [HAH]
two. shes ultra temperamental
three. she has weird taste.
four. she is bisexual. [she lurves gloria]
five. she drives herself crazy by joining too many ccas.
six. she tries too hard to be an overachiever.
seven. she is forever trying to act cute.
eight. she likes bitching about herself.
nine. her ringtone sounds weird.
ten. she loves to matchmake her friends.

yayy.. ah whatever. im crappy.

2004-11-26T13:34:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JODIE!!!

happy birthday to you happy birthday to you happy birthday to jodie nggggg happy birthday to you!!

ps: sorry will reply tags and sign guestbooks asap.

2004-11-26T13:21:00.000+08:00

cara feels...

today's been a screwed up day.

woke up feeling nausea. den went to school. grace came with the cloth. den realised that the paint spray not enough. den it started raining. den we had nothing to do. den grace was pissed off. gloria was ultra frustrated. and i was... disgustingly irritating. den got a whole lotta stuff mixed up. and everything's just screwed up.
we're terrible seniors. we screw up everything. we screwed up sec1 poc. we screwed up sec2 talentime. and now, we're screwing up sec3 and2s drama which is like the only item some of us are taking part in...
so basically, we're just a bunch of screwed up losers.
even the sec2s are more organised than us.

den i didnt go for jodie's birthday celebration.

and my baby cousin is annoying me.

SIGHHH...

and i have a feeling i've just ruined _ so that's me, the great ruiner. the one and only Ms Screw Up.

haizzz...

well, but the day was made better with presents (: hahas..
A GIGANTIC THANK YOU TO SHIFAN MA'AM who gave me an ultra belated birthday present. hee (; but nvm, it's the thought that counts right? hahas... she gave me encore (:
and may may ma'am and sooling ma'am are giving me something on monday. (: they're giving me encore.
hahahs.. so i've got two encores. ah wells..
but seriously, it's the thought that counts so... thank you so much!! :D

so i suppose there goes the cds sighx..

ps: wrote a graceisweird entry.. hahas.. still in the other lousy computer, shall post it asap. hahahas.

2004-11-24T18:30:00.000+08:00

to fulfil my role as a transfer agent and to kill time:

10 things you might wanna know about drugs:
1. ways to say 'No': give excuses, change the topic, etc.
2. heroin is the most commonly used drug in singapore.
3. ketamine is also known as kitkat, special k, vitamin k, KFC, etc.
4. Golden Triangle consists of Myanmar, Thailand and Laos. [china also included because of Yunnan]
5. Did ya know that, in Yunnan [ok, is this how you spell it], even those as young as three years old smoke??
6. Golden Cresent consists of Iran, Pakistan and Afghanistan.
7. SANA's mission is to mobilise our community against drug abuse and strive towards a drug-free Singapore.
8. SANA was formed in 1972. it is a non-government welfare organization.
9. drugs are substances which, when taken, modify one or more body functions.
10. Trafficking includes: to sell, send, deliver, distribute, transport, give or administer drugs.

maybe i shld just start on the practical assignments. ):

2004-11-24T01:27:00.000+08:00

[[music playing: if i am by nine days]]

Uno, dos, tres, catorce
(Turn it up loud, captain)

Lights go down
It's dark, the jungle is
Your head can't rule your heart
I'm feeling so much stronger
Than I thought
Your eyes are wide
And though your soul
It can't be bought
Your mind can wander

Hello, hello (¡Hola!)
I'm at a place called Vertigo (¿Dónde está?)
It's everything I wish I didn't know
Except you give me something
I can feel, feel

The night is full of holes
These bullets rip the sky
Of ink with gold
They twinkle as the boys
Play rock and roll
They know that they can't dance
At least they know

I can't stand the beats
I'm asking for the check
The girl with crimson nails
Has Jesus around her neck
Swinging to the music
Swinging to the music

Hello, hello (¡Hola!)
I'm at a place called Vertigo (¿Dónde está?)
It's everything I wish I didn't know
But you give me something
I can feel, feel

(Checking it)
(Shadows fall)
(She'll make it)

All this, all of this can be yours
All of this, all of this can be yours
All this, all of this can be yours
Just give me what I want
And no one gets hurt

Hello, hello (¡Hola!)
We're at a place called Vertigo (¿Dónde está?)
Lights go down, and all I know
Is that you give me something
I can feel your love teaching me how
Your love is teaching me how
How to kneel, kneel

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
vertigo by U2

I LURVE AUD MA'AM!!! for tagging so many times :D hahas
hey! how could you refuse to tag??!

may may ma'am: hey how could you go anti-cara?? sobs. hahas.. yayy you agree ((: ah wells everyone has their own idol. i think sly should go to the chinese industry. he'll prob get laughed at for his diction if he sings eng songs or something... but imagine if like world idol, den hes like speaking weirdly. den pple will be thinking how come singaporeans cant speak english... ah wells.
nicole: hey nicole.. HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!! -pulls a christmas cracker-
rachel: yayy i knew you'd love me :D HAH. okok fine. sylvester rocks. to you. hahahs..

joel madden broke my heart.
and probably the hearts of many other fans out there.

i have made some changes in the lineup of my erms faves.
joel is currently standing at the 3rd position of my 'fav gc member' list. billy and paul are tied at second place. chris is at the last place. benji is number one.
it's kinda good though, benji looks like joel. and benji is more talented than joel [he plays the guitar and sings]. and apparently he likes to people-watch [if i didnt remember wrongly], and i like to people-watch too. and most importantly, benji has GOOD TASTE. okay, BETTER taste than joel.
the maddens are still my number one favourite twins while marykate and ashley olsen are still my number one most hated twins.

finished the SANA course.
):
first day was boring. second day was better. shorter. less sitting down and copying notes kind.
but i think the instructor's pretty nice. the really tall one with specs. and one of the other instructor was super fierce. he was so mean. he was like, in a booming voice, "those who studied for the test raise up your hands". den we all raised up. den he asked us to close our eyes. den "those who didnt study. own up." den erms, i peeked a little and i couldnt see anyone raising their hands. den he said "those who flipped thru the coursebook only". den after that "those who think that you are very intelligent." den "those who are humble" den he said "i have good news and bad news". so we heard the bad news first. den he said "all of you... passed the test."
den there was silence for erms, a few minutes.
den everybody went "chey" and started talking.
like wols?
bleargh. den the top scorers, this girl and this guy, the one who was in the RI drama for talentime last year. the one who looks like allan wu. heck, hes surname is like wu/woo. btw, they were the top scorers. and the girl, like what all girls normally do, burst into tears. because earlier on the other instructor told her that she had failed and he retested her. hahas.
ohbtw, i passed. hahahaha. at first try. some pple retested.
after studying for ONE HOUR. xuewen/jodie [cant remember who] studied for like, FOUR HOURS. hahahs. im mean (;
hahahs.. cuz the test was rather easy lar. except the effects of the drugs cuz i didnt study that part.
ok. a very detailed narration about what happened yesterday and today. [sit tight guys, it's gonna be a bumpy ride! okay im lame.]

yesterday.
met them at 8.30am. course started at 9plus. was seated inside hawpar memorial hall. it was stuffy. the aircon near us was not working. and the spotlights were directly above. so damn hot. and nicely enough, there were some tall pple [fine, they werent that tall] in front. so had difficulty seeing. changed place with huangzi. unluckily enough, there was an empty seat next to me. den the instructor asked this guy frm RI to like sit next to me. bigfoot. hahas. ok, not that im sexist. but that guy keeps sticking his feet into my side. and it's very hard to write without seeing his stupid foot stuck in your face. bleargh. tried to stick my feet into him as revenge. but cant due to the fact that i dont have bigfeet [as elizabeth frm rc can so readily testify. she said that my feet were very small!! hrmph.] got irritated by my stupid track pants. it's like very short. bleargh but if i buy a bigger size den i'll look bloated up. well, listened to the talk. digressed a little. oh yes, and we started a anti-thepersoninfrontofjodie club. she was... bimbotic. cant stand her. even huangzi doesnt like her. and huangzi is about the most peace-loving and nice person i know, apart from me [HAH!]. well anyway, lunch came. yay. walked to ps. ate at BK. bought orange juice and it tasted DISGUSTING. but no one would believe me. hrrmph. but in the end, the person came up to me and said sorry cuz the orange juice machine spoiled [den they finally believed me. hrmph] den wanted to give me something else. so i took mineral water. jodie said i shld have taken something more ex. whats the point if i dont want to drink it? but anyway, how could dey be so irresponsible???!! i could have DIED!! the lady should have told me that the machine was spoilt earlier on!! abish. xuewen was slow as usual. when suelin said small gas. she was like.. dennng. before i explained to her that small gas was a direct translation frm chinese. xiaoqi which means petty. den we were all like sighh xuewen is so dumb. :p den we walked back. we were late. everyone else was late too. "a queen is never late. she arrives precisely when she wants to. everyone else is just early" hahahas.. frm princess diaries 2. well anyway, continued with the boring thing. oooh.. LALALALALALALA -meaningful look at xuewen- hahahs.. shant tell you (; anyways, den the day went on and we were assigned to groups. got splitted up. good thing was bigfoot was not in my group. bad thing was neither was xuewen,jodie, huangzi or suelin. im shy you see. HAHAHA. the truth is, im anti-social. :D our group was all girls group hahas.. number9 (: well we discussed a little. and i still havent gotten our group leader's name. actually i dont remember any of their names. except for kelly. because i was staring at her name tag. ah wells. so we were dismissed very late. den i rushed to dhoby gaut. met gloria aka glory puff aka sly puff. PEOPLE, GLORIA CUT HER HAIR AND SHE LOOKS LIKE SYLVESTER NOW!!! hahahaha.. you shld see the photo in her mother's handphone. like, she did the sly pose and it was... hahahha.. well anyway, rushed into this packed train. met minqi ma'am, stephanie ma'am and vivian ma'am there. waited for siewjing ma'am. den we walked there. reached sinnee ma'am, sinwen ma'am and sinlin's hse. okay, maybe i shld just say erms, the yak family's hse?? oh yahs, you know their home phone number. i dunno whether to save it as 'sinwen ma'am' or 'sinlin'. in the end i just put the yak family. oh wells.. im lame. anyway, we were really paranoid. cuz icouldnt get wet. so i was so scared that i walk den pple will like throw me into the pool. ah wells. ate a little. den sat there and gloria and my legs become a feast for mosquitoes. went upstairs to escape stupid mosquitoes. was scratching away. gloria started attacking me with her new and improved mother's handphone. bleargh. and started filming me looking stupid. bleargh. den sooling ma'am, eunice ma'am and huibing ma'am were in the hse. so huibing ma'am was sleeping. den sooling ma'am, eunice ma'am, gloria and i played the game of life!! hahas.. i like the game (: so fun. we played two rounds. first round we stopped halfway cuz we realised that we played wrongly after erms, oh dear, is it sihao? or sinhao?? told us. yeahs. i retired poor. ): ya know so funny. sooling ma'am drew this salary card. $90 000. den eunice ma'am reached this place where it says, trade salary card with another player. den she traded. so poor sooling ma'am started moaning about how she become the person with the lowest salary $30 000. den gloria changed with eunice ma'am. den with some stroke of luck, i changed with gloria. and before i was done rejoicing, eunice ma'am reached another trade salary card place and i had to trade with her!! hello, i havent collected any $90 000 pay before i was downgraded to $20 000. -pouts- well anyway, it was all very funny. gloria was laughing awayy. den we finished the game. and while waiting for eunice ma'am to bring some food up [i was hungry.. heehee], gloria, like always, started treating everyone as her joke book and wanted us to tell her jokes. sighx. sihao told us this running nose joke which was super lame. hahahs.. den we ate and ate and talked and talked lar. oh, and the ex-ncos were soo kind!!! hahas.. XUEWEN, I COMPLETED ALL THE TEN TRANSFER AGENT QUESTIONAIRE!!! hahahas.. im evil :D the ex-ncos helped me fill up (: hahas.. sooling ma'am put her bro and sis's names inside and i was trying to write for her bro. hahas.. and anyhow sign. heehee. den yahs got maluated. den went home. reached home at 10 plus. by the time i bathed finish and blah blah blah, it was like 11.45. went online. heehee.. im naughty. den studied for the test. 12.45. couldnt be bothered anymore. went to sleep.

today.
got woken up by suelin's call. the handphone was like vibrating away. bleargh. den went there. met my groupmembers. read the script. it was really short. i was the lady who gave the pple drugs. oh yeahs, our play was quite corny. guess who our lead characters were, sly and tweety. like... erms... hahahs.. so anyway, i got like, the third most number of lines. my lines are "eh, girls, wanna try this?" "this is called Apple" "Aiyah, you look so stressed. dont you know that an apple a day keeps the doctor away??" hahahas.. ah wells.. oh btw, incase you didnt know, apple is another name for ecstasy aka methylenedioxymethamphetamine. HAH! see im so knowledgeable :D -smirks- well anyway, den we had the test. and i was stuffed at the back. at first i thought it was nice, cuz there was a desk beside me. den they asked me to move. den in the end, we sat on the floor and used our chairs as the desk. and i was sitting directly on a spot of sunlight. bleargh. den i was near the side. so this orange-coloured teeshirt instructor, who looked like 17 despite the fact that jodie keeps insisting that he looks like 19, kept walking up and down and i had to keep shifting so that he could pass. distracting. den i fell asleep after finishing the test. woke up. den we did role play. it was boring. and group number 4 [the bimbo group] made us sit thru their play two times. urgggh. den the instructors talked abit. den he said that we cannot together dismiss cuz it'll be very crowded. so he made all the group i/cs go up and play scissors paper stone. after a while, we couldnt be bothered. so we just left before our group i/c won the game. hahas.. and it was pouring like mad. none of us had an umbrella. so we just ran in the rain. xuewen, huangzi and i. three idiots splashing about. ah wells. was drenched. and my notes were like wet. to my horror, rememberd the transfer agent questionaire. rescued it and stuffed it in my bag which was quite wet. and my foolscap paper is like.. ewww.. wet and gross. and went to mrt. shivered all the way home. oh yes, watched alias just now. it was so nice!! missed the first fifteen minutes because i was sleeping. but anyway, sydney escaped. yayy. cant make up my mind whether the erms, sloane?? guy is good. watched csi. the case was unsolved. but it was nice. seriously im supposed to have watched this season alr. but strangely enough, i dont remember watching some of the episodes, like the one where oliver frm the oc acted in. but some i remember watching, like the chad micheal murray one [i watched it b4 i saw him in freaky friday.. hahas so didnt know who he was] and the abra cadabra thingy.

-yawns-
i wanna go sleep now.
chao.

2004-11-20T23:16:00.000+08:00

it's sad to know that so many people hate rc.
which goes to show how terrible a senior i have been.

2004-11-20T22:34:00.000+08:00

I KNEW IT. I KNEW IT WOULD HAPPEN!!! URGGH!!!

i dont care. im keeping doodleboard for a few days. hrrmph.

sonia: hahas yah, i know. okay fine, ryan rocks lar. just that he has bad taste.
aud ma'am: hellos congrats!! :D hahas.. oh, are you going for the party at sinlin's hse?
xuewen: eeks! doodleboard doesnt like you too!! hahas.. okay sorry that was really lame. nvm if you dont get it. [you never do get it, do you?] HAH. okay im super mean. nvm. all because of you and your straws. RAWR.
grace: i dont care. you tell your friend. im not going to tag him!! well anyways, you are supposed to buy sixational den i buy teenidol okayy. LOATHE YOU. haahs [you're supposed to say "i loathe you first"]
rachel: hello rachel... yeahs, okay, ryan rocks. i lurvve anabel!! can she get one for me too??? anyway, UNFAIR. how come she gives you encore and doesnt give me??!! im nicer than you :D hahas..

im lame. super lame today.
LAMMMEEEEE!!!

blah.

im talking crap.

ROCK IS WHAT WE'RE ALL ABOUT IT'S WHAT WE LIVE FOR WE WANNA SHOUT IT OUT

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee i am addicted to this song. yes, its the song where i did the stupid dance to. sadly, infront of engxuewen, and fortunately, infront of no one else so at least i didnt malu myself that badly -hides face-
hahas.. but i like this song!! they were playing it in the redcross room :D

*WARNING: this part of the entry is very anti-sylvestersim and you cant blame me for it, because this is what i think.

well, anyway, i am pissed. seriously pissed. severely pissed. VERY PISSED. i feel a great sense of unjust for olinda.
WHYY???!!!

she can sing okay. theres no denying that fact. i think she is a wonderful performer. okay, minus the fact that i dont like the way she keeps wearing those low-cut tees, i like her. and i think that it is totally unfair the way she was kicked out of singapore idol because sylvester the prettyboy had so many fans who are deaf.
taufik getting into the finals was totally expected. because i mean, as florence lian said, he has improved alot and hey, he IS talented.
and how about sylvester? okay, he was good at the wildcard. and for some of the spectacular episodes, he was not bad. except the one where he ruined one of my fav songs, Hounddog. but den his performances got worser and worser.
to all those who voted for sly: did you watch the performance on thurs???!! if you did, i dont understand how you could vote for him. olinda was good. taufik was good. sylvester was... -faints- i had to change channel because i just couldnt stand his constipated singing. it was TERRIBLE. even jerry sounds better than him.
hes just like another jerry. taking up space and forcing the ones with the real talent, olinda and jeassea,to get kicked out. heck, at least i pity jerry and admire him for his perseverance [except for the whole christian thing, but den again, i AM anti-christian]. but sly?? i kinda hate him right now. he doesnt deserve to be in the finals.
the whole rock thing?? crap.
ya know that performance where he sang aerosmith's dont wanna miss a thing?? the part where he went "YOWL!" that screech was horrible. and i dont understand why pple like it so much.
pOSer.

he reminds me of F4. cant sing. cant act. but somehow or other, four pretty boys, whom my baby cousin mistook as girls when he saw them on a mag cover, manage to get so popular. what is the world coming to.
imagine sylvester on the world idol stage. faints. a BENG. representing singapore. a rockstar-wannabe ahbeng. so thats how singapore will be seen. i mean, its quite sad that some foreigners only know singapore as the red dot on the map, or the nochewinggum country, or the country thats part of china, or the michaelfay thing or the country with a lot of fines.
i'll be seriously ashamed of singapore if sylvester sim ever becomes singapore idol.

pPLE, for goodness sake!! please do not let sylvester sim become the singapore idol!! for those who vote for him, imagine if this bunch of pple take part in some presidential elections. the country will prob go to the pits.

check out lorraine's diary on the entry about singapore idol.

anyway, the whole purpose of this is to say: sylvester sim is a pile of shit.

VOTE FOR TAUFIK!!

and i hate all those screaming bimbos.

i'd probably have an anti-cara club by the time you finish reading this entry.

2004-11-18T23:47:00.000+08:00

I walk a lonely road
The only one I that have ever known
Don't know were it goes
But its home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Till then I walk alone

Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh
Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line of the edge
And were I walk alone

Read between the lines of what's
Fucked up and every things all right
Check my vital signs to know I'm still alive
And I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Till then I walk alone

Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh
Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah

I walk alone
I walk a...

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of broken dreams
Were the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a..

My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Till then I'll walk alone!
boulevard of broken dreams by green day

who can live without it? i ask in all honesty. what would life be, without a song or a dance what are we?

kept singing the chorus over and over again today. hahas.

tagboard's screwed again. AARRGHHHH!!

well, anyways, im pissed off. blah. i feel cheated. they said there was revealing tmr. but den xuewen just told me a few hours ago that it's postponed!!!! -curses- and i had to like, walk around the whole of suntec till my ankle hurts like shit to find presents. bleargh.

now you're rich and now you're famous, fake ass girls all know your name and...

well, anyway, singapore idol was boring.
okay, i will shutup.

LIFESTYLES of the rich and famous, you're first hit arent you ashamed...

oc was good though. it was... so sad and nice.. okay maybe minus the parts where marissa was smooching ryan, and the part where marissa looked as though she was going to do a janetjackson [flash her boobs], but anyways.. it was so... sad. like luke is so poor thing. and i hate hate hate marissa's mother. and i hate the man shes going to marry. he was like blackmailing marissa!! oh and i dont really like ryan too now. oh and seth and summer were quite sweet lar. i mean, the whole painting the room thing. oh and the hardware store part was funny. hahas.

of the life, of the life, of the life we're livin. i just wanna live....

oh, they changed the whole meeting schedule. so lesser times to go back... i dunno lars.. no comment.
actually i have. but i shall keep them private.

_the original paragraph here has been censored_

i have a boring blog.
i have a boring life.
i am a very boring person.

2004-11-17T22:47:00.000+08:00

the new jayZ/linkin park album is called collision course.
okay, my spelling sucks.

2004-11-17T22:41:00.000+08:00

[[music playing: thank you for the music by abba]]

I see trees of green, red roses too
I see them bloom for me and you
And I think to myself, what a wonderful world

I see skies of blue and clouds of white
The bright blessed day and the dark sacred night
And I think to myself, what a wonderful world

The colours of the rainbow, so pretty in the sky
Are also on the faces of people going by
I see friends shakin' hands, sayin' "How do you do?"
They're really saying "I love you"

I hear babies cryin', I watch them grow
They'll learn much more than I'll ever know
And I think to myself, what a wonderful world

The colours of the rainbow, so pretty in the sky
Are also on the faces of people going by
I see friends shakin' hands, sayin' "How do you do?"
They're really saying "I love you"

I hear my babies cryin', I watch them grow
They'll learn much more than I'll ever ever know
And I think to myself, it's a wonderful world
I think to myself, what a wonderful world
What a wonderful world
And I think to myself, what a wonderful world
what a wonderful world by rod steward/t [??]

*i think this song was in the Bowling for Columbine

damn. tagboard is screwed.

i went swimming today. finallyy. YAYY.

we had another of those boringg meetings today. huizyi didnt come and i dunno if the script is with her. -dies-

chris is piper and leo's son!! woohOO!! ya know at first i thought that chris was erms, wyatt. hahas.. but in the end... hes their second son!! cooL. chris should cut his hair.

revealing on friday. i havent bought a single stuff. and i have like, four letters to reply. i am so guilty ):

grace/ her friend lent me/her the sum41cds. :D the half an hour of power and does this look infected?? havent listened because im still stuck at my gc album. hahas.. shall go burn them. ((: i think her friend rocks. ive been to his blog. but i cant really see it properly because my com's screwed. urgh. im pissified. well anyway, theres the playlist.. not many songs lar.. and [probably becuz of my ancient com again] the song keeps getting cut into half. i was listening to same direction by hoobstank halfway den blah. decided to forget it. and apparently her friend is a gc fan so yayyy.. i love her friend. okay, not really.

lalalalalalalalalalala i wonder why im blogging. theres just nothing to blog about anyways.

damn.

oh, we made a list of erms, actors/actresses/singers [mostly guys lar..] according to like alphabetical order. yes, stupid i know. ah wells. dun understand why so many pple like Chris Pine. or whatever his name is. no grace, you cant throttle me. im sitting safely behind a computer screen.
damn, im so lame.

damn. sorry i am currently fascinated with the word damn.

DAMNNNNNN.

im mad. like bonkers kinda mad.

singapore idol tmr. -at this point of time, mouth automatically zips up and fingers go into spasm-
i shall not say anything.
i shall not say anything.
i shall not type anything.
i shall not comment anything.

oh yes, the champion ending. yesterday or today. i missed the today one. so dunno who the kaiwei guy going with. im hoping that he goes with yixuan. den jingwen will be sad. den zhenkang will come and console her. den meanwhile, jamie yeo falls in love with this super shuai sailor or something like that. whatever just get her away. den jingwen will realise that she actually has feelings for zhenkang, just that she channelled all of them to kaiwei [temporarily] so in the end jingwen and zhenkang will end up together. _kiss_
yayyy happy ending!!
thats the ending i will give it if i was the producer or director.
which clearly explains why im not the producer or director.

im horny im horny horny horny.
sorry. this came frm a very corny song about being horny sung by some mousy person i think.

oh yes! alias!!! sydney got arrested!! blah. i dun like micheal vaghn [damn i dunno how to spell]'s wife!! blaaaaahhh. oh i realised why she looked so familar. and how i somehow knew her name was called Melissa George. because im psychic!!
not really. because i saw her in charmed before. she was acting as one of those pple wearing leaves in the ultra dumb first episode of the new charmed season.
well anyways, she got arrested!!! blearrgh. and dickson had to step down. damn.

and csi was nice. i watched that episode before. but i still watched it again. HAH.

the oc tmr. yayy. i hate marissa.

everybody sing this song doodah doodah everybody sing this song all the doodah day...

2004-11-14T16:19:00.000+08:00

[[music playing in my head: my prerogative by britney spears and bobby brown or however you spell it]]

- will reply tags later

BOOK SURVEY
[ripped off hsh's blog]

*bold those you've read
*italicise started-but-never-finished
*underline those you own but haven't gotten to yet
*colour those you want to read but don't have the book

1. The Lord of the Rings, JRR Tolkien
2. Pride and Prejudice, Jane Austen
3. His Dark Materials, Philip Pullman
4. The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy, Douglas Adams
5. Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire, JK Rowling
6. To Kill a Mockingbird, Harper Lee
7. Winnie the Pooh, AA Milne
8. 1984, George Orwell
9. The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe, CS Lewis
10. Jane Eyre, Charlotte Bront
11. Catch-22, Joseph Heller
12. Wuthering Heights, Emily Bronte
13. Birdsong, Sebastian Faulks
14. Rebecca, Daphne du Maurier
15. The Catcher in the Rye, JD Salinger
16. The Wind in the Willows, Kenneth Grahame
17. Great Expectations, Charles Dickens
18. little Women, Louisa May Alcott
19. Captain Corelli's Mandolin, Louis de Bernieres
20. War and Peace, Leo Tolstoy
21. Gone with the Wind, Margaret Mitchell [well it sounds nice...]
22. Harry Potter And The Sorcerer's/Philosopher's Stone, JK Rowling
23. Harry Potter And The Chamber Of Secrets, JK Rowling
24. Harry Potter And The Prisoner Of Azkaban, JK Rowling
25. The Hobbit, JRR Tolkien
26. Tess Of The D'Urbervilles, Thomas Hardy
27. Middlemarch, George Eliot
28. A Prayer For Owen Meany, John Irving
29. The Grapes Of Wrath, John Steinbeck
30. Alice's Adventures In Wonderland, Lewis Carroll [does the super simplified version count?]
31. The Story Of Tracy Beaker, Jacqueline Wilson
32. One Hundred Years Of Solitude, Gabriel Garcia Marquez
33. The Pillars Of The Earth, Ken Follett
34. David Copperfield, Charles Dickens
35. Charlie And The Chocolate Factory, Roald Dahl [it's deliciously nice]
36. treasure Island, Robert Louis Stevenson
37. A Town Like Alice, Nevil Shute
38. Persuasion, Jane Austen
39. Dune, Frank Herbert
40. Emma, Jane Austen
41. Anne Of Green Gables, LM Montgomery
42. Watership Down, Richard Adams
43. The Great Gatsby, F. Scott Fitzgerald [hate gatsby]
44. The Count Of Monte Cristo, Alexandre Dumas
45. Brideshead Revisited, Evelyn Waugh
46. Animal Farm, George Orwell [its super nice]
47. A Christmas Carol, Charles Dickens
48. Far From The Madding Crowd, Thomas Hardy
49. Goodnight Mister Tom, Michelle Magorian
50. The Shell Seekers, Rosamunde Pilcher
51. The Secret Garden, Frances Hodgson Burnett
52. Of Mice And Men, John Steinbeck [eek i hate it]
53. The Stand, Stephen King
54. Anna Karenina, Leo Tolstoy
55. A Suitable Boy, Vikram Seth
56. The BFG, Roald Dahl
57. Swallows and Amazons, Arthur Ransome
58. Black Beauty, Anna Sewell [surprise surprise.. i read finish the book even though i found it dropdead boring]
59. Artemis Fowl, Eoin Colfer
60. Crime And Punishment, Fyodor Dostoyevsky
61. Noughts And Crosses, Malorie Blackman
62. Memoirs Of A Geisha, Arthur Golden
63. A Tale Of Two Cities, Charles Dickens
64. The Thorn Birds, Colleen McCollough
65. Mort, Terry Pratchett
66. The Magic Faraway Tree, Enid Blyton [wheee i think this book is nice]
67. The Magus, John Fowles
68. Good Omens, Terry Pratchett and Neil Gaiman
69. Guards! Guards!, Terry Pratchett
70. Lord of the Flies, William Golding
71. Perfume, Patrick Susskind
72. The Ragged Trousered Philanthropists, Robert Tressell
73. Night Watch, Terry Pratchett
74. Matilda, Roald Dahl
75. Bridget Jones's Diary, Helen Fielding
76. The Secret History, Donna Tartt
77. The Woman in White, Wilkie Collins
78. Ulysses, James Joyce
79. Bleak House, Charles Dickens
80. Double Act, Jacqueline Wilson
81. The Twits, Roald Dahl
82. I Capture The Castle, Dodie Smith
83. Holes, Louis Sachar
84. Gormenghast, Mervyn Peake
85. The God Of Small Things, Arundhati Roy
86. Vicky Angel, Jacqueline Wilson
87. Brave New World, Aldous Huxley
88. Cold Comfort Farm, Stella Gibbons
89. Magician, Raymond E Feist
90. On The Road, Jack Kerouac
91. The Godfather, Mario Puzo
92. The Clan Of The Cave Bear, Jean M. Auel
93. The Colour Of Magic, Terry Pratchett
94. The Alchemist, Paulo Coelho
95. Katherine, Anya Seton
96. Kane And Abel, Jeffrey Archer
97. Love In The Time Of Cholera, Gabriel Garcia Marquez
98. Girls In Love, Jacqueline Wilson
99. The Princess Diaries, Meg Cabot
100. Midnight's Children, Salman Rushdie1
01. Three Men In A Boat, Jerome K. Jerome
102. Small Gods, Terry Pratchett
103. The Beach, Alex Garland
104. Dracula, Bram Stoker [i watched the movie though.. the one starring winona ryder, anthony hopkins and keanu reeves]
105. Point Blanc, Anthony Horowitz [i LURVEE alex rider!!]
106. The Pickwick Papers, Charles Dickens
107. Stormbreaker, Anthony Horowitz [somebody lend me this.. pretty please?]
108. The Wasp Factory, Iain Banks
109. The Day Of The Jackal, Frederick Forsyth
110. The Illustrated Mum, Jacqueline Wilson
111. Jude the Obscure, Thomas Hardy
112. The Secret Diary Of Adrian Mole Aged 13 3/4, Sue Townsend
113. The Cruel Sea, Nicholas Monsarrat
114. Les Miserables, Victor Hugo
115. The Mayor Of Casterbridge, Thomas Hardy
116. The Dare Game, Jacqueline Wilson
117. Bad Girls, Jacqueline Wilson
118. The Picture Of Dorian Gray, Oscar Wilde
119. Shogun, James Clavell
120. The Day Of The Triffids, John Wyndham
121. Lola Rose, Jacqueline Wilson
122. Vanity Fair, William Makepeace Thackeray [well, it seems nice..]
123. The Forsyte Saga, John Galsworthy
124. House of Leaves, Mark Z. Danielewski
125. The Poisonwood Bible, Barbara Kingsolver
126. Reaper Man, Terry Pratchett
127. Angus, Thongs And Full-Frontal Snogging, Louise Rennison
128. The Hound Of The Baskervilles, Arthur Conan Doyle
129. Possession, A. S. Byatt
130. The Master And Margarita, Mikhail Bulgakov
131. The Handmaid's Tale, Margaret Atwood
132. Danny The Champion Of The World, Roald Dahl
133. East Of Eden, John Steinbeck
134. George's Marvellous Medicine, Roald Dahl
135. Wyrd Sisters, Terry Pratchett
136. The Color Purple, Alice Walker
137. Hogfather, Terry Pratchett
138. The Thirty-Nine Steps, John Buchan
139. Girls In Tears, Jacqueline Wilson
140. Sleepovers, Jacqueline Wilson
141. All Quiet On The Western Front, Erich Maria Remarque
142. Behind The Scenes At The Museum, Kate Atkinson
143. High Fidelity, Nick Hornby
144. It, Stephen King
145. James And The Giant Peach, Roald Dahl
146. The Green Mile, Stephen King
147. Papillon, Henri Charriere
148. Men At Arms, Terry Pratchett
149. Master And Commander, Patrick O'Brian
150. Skeleton Key, Anthony Horowitz [gloria!! lend me!!]
151. Soul Music, Terry Pratchett
152. Thief Of Time, Terry Pratchett
153. The Fifth Elephant, Terry Pratchett
154. Atonement, Ian McEwan
155. Secrets, Jacqueline Wilson
156. The Silver Sword, Ian Serraillier [its so sad..]
157. One Flew Over The Cuckoo's Nest, Ken Kesey
158. Heart of Darkness, Joseph Conrad
159. Kim, Rudyard Kipling
160. Cross Stitch, Diana Gabaldon
161. Moby Dick, Herman Melville
162. River God, Wilbur Smith
163. Sunset Song, Lewis Grassic Gibbon
164. The Shipping News, Annie Proulx1
65. The World According To Garp, John Irving
166. Lorna Doone, R. D. Blackmore1
67. Girls Out Late, Jacqueline Wilson
168. The Far Pavilions, M. M. Kaye
169. The Witches, Roald Dahl
170. Charlotte's Web, E. B. White
171. Frankenstein, Mary Shelley
172. They Used To Play On Grass, Terry Venables and Gordon Williams
173. The Old Man And The Sea, Ernest Hemingway
174. The Name Of The Rose, Umberto Eco
175. Sophie's World, Jostein Gaarder
176. Dustbin Baby, Jacqueline Wilson
177. Fantastic Mr. Fox, Roald Dahl
178. Lolita, Vladimir Nabokov
179. Jonathan Livingstone Seagull, Richard Bach
180. The Little Prince, Antoine De Saint-Exupery [crystal said it's boring..]
181. The Suitcase Kid, Jacqueline Wilson
182. Oliver Twist, Charles Dickens
183. The Power Of One, Bryce Courtenay
184. Silas Marner, George Eliot
185. American Psycho, Bret Easton Ellis
186. The Diary Of A Nobody, George and Weedon Gross-mith
187. Trainspotting, Irvine Welsh
188. Goosebumps, R. L. Stine
189. heidi, Johanna Spyri [probably simplified too]
190. Sons And Lovers, D. H. Lawrence
191. The Unbearable Lightness of Being, Milan Kundera
192. Man And Boy, Tony Parsons
193. The Truth, Terry Pratchett
194. The War Of The Worlds, H. G. Wells
195. The Horse Whisperer, Nicholas Evans
196. A Fine Balance, Rohinton Mistry
197. Witches Abroad, Terry Pratchett
198. The Once And Future King, T. H. White
199. the Very Hungry Caterpillar, Eric Carle
200. Flowers In The Attic, Virginia Andrews
201. The Simarillion, J.R.R. Tolkien
202. The Eye of the World, Robert Jordan
203. The Great Hunt, Robert Jordan
204. The Dragon Reborn, Robert Jordan
205. Fires of Heaven, Robert Jordan
206. Lord of Chaos, Robert Jordan
207. Winter's Heart, Robert Jordan
208. A Crown of Swords, Robert Jordan
209. Crossroads of Twilight, Robert Jordan
210. A Path of Daggers, Robert Jordan
211. As Nature Made Him, John Colapinto
212. Microserfs, Douglas Coupland
213. The Married Man, Edmund White
214. Winter's Tale, Mark Helprin
215. The History of Sexuality, Michel Foucault
216. Cry to Heaven, Anne Rice
217. Same-Sex Unions in Premodern Europe, John Boswell
218. Equus, Peter Shaffer
219. The Man Who Ate Everything, Jeffrey Steingarten
220. Letters To A Young Poet, Rainer Maria Rilke
221. Ella Minnow Pea, Mark Dunn
222. The Vampire Lestat, Anne Rice
223. Anthem, Ayn Rand
224. The Bridge To Terabithia, Katherine Paterson
225. Tartuffe, Moliere
226. The Metamorphosis, Franz Kafk
227. The Crucible, Arthur Miller
228. The Trial, Franz Kafka
229. Oedipus Rex, Sophocles
230. Oedipus at Colonus, Sophocles
231. Death Be Not Proud, John Gunther
232. A Doll's House, Henrik Ibsen
233. Hedda Gabler, Henrik Ibsen
234. Ethan Frome, Edith Wharton
235. A Raisin In The Sun, Lorraine Hansberry
236. ALIVE!, Piers Paul Read
237. Grapefruit, Yoko Ono
238. Trickster Makes This World, Lewis Hyde
240. The Mists of Avalon, Marion Zimmer Bradley
241. Chronicles of Thomas Convenant, Unbeliever, Stephen Donaldson
242. Lord of Light, Roger Zelazny
242. The Amazing Adventures of Kavalier & Clay, Michael Chabon
243. Summerland, Michael Chabon
244. A Confederacy of Dunces, John Kennedy Toole
245. Candide, Voltaire
246. The Wonderful Story of Henry Sugar and Six More, Roald Dahl
247. Ringworld, Larry Niven
248. The King Must Die, Mary Renault
249. Stranger in a Strange Land, Robert Heinlein
250. A Wrinkle in Time, Madeline L'Engle
251. The Eyre Affair, Jasper Fforde
252. The House Of The Seven Gables, Nathaniel Hawthorne
253. The Scarlet Letter, Nathaniel Hawthorne
254. The Joy Luck Club, Amy Tan
255. The Great Gilly Hopkins, Katherine Paterson
256. Chocolate Fever, Robert Kimmel Smith
257. Xanth: The Quest for Magic, Piers Anthony
258. The Lost Princess of Oz, L. Frank Baum
259. Wonder Boys, Michael Chabon
260. Lost In A Good Book, Jasper Fforde
261. Well Of Lost Plots, Jasper Fforde
261. Life Of Pi, Yann Martel
263. The Bean Trees, Barbara Kingsolver
264. A Yellow Rraft In Blue Water, Michael Dorris
265. Little House on the Prairie, Laura Ingalls Wilder
267. Where The Red Fern Grows, Wilson Rawls
268. Griffin & Sabine, Nick Bantock
269. Witch of Black Bird Pond, Joyce Friedland
270. Mrs. Frisby And The Rats Of NIMH, Robert C. O'Brien
271. Tuck Everlasting, Natalie Babbitt
272. The Cay, Theodore Taylor
273. From The Mixed-Up Files Of Mrs. Basil E. Frankweiler, E.L. Konigsburg
274. The Phantom Tollbooth, Norton Juster
275. The Westing Game, Ellen Raskin
276. The Kitchen God's Wife, Amy Tan
277. The Bone Setter's Daughter, Amy Tan
278. Relic, Duglas Preston & Lincolon Child
279. Wicked, Gregory Maguire
280. American Gods, Neil Gaiman
281. Misty of Chincoteague, Marguerite Henry
282. The Girl Next Door, Jack Ketchum
283. Haunted, Judith St. George
284. Singularity, William Sleator
285. A Short History of Nearly Everything, Bill Bryson
286. Different Seasons, Stephen King
287. Fight Club, Chuck Palahniuk
288. About a Boy, Nick Hornby
289. The Bookman's Wake, John Dunning
290. The Church of Dead Girls, Stephen Dobyns
291. Illusions, Richard Bach
292. Magic's Pawn, Mercedes Lackey
293. Magic's Promise, Mercedes Lackey
294. Magic's Price, Mercedes Lackey
295. The Dancing Wu Li Masters, Gary Zukav
296. Spirits of Flux and Anchor, Jack L. Chalker
297. Interview with the Vampire, Anne Rice
298. The Encyclopedia of Unusual Sex Practices, Brenda Love2
99. Infinite Jest, David Foster Wallace
300. The Bluest Eye, Toni Morrison
301. The Cider House Rules, John Irving
302. Ender's Game, Orson Scott Card
303. Girlfriend in a Coma, Douglas Coupland
304. The Lion's Game, Nelson Demille
305. The Sun, The Moon, and the Stars, Stephen Brust
306. Cyteen, C. J. Cherryh
307. Foucault's Pendulum, Umberto Eco
308. Cryptonomicon, Neal Stephenson
309. Invisible Monsters, Chuck Palahniuk
310. Camber of Culdi, Kathryn Kurtz
311. The Fountainhead, Ayn Rand
312. War and Remembrance, Herman Wouk
313. The Art of War, Sun Tzu [oh man..]
314. The Giver, Lois Lowry
315. The Telling, Ursula Le Guin
316. Xenogenesis (or Lilith's Brood), Octavia Butler
317. A Civil Campaign, Lois McMaster Bujold
318. The Curse of Chalion, Lois McMaster Bujold
319. The Aeneid, Publius Vergilius Maro (Virgil)
320. Hanta Yo, Ruth Beebe Hill
321. The Princess Bride, S. Morgenstern/William Goldman
322. Beowulf, Anonymous
323. The Sparrow, Maria Doria Russell
324. Deerskin, Robin McKinley
325. Dragonsong, Anne McCaffrey
326. Passage, Connie Willis
327. Otherland, Tad Williams
328. Tigana, Guy Gavriel Kay
329. Number the Stars, Lois Lowry
330. Beloved, Toni Morrison
331. Lamb: The Gospel According to Biff, Christ's Childhood Pal, Christopher Moore
332. The mysterious disappearance of Leon, I mean Noel, Ellen Raskin
333. Summer Sisters, Judy Blume
334. The Hunchback of Notre Dame, Victor Hugo
335. The Island on Bird Street, Uri Orlev
336. Midnight in the Dollhouse, Marjorie Filley Stover
337. The Miracle Worker, William Gibson
338. The Genesis Code, John Case
339. The Strange Case of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde, Robert Louis Stevensen
340. Paradise Lost, John Milton
341. Phantom, Susan Kay
342. The Mummy or Ramses the Damned, Anne Rice
343. Anno Dracula, Kim Newman
344: The Dresden Files: Grave Peril, Jim Butcher
345: Tokyo Suckerpunch, Issac Adamson
346: The Winter of Magic's Return, Pamela Service
347: The Oddkins, Dean R. Koontz
348. My Name is Asher Lev, Chaim Potok
349. The Last Goodbye, Raymond Chandler
350. At Swim, Two Boys, Jaime O'Neill3
51. Othello, by William Shakespeare
352. The Collected Poems of Dylan Thomas
353. The Collected Poems of William Butler Yeats
354. Sati, Christopher Pike
355. The Inferno, Dante
356. The Apology, Plato
357. The Small Rain, Madeline L'Engle
358. The Man Who Tasted Shapes, Richard E Cytowick
359. 5 Novels, Daniel Pinkwater
360. The Sevenwaters Trilogy, Juliet Marillier
361. Girl with a Pearl Earring, Tracy Chevalier
362. To the Lighthouse, Virginia Woolf
363. Our Town, Thorton Wilder
364. Green Grass Running Water, Thomas King
335. The Interpreter, Suzanne Glass
336. The Moor's Last Sigh, Salman Rushdie
337. The Mother Tongue, Bill Bryson
338. A Passage to India, E.M. Forster
339. The Perks of Being a Wallflower, Stephen Chbosky
340. The Phantom of the Opera, Gaston Leroux
341. Pages for You, Sylvia Brownrigg
342. The Changeover, Margaret Mahy
343. Howl's Moving Castle, Diana Wynne Jones
344. Angels and Demons, Dan Brown
345. Johnny Got His Gun, Dalton Trumbo
346. Shosha, Isaac Bashevis Singer
347. Travels With Charley, John Steinbeck
348. The Diving-bell and the Butterfly by Jean-Dominique Bauby
349. The Lunatic at Large by J. Storer Clouston
350. Time for bed by David Baddiel
351. Barrayar by Lois McMaster Bujold
352. Quite Ugly One Morning by Christopher Brookmyre
353. The Bloody Sun by Marion Zimmer Bradley
354. Sewer, Gas, and Eletric by Matt Ruff
355. Jhereg by Steven Brust
356. So You Want To Be A Wizard by Diane Duane
357. Perdido Street Station, China Mieville
358. The Tenant of Wildfell Hall, Anne Bronte
359. Road-side Dog, Czeslaw Milosz
360. The English Patient, Michael Ondaatje
361. Neuromancer, William Gibson
362. The Epistemology of the Closet, Eve Kosofsky Sedgwick
363. A Canticle for Liebowitz, Walter M. Miller, Jr
364. The Mask of Apollo, Mary Renault
365. The Gunslinger, Stephen King
366. Romeo and Juliet, William Shakespeare
367. Absalom, Absalom, William Faulkner
368. The Sun Also Rises, Ernest Hemingway
369. Dreamhouse, Alison Habens
370. Hyperion, by Dan Simmons
371. Prospero's Children, Jan Siegel
372. Gaudy Night, Dorothy Sayers
373. Guns, Germs, and Steel, Jared Diamond
374. Enchantment, Orson Scott Card
375. Cetaganda, Lois McMaster Bujold
376. Beauty, Sheri S. Tepper
377. The Hour of the Star, Clarice Lispector
378. The Patron Saint of Liars, Ann Patchett
379. Sexing the Cherry, Jeanette Winterson
380. A wizard of Earthsea, Ursula Le'Guin
381. Assassin's Apprentice, Robin Hobb
382. The Axis Trilogy, Sara Douglass
383. Peter Pan, J. M. Barrie [i hate peter pan and wendy]
384. Sabriel, Garth Nix
385. Neverwhere, Neil Gaiman
386. The Silence of the Lambs, Robert Harris [red dragon was nice (: ]
387. The Hot Zone, Richard Preston
388. Night, Elie Wiesel
389. Einstein's Dreams, Alan Lightman
390. The Big Sleep, Raymond Chandler
391. Finnegans Wake, James Joyce
392. Buddenbrooks, Thomas Mann
393. The Brothers Karamazov, Fyodor Dostoevsky
394. The Last Voyage of Somebody the Sailor, John Barth
395. Beloved, Toni Morrison
396. Madame Bovary, Gustave Flaubert
397. The Lovely Bones, Alice Sebold
398. Something Rotten, Jasper Fforde
399. The Egyptian, Mika Waltari

wheeeee
hahas.. realise i dun have any italics? heex (;

well anyways..
i love reading. yayyys.. just that the books i read are probably not very intellectual.. hahas..
xuewen lent me this witchchild book. it was weird.
and im still looking for the follow up to the groosham grange or something like that.. by anthony horowitz.

yah wells.. im back to being bored. again.

oh btw i just wanna live by gc sounds so.. different. hahas..

im talking randomly.

losing my enthusiasm.. ah wells.. many people lost it liaos.

i went cycling yesterday. my elder cousin's 21st birthday party at east coast chalet. cycled with my other cousin. rented this bike with squeaky brakes. whenever i brake, it'll go SCREECH. and the whole world hears it. and due to my rubbish cycling, i braked a lot of times.. and i almost crashed into somebody.
if anybody went east coast and heard this mad fella screaming her head off while swooshing down a slope. that would be me.
and my baby cousin as usual, was super naughty.

whys mtv always playing the anthem. when are they going to play predictable?

heard the rickdees yesterday. hahas.. im not the only one hooked onto SOmebody told Me. well anyway, they are still talking about the whole ashlee simpson lipsynching thing.

joel and benji rocks. well, so does billy and paul. and the illustrations on the cd sleeve was really cool. done by billy.

oh btw, did ya know that ashlee simpson thanked benji and joel for being so "rad" on her album?? hahas.. benji co-wrote the Harder Everyday song..

oh btw, i realised that i wasnt hallucinating. ya know the Same Direction video by hoobastank. there WAS joel. haahs.. i thought i was so crazy over him, i started seeing him everywhere or something.. but nah, he was really there. because for the Reason vid, they stole this red jewel thingy.. den i think the doug guy [the lead singer or something] got caught. so they auditioned for another lead singer. den there was kanye west, joel madden and chester benington [frm linkin park] hahas.. yups..

oh btw, jayZ and linkin park have a new song together.. Numb/Encore.

and jojo looks funny when she smiles. dunno why..

eminem's Encore is out. saw it yesterday. and stoopid mtv didnt show the Mosh vid. maybe it's banned or something.

somebody wanna buy me Encore?? heehee (;

*wishlist updated

2004-11-12T21:09:00.000+08:00

`in this world it's not our money that's evil. its the one who choose it over life

i finally realised why the one tree hill song sounded so familar...

xuewen: of course hes cute. he takes after me :D
nat: helloos.. skin sounds so.. erms, skinnY? hahas..
may may ma'am: erms, hahahs.. okayyyy

these are the chronicles of life and death and everything between

hello. been busy lately. FINALLY. a breakk from my boring holiday life. well i went to cut my hair on tuesday!!! hahahs.. its much shorter now. even though nobody can notice the difference -scowls- actually it feels super short to me but its below the shoulder lar.
wednesday was boringg..
went out on thurs. woke up at 8am. like the first time during this hols, besides the whole going to school thing lar. hahas... im a pig (: well anyways, i went macs to eat breakfast hahas.. with my baby cousin. he was super naughty. ya know, he put that erms, plastic thingy which contains butter, into his mouth!! so naughty right. and den he almost choked because it got stuck inside and wouldnt come out. and hes whole face turned red. and he puked out mushy hotcakes after his father successfully managed to dig that thingy out. tsk tsk.
den i went to somerset mrt to meet crystal and hp. we watched princess diaries2!!! :D sonia came later. and she passed me my birthday prezzie.. and SONIA RAWKS because she gave me the Chronicles of Life and Death!!! wheeeeeeeee (: hahas.. and we were mostly walking around. nothing much to do. and we ate at pastamania and crystal wanted to puke at the creamy chicken.and hp decorated her leftover food for the waiter to collect.. hahahs. oh i saw clare. i was walking walking den someone shouted "doggie!" den i turned and i saw clare. stoned for a moment before i waved. ah wells.. my reaction is super sloww.
and princess diaries was okayy lar. fine, erms, the nicholas/chris guy was cute lar. i like his eyes (: but hey, andrew rocks too okayy. he is super nice and funny. hahas (: and okayy i shall be nice, that bodyguard was cute too. hahahs.. not the old one. the young one.the one who was screaming into the mike thingy "the eagle is here!" or something like that. hahahahas.. he is super funny lar. and sonia thinks hes cute.. hahahs.. but Micheal!! blahhh.. those movies dont stick to the book one. like ella enchanted. the book is super nice. but the movie sucked. because the whole story line was changed. and what happened to micheal! they are frenz now. bleargh.

yups. and we had meeting today. only huangzi, huizyi and me came. sighx. in the morning it was super weird. cuz i was the only one in the squad. bleargh. well but i thot the whole cheering thing during pt was okay. i mean, huangzi was the only secthree. yahs.. den i reminded sinlin who was the ic, to cheer lar.and the sectwos did.. yayy.. and you could hear natalie and grace tan's squeaky voices frm afar.. hahahs.. (;
we discussed drama.
THE SINISTER AMERICAN GENERAL!!!
hahahah

spore idol here.. gtg.

yayyy!! daphne is OUT!!

finally!

2004-11-08T21:19:00.000+08:00

I don't care if monday's blue
Tuesday's grey and wednesday too
Thursday i don't care about you
It's friday i'm in love
Monday you can fall apart
Tuesday wednesday break my heart
Thursday doesn't even start
It's friday i'm in love

Saturday wait
And sunday always comes too late
But friday never hesitate...

I don't care if monday's black
Tuesday wednesday heart attack
Thursday never looking back
It's friday i'm in love

Monday you can hold your head
Tuesday wednesday stay in bed
Or thursday watch the walls instead
It's friday i'm in love

Saturday wait
And sunday always comes too late
But friday never hesitate...

Dressed up to the eyes
It's a wonderful surprise
To see your shoes and your spirits rise
Throwing out your frown
And just smiling at the sound
And as sleek as a shriek
Spinning round and round
Always take a big bite
It's such a gorgeous sight
To see you eat in the middle of the night
You can never get enough
Enough of this stuff
It's friday
I'm in love
friday i'm in love by the cure

cara feels... like an idiot

blah.

today is a boring day. the teevee is so boring. theres absolutely nothing nice to watch. ive been watching tv since like, 6.. and it's all crap. blah. the double happiness 2 show is totally dumb. like, erms, william hung? some lana fella going out with an angmoh? crap. and seriously, i cant stand the sight of edmund chen/chan whatever his name is. oh and on trl, erms, usher's confessions video retires. like who cares.
oh yesh, guess what. mtv's artist of the month is eminem. and their buzzworthy is good charlotte. like buzzworthy??!! hello???! i mean the previous buzzworthy people were like the rasmus and natasha bedingfield and i mean, they're like.. new.. but good charlotte. buzzworthy??! hello. they deserve more than buzzes. oh whatever. that probably means ill get to see more of their videos. so yayy.

tag tag tags i lurvve 'em

cheryl: ehh.. okayy sorryy.. and toro is okayy lar. but erms, he went to like perm his hair or something?
sonia: yayyy.. i like taufik too!! (:
rachel: hello. i like seth ((: seth rocks (: haha
lorraine: erms, is it sadder than the part where the nana said that she had cancer? cuz guess what, i cried at that part. okay stupid i know.
andrea ma'am: erm, you know.. the starhub one. the official website.
may may ma'am: okayyyy you sound very erm, lusting?? hahas..

i am super bored lar. and i cant spend like too long hours online because my computer just simply refuses to let me.
so im left with... watching teevee, sleeping, reading... baaah. and now my friggin leg is like.. bleargh. -stuffs self into a bottle-
i feel like a bunch of bananas.

sighx. i shall tell you what ive been doing since saturday. okay. saturday night. my auntie came to my hse and informed me that my baby cousin was watching tarzan. so me, being super ultra bored, decided to join in the fun. so i grabbed my pillow and went to my grandma's hse. and the guy in the lift probably thinks im weird like.. erms, this weird looking fella wearing a harry potter tshirt and walking around the void deck with a huge mickey mouse pillow and mismatched slippers. so i watched tarzan. and erms, i bet this is like the first time you heard of someone crying when watching cartoons right. ): cuz the stupid tarzan had to like abandon his gorilla mother. bleargh. i hate tarzan. and halfway watching it, couldnt watch any further.. because i couldnt stand the sight of tarzan and jane. he betrayed his familY because he was lusting after jane!!! and erm, partly because my baby cousin was running around singing the toybox song. you know the "tarzan is handsome tarzan is strong" song. den i came back home and started another lord of the rings marathon. but i didnt finish. i only watched the third one, den half of the first one before i realised it was like 4am. so i went to sleep. den i woke up the next day. had nothing to do. read a book. den decided to continue watching the first one. so i watched. and den my mum bought like potato chips and fried chicken wings [yum] and we started pigging out in front of the teevee. tsk tsk. and erms, after eating, my mom fell asleep. sighx. den i continued watching. den after that i had nothing to do so i went to sleep too. den i woke up and went to kovan with my mom to eat dinner. and halfway thru my nice dinner, gloria had to call me and force me to become i/c cuz she scared the ma'ams were pissed off with her and wanted to let them "cool down". sigh gloria. in the end she became i/c too. mwahahah. its fate. well anywayy den i came back from rc meeting [i plainly refuse to talk about rc meeting.] and fell asleep. den i woke up. and i sat on the sofa stoning. den i turned on the tv and started watching it. and den here i am typing.

haiz.

2004-11-06T13:42:00.000+08:00

cara is ultra super bored. -whines- she feels like going swimming. but theres no one to go with her. and theres this additional problem of the fact that she can't really swim.
cara watches too much of The Champion. actually, she cant stand fiona xie nor toro and she thinks that the plot is quite rubbish actually. cara is just watching to hope that the zhenkang guy will end up with the jingwen girl because she hates that kaiwei guy.

*new layout
*leandra got out!!! long for the day when it's daphne's turn.
*read some oc episodes. SPOILER ALERT!! aseret is getting tnangerp and dlihc might be s'nayr. htes is gniog yawa!!! [decode if you wanna find out]
*read Deception Point. nice.
*read the singapore idol finalists' blog. apparently jeassea is not in singapore right now... oh wells.

as you can see, i am extremely bored!!
eurgh.

2004-11-05T14:32:00.000+08:00

cara feels... devastated

[[music playing: just lose it by em]]

lorraine: thank you (: congrats on yours too.. erms, i know nuts about drums so.. yahs.. but i like the song ((:
rachel: whoopps.. heehee.. sorry lar.. heehee.. oh and did you watch spore idol yesterday?? he sang rock your body which was totally.. erm, unexpected. yeahs..
sonia: oooh.. hahas.. okayy thanks (: yayyy!! i lurve just lose it toO!! hahas.. the video is super funny lar.
grace: whoops sorry. erms, congratulations to se!! heehee.. sorry lar.. (; and erms, about the cereal too.. nobody wanted to bring it for me!! -whines- sorry lar. dun pound me to death.
crystal: WHOOPPS!! aaah. thank you for telling me.. i keep thinking its summer time.. -hides face-

okay. i keep doing and saying the wrong stuff.. and hence i keep saying whoops. oh what the heck. im talking crap.

anyway, we had talentime meeting on wed.
it kinda sucked.
yeahs.
we had pt. run run run den because huizyi and suelin, our ahem loudest, erm, cheerers, werent there.. so when we did the rc cheer, it was, to put it mildly, crap. grace, jodie and i were like trying to say it in the midst of pants [okay, maybe that's only me] den it's like we kept mixing up. and saying the wrong stuff.. in the end we only managed to like accomplish a cheer once. bleah. rubbish right. well and we played poison ball and i kept thinking it was called poison ivy -hides face-, well anyway, we played that and it went.. poof. really weird. cuz erms, kinda like nobody was enthu. oh wells.. and den we played captains ball. and grace tang was soo tall! -whines- but eunice will be proud of me.. hahahs.. well anyways, we played ball. huangzi was good. yeahs. but she couldnt remember who her teammates were. den i, even more blur. bleargh. i kept throwing it to grace tang. dunno why.. but i keep thinking that she was my team member. blah. maybe she did voodoo on me...
well den we strolled to level 4. which was quite bad. sighx. our discipline is like crap. oh wells.. den we went up. discussed abit. i got pissed off with grace. bleargh. den the ma'ams came and broke the terrible news.

it was awful. i felt as though a part of me had died.

nay, not that bad lar. but it was bad. terrible. upsetting.
hq changed the criteria.
so now, the only item our level is involved in is drama. nice huh. so poor me, after all the effort spent on the level song.... sighx. pity sinlin and me. our efforts have gone to waste. ):
so we discussed drama. wanted to this plot. Lamb for Slaughter or something like that. from the roald dahl book. [is this how you spell it huh] well anyways, yahs.. its really really funny. but i dunno how to act it out lar. its so weird. yeahs. but den huizyi wanted her war thingy so its a bunch of great big mess.

we need help from a drama person!! can some drama person come forward and help us abit???!!! plssss.....

and den we had a talk with the ma'ams after besurai [is this how you spell it] oh yesh, and guess what.. i banged my head against jodie's. so dumb right. we were arranging bottles den it's like, CONK.
baah.
den i went home. and slacked all the way. till i watched charmed. it was weird. i think wyatt is so cute. is that how you spell his name. i mean the baby one. not the big old, baddy one. yahs. and chris was cute too lar. but the charmed ones dont believe him. im starting to hate all the charmed ones. and erms, like chris and leo. and wyatt. because leo is so poor thing. i mean, hafta see his wife go out on dates and act as the babysitter. bleargh. i mean, doesnt piper love him anymore??

well den yesterday, i went to watch shark tale!!
it was stupid.
dumb.
but funny. and i think lenny is super cute.. his voice and all.. very very extremely cute. "why did you hit me in the eye? it's all red now" hahas.. oh, and the part where he emerged from the shower thingy as a dolphin. den he went "tada!" hahahaha... that part was super funny. actually, all the parts containing lenny was very funny. he is super cute lar. and the part where he was so sad cuz frankie died. and all. oscar was a jerk. so was lola. and the puffer fish. oh, and reno or something like that.. leno?? the big boss. the godfather. hahaha.. i think hes so poor thing lor. and he got illtreated at the whale wash.
but overall, it wasnt that nice lar.

oh, i read angels and demon liaos!! i spent the whole of wed reading it.after the meeting. hahas.. it is super nice. but i think the davinci code is the nicest. (: i like robert langdon. and i think the ambigrams were really cool. it was designed by this artist called john langdon. i think hes super talentedd. and the whole thing was cool.
but seriously, in all those books and all that.. den the person will keep praying to god and all that stuff. and you dont see god helping him what. blah. dont understand.

oh, and i read the new csi booK!!! grave matters.
nice.

2004-11-03T01:26:00.000+08:00

Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And everything you do,
Yeah, they were all yellow.
I came along,
I wrote a song for you,
And all the things you do,
And it was called "Yellow."
So then I took my turn,
Oh what a thing to have done,
And it was all "Yellow."
Your skin
Oh yeah, your skin and bones,
Turn into something beautiful,
You know, you know I love you so,
You know I love you so.
I swam across,
I jumped across for you,
Oh what a thing to do.
Cos you were all "Yellow,"
I drew a line,
I drew a line for you,
Oh what a thing to do,
And it was all "Yellow."
Your skin,
Oh yeah your skin and bones,
Turn into something beautiful,
And you know for you,
I'd bleed myself dry for you,
I'd bleed myself dry.
It's true, look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine for,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine.
Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And all the things that you do
yellow by coldplay

2004-11-03T01:17:00.000+08:00

[[music playing in my head: that thing you do by the wonders]]

heehee. on the pretext of being a responsible song i/c, i have borrowed jodie's cd so that i could 'listen' to the oliver twist song for our level song item, when in actual fact, i have been jamming to other nice songs on her cd. such as that thing you do, the reason, yellow and many more. so you see. i am extremely corrupted. haha. beware. and i have officially decided to give sylvia a nice role for the level song because she lent me her class tee. see. another proof that im corrupted. mwahahaha.

maymay ma'am: thank you ((:
aud ma'am: haha.. thankew ((: take care too... study hard for the os.. but take care of yourself too!! ((:
sonia: i shall say it again: SONIA ROCKS. hahaha (: sorreee!! erms, shall try to get it frm you asap!! hahaha.. and erms, if you simply cant control the urge, you can open up the plastic and burn the cd or something [i promote piracy. boohoo. im a bad girl] haha.. i wont mind. cuz im nice too (: haha.. and yesh! oh did you read today's life?? em lipsynched too!! bah. and how could anyone lip synch to the wrong song?? i mean, like, isnt it obvious that the words dont fit or something??
rachel: hello rachel. thank you for tagging (: hahas..hmm.. i strongly suspect that you only tag because i say you rock right?? muz be lar.. hahas (: heehee thank youu (: of course my class rocks. cuz they have a super ultra erms, rocking girl in it which is.. so obviously.. ME. hahah (: okay im egoistic. heehee. i think her single sounds so madonna-ish. but the chorus keeps getting stuck in my head...

oh yesh, just in case there's any nice soul out there reading this.. [im sure there is, since im so nice rite??] erms, i would really really appreciate it if somebody could like take some time out and help me burn a cd??? heehee.. well in case theres really such a kind soul, i shall post the songs here so erms, if that person has all these songs and dun mind burning a cd for me or something.. yeahs..

edited
+that thing you do by the wonders+
+we're all to blame by sum 41+
+the reason by hoobastank+
+same direction by hoobastank+
+american idiot by greenday+
+1985 by bowling for soup+
+stand by me by i dunno who+
+summer nights by john travolta and oliver newton john+
+school of rock+
+last kiss by pearl jam+
+shakin' by rooney+
+just lose it by eminem+
+car wash by x'tina and missy elliot+

lalala...

well anywayys, we had talentime meeting today. unofficial. only half our level came. huge SIGHX. gloria had piano. grace had i dunno what. suelin and huizyi had i dunno wad. so yep, we discussed.. quite a lot.. i think.. and we couldnt find the sec2s. well they were supposedly having a meeting on tuesday. that's why i put the meeting on tues cuz, erms, i needed to tell them some stuff.. but oh wells... nvm. can tell them tmr. tmr's official meeting. not exactly looking forward to PT and firedrills and all that. i think we shld focus more on talentime first.. oh wells.
oh and we had colours and style presentation. the lady was rather eccentric. hhas.. (; but it was really obscene. how she kept erms, stripping in front of us.. like.. errr...

oh yesh, i read Digital Fortress.. ((: it was... not as nice as da vinci code. i suppose i prefer those religion stuffies den all the maths thingy. cuz digital fortress is so.. mathematics.. and it's like, i hate the way the susan fletcher and david becker are soo stupid. like.. erms, the bad guy is so obvious liaos.. and shes still like denngging over there. blah. i think they're both very thick pple. and they have super slow reaction. and david is ultra dumb. he keeps saying the wrong things and pple keeps misunderstanding him. blah. cant wait to read angels and demon. but im not going to read it now.. cuz if i keep reading, ill run out of books to read and ill get bored to death.
oh yes, i finished scorpio!! hahas.. the book i bought for gloria's bdae.. well anyway, it was nice!! but the ending SUCKED. he died. yes. alex rider. died. EUGH!!! i lurve alex rider!! how could he die!! i lurve him!! i cant live without him!!! ahhh.. he diedddddddd blah. just like artemis fowl. just erased the memory and poofed. well, apparently the author is writing another artemis fowl book so.. its okay. but i dunno if theres another alex rider. pls let there be!! baaaaah.

oh btw, did i tell you? okay i didnt. anyway, i was remarking to shonda that everybody's catching the flu bug. well i meant to say flu bug. but some how or another, i said blu fug instead. and erms, if you realised fug sounds a lot like.. well, you knoww..
so funny right??
that's my baby cousin's fav phrase. he'll go "so funny right?" den start laughing.. hahas..

2004-11-01T23:27:00.000+08:00

[[music playing in my head: what you waiting for by gwen stefani]]

so we had lower sec talentime today and...

we won!!!

so let's give a round of applause to our class!! and co!!!

i shall pretend for once that i can sing and dance and i shall give a critical review of today's performance [whoaa so cheem huh]

i give it 2/5 stars.

This year's talentime performances were filled with boring dance steps which seemed to be repeated thruout all the performances. The singing was terrible. And there was a whole lotta giggling. It would be highly entertaining for perverts such as Gloria Cheng, but for the rest, it would be utterly boring. Hence, i can probably conclude that those who enjoyed themselves would probably be the technician guy and Mr Teh, and also, gloria, because well, gloria is... ahem. Do you know whY?? This is because most of the performances were just filled with girls wearing super short skirts and flashing their bras [and sometimes no bras] and walking on high heels strutting on stage as though it was some kinda America's Top Supermodel contest. Many Sec One classes [who have sadly, lost the kinda innocence sec ones are supposed to have] gave weird performances which consisted of girls scantily clad as though they were bar girls, and just twirling round and round so that their skirts could fly up and they'll start giggling. But then again, i am speaking about most of the performances. Not all.
And when finally there was a nice song, take for example, the class which did That Thing You Do [the music was good], some person had to spoil it by (a) singing seriously out of tune and giggling halfway thru (b) being giggly and unprofessional dancers.
ANd it was rather obvious that some classes barely bothered to rehearse because it felt as though there was a bunch of monkeys on the stage. And there was even one performance by a certain class that caused Shonda to remark something along the lines of "What the heck were they doing during all the free periods?"
Well, anyway, i felt that the only performances that deserved anything was CO's. and probably SY. because, well, i come from SY and hey, ours was not bad okay.
Actually, i thought that CO deserved to win. not saying that SY doesnt, just that i really thought that CO would win, but as fate would have it...
Because i felt that their dance was really lively and it was... good. Yes. They won the open item. That was really nice. the dance was really nice and all, well, maybe except for the fact that it went a teeny weeny out of tune at times. but it was nice. okay, maybe except for the part where a certain person was trying to act like she was Mariah Carey or Christina Aguilera. Or maybe except for the part where certain people were dancing as though they were dancing for a crowd of lusting fifty-year old chekopek who spend most of their lives in Geylang hanging out with hookers. But apart from that, it was great.
yes.

oh, and yvonne is in such a happy mood today. hahaha. she kept.. bouncing.. and erms, hugging me.. oh wells, yesh, im very lovable (:
well, anyway, just what i felt about today lar. you can disagree or agree. yeahs. i know im not in the position to say anything or judge, but.. well, its my opinion. and heck, its my blog, aint it?

and i had serious wardrobe problems. ):
but no worries, it was solved.. thanks to dawn's wet and mouldy pe shirt. hahas.. and sylvia!!!
i seriously think our sectwos RAWK.
i know im not supposed to show favourtism but just between you and me, i think sinlin, sylvia, erms, liqin, munching and erms, huanting and melissa [cuz they're my angels!!], and erms, amanda/yitseng and erms, many more.. rocks. oh and rachel too. because you know what, she has the BEST TASTE in the world. well if she still likes gc.

and larissa is still bugging me about the price of the new water bottle.
SIGHZ.

alas! my poor water bottle!!!

ps: i have a feeling that my ward and natalie feel like killing me. ):

2004-10-29T23:18:00.000+08:00

bitchy me.

2004-10-29T23:02:00.000+08:00

cara feels... like shit.

i have nothing to do, so i shall type an entry.

suddenly realised that it's like, the end of the year. like whoaa. so fast.
still remember last year when i was moaning and groaning about going to 2sy and i hated 2sy cuz obviously, i hated certain people.. but thankfully for me, the certain people ended up in 2co so... [sorry, no offence]
and suddenly... i lurve 2sy.
oh wells. kinda strange. but if you get stuck with 37 other pple for one whole year doing stuff like the ymca dance and talentime together, and when your class consists of kick ass people, you'd probably end up loving ur class right? oh wells.
just that.. i'd probably miss my class. so many pple got A2 [triple science and geog]. so we're probably going to go different classes or something??? i dunno... so im probably gonna miss some stuff about our class.. sighx.
and im gonna miss pple who are leaving next year.. cant remember all of them but.. ah wells.. will really miss them. sob sob.

oh btw, i got A1 [triple science and full lit]. yeah. dunno whether i shld be happy. i got what i chose for, didnt i?? wondered if i got what i wanted. but since my mother wants me to take triple science.. i cant do anything about it right? she probably knows best or something.. i dunno. just wished she would have listenedd.

oh btw, anyone else got A1??

vanessa was so happy she got into triple science cuz last minute, someone decided not to take triple science. haha. she wants to hug that person. haha.

` living in the shadows of someone else's dream

well, about today...
we had skills with the unseen. dieded of hunger. my gastric was killing me. well, it was fun. the whole thing was quite nice lar.. not as boring as the WITs. and the ms julia was corny. yups. and our song was... out of tune. haha.
we were like, anyhow singing to her. but she gave us the signature anyway. haha.
shonda lost her pen. den it was stolen by some co girl. den she took it back. maybe thats what happened to my pen too. hrmph. -indignant snort-

oh yes, i read the Da Vinci Code by dan brown. haha. cuz so many people from the bookworm club were reading it. den since yuankheng told me it was anti-christianity [i was cheated. hrmph.] i decided to read it. hahaha. well, anyway, it wasnt anti-christianity lar.. it was just so... fascinating. like the whole thing about the grail. the fact that jesus has a wife and a child.. i mean, it sounds more realistic than the whole jesus walking on water thing. oh, and the part where the curator of the museum died and the way he arranged himself and put all those clues was so cool. like, there were so many codes and cryptic messages to figure out... and all.. with all those words den like the newton's apple thingy and all.. yeah. really really cool. wonder if it's true anot. i mean, the whole PHI thingy. i mean, isnt it cool?? like PHI is considered the most beautiful number in the universe. and the whole leonardo da vinci being the grand master and the stuff dat he hid in his art. haha.. the mona lisa. why the heck is it famous anywayy. hahas.. maybe i shld appreciate art more.. hahaha.. i think all these stuff are so fascinating..
going to borrow the digital fortress frm grace teh.oh yes, grace ~~was~~ is mad. i think cuz she got same stream as us den she started hugging me like mad.. ewww.. hhahaha

singapore idol was boring. christopher is finally out. yayyy.
wonder why pple vote for daphne anyway. i dont think shes good.

funny how everything i do reminds me of `yyou

2004-10-27T15:53:00.000+08:00

Threw some chords together
The combination D-E-F
It's who I am, it's what I do
No one's gonna let it down for you
Try to focus my attention
But I feel so A-D-E
I need some help, some inspiration
(But it's not coming easily)
Whoah oh...

Trying to find the magic
Trying to write a classic
Don't you know, don't you know, don't you know?
Waste-bin full of paper
Clever rhymes, see you later

These words are my own
From my heart flown
I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you
There's no other way
To better say
I love you, I love you...

Read some Byron, Shelly and Keats
Resited in over a Hip-Hop beat
I'm having trouble saying what I mean
With dead poets and drum machines
I know I had some studio time booked
But I couldn't find a killer hook
Now you're gonna raise the bar right up
Nothing I write is ever good enough

These words are my own
From my heart flown
I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you
There's no other way
To better say
I love you, I love you...

I'm getting off my stage
The curtains pull away
No hyper bowl to hide behind
My naked soul exposes
Whoah.. oh.. oh.. oh.. Whoah.. oh..

Trying to find the magic
Trying to write a classic
Waste-bin full of paper
Clever rhymes, see you later

These words are my own
From my heart flown
I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you
There's no other way
To better say
I love you...
I love you, is that okay...?
these words by natasha bedingfield

to all who wished me happy birthday: thanks a lot!!!! ((:
roxanne: hee hee.. sorre lar.. but i just erms, get a kick out of changing blogs?? hahas...
nicole: yups, i like it!! ((: thanks a lot!
may may ma'am: hee hee. i decided that popcornnn- looked weird so... sorry lar... i nva said i dun like popcorn leh...

-sob sob- poor cara is at home now. she's been at home since monday afternoon ): poor cara went home early halfway thru the boring WITs workshop [not that she regrets it] and has been stuck at home since then. guess whY?? poor cara has got fever!! boohoo. thanks to xuewen, the great virus-spreader.
super unfair. wanted to go to school today one. sorry to xuewen and gloria. but den my fever came back yesterday night, halfway thru watching csi [it was chad michael murray!!!] and erm, yahs... sighhhx. and gloria was telling me how fun the erms, balls, were.. okayy.. this sounds gross... but the way gloria says it, it's even more gross... sighx.. cant be bothered to say.
and i bet i missed a lot of talentime practice and all that. i mean the class one. and we were supposed to bring our costumes today. but i couldnt anyways. cuz my jeans and teeshirts are in the wash. in fact, erms, they're still in the pile of dirty clothes. haha. oh wells...
boohoo. i am bored. bored. like, besides sleeping and eating and watching teevee.. what else can i do?? ive got no more books to read. oh wells.. there's charmed to look forward to tonight.

bleargh.

oh btw, if you wanna tag gloria, you can now. theres a tagboard inside her blog. stupid gloria. cant do it herself and make poor cara do it for her ):

double sighx.

nothing to update lar... sighx. life is so boring.... and im getting weird dreams about *you.
bleargh.
im watching too much teevee.

2004-10-27T15:52:00.000+08:00

You can dress me up diamonds
You can dress me up in dirt
You can throw me like a line-man
I like it better when it hurts

Oh, I have waited here for you
I have waited

You make me wanna lala
In the kitchen on the floor
I'll be a French maid
When I meet you at the door
I'm like an alley cat
Drink the milk up I want more
You make me wanna
You make me wanna scream

You can meet me on an aeroplane
Or in the back of the bus
You can throw me like a boomerang
I'll come back and beat you up

Oh, I have waited here for you
Dont, keep me waiting

You make me wanna lala
In the kitchen on the floor
I'll be a french maid
When I meet you at the door
I'm like an alley cat
Drink the milk up I want more
You make me wanna
You make me wanna scream

You make me wanna lala
In the kitchen on the floor
I'll be a french maid
When I meet you at the door
I'm like an alley cat
Drink the milk up i want more
You make me wanna
You make me wanna scream

I feel safe with you
I can be myself tonight
It's alright with you
Cause you hold my secrets tight
You do, You do

You make me wanna lala, lalala, lalala, lalalala, lala
You make me wanna lala, lalala

You make me wanna lala
In the kitchen on the floor
I'll be a french maid
When I meet you at the door
I'm like an alley cat
Drink the milk up I want more
You make me wanna
You make me wanna lala
In the kitchen on the floor
I'll be a french maid
When I meet you at the door
I'm like an alley cat
Drink the milk up I want more
You make me wanna
You make me wanna scream

You make me wanna lala, lalala, lalala, lalala, lala
You make me wanna lala, lalala, lalala, lalala, lala
You make me wanna lala, lalala, lalala, lalala, lala
lala by ashlee simpson

2004-10-23T22:16:00.000+08:00

*new blog. again.

oh btw, gloria has a new blog. hahas.. created it for her ((: well anyways, i think it's empty for the moment.
yups
that's it.
will reply the tags asap. sorry!

erms, btw, if you lazy to relink also nvm. because if you go to popcornnn, it's supposed to redirect to here but erms, im not sure if it works so...
yah...